Become Him
Arunis

Break, break,

That's what Ivana termed for him and Rachel at the moment.

In Ivana's room they're in. On the table, there were two cups of tea Ivana prepared for him and Rachel. Ivana's door opened, so the two could see what Nata and Calvin were doing in the meeting room.

The curtain of the meeting room was deliberately opened because Calvin was teaching Nata a lot about expression. They look professional at work, there is no bloodshed between the two even though they were once rivals.

Yes, Calvin calls her a rival once, because he realizes Rachel did not open the slightest gap for him to enter into his relationship. Nata is too lucky to have Rachel.

In her place, Rachel took a sip of her tea, and turned her face away as Nata looked at her from the window glass and gave a small smile. He pretended not to see Nata's efforts and chose to turn to Ivana who was also enjoying her tea.

“How are you doing Brandon and Martha Kak?” asked Rachel who tried to look calm in the midst of the onslaught of efforts Nata who continued to seek his attention.

The man even looked agitated and wanted to finish his study session with Calvin immediately. The theoretical direction of Calvin is digested rapidly by Nata's brain. Seeing Rachel waiting for him, made his adrenaline surge and gave him a lot of spirit.

“Em, fine.” Ivana put down her tea cup and looked back at Rachel.

“Sunday tomorrow, Brandon will be performing at his school. I don't know what he's going to show because he said surprise. But according to his teacher, Brandon had dared to stand in front of the crowd. Miss Rida said, there will be a sweet surprise from Brandon, for us."

"You can come, can't you, Chel? Brandon will definitely be very cool if you know his mamih Acen see the appearance of him.” Reveal Ivana while holding Rachel's hand. He knows exactly how much Brandon misses Rachel.

“I try. I miss Brandon too, I want to meet him.” I'm Rachel with a faint smile. He always remembered how Brandon embraced and calmed him down. The expression of the special child's love always imprinted in Rachel's heart.

“Iya Brandon also misses you.” Ivana rubs Rachel's arm gently.

“And about mamah,” Ivana paused her sentence for a while. There was a sense of tightness when she heard Rachel ask her about her mother. All Martha's faults on Rachel are like turning back on Ivana's head.

“Mamah is getting better even though she can't move on her own yet. Mom is like turning back into a baby, can't talk, only one hand can move. It's just the right hand. He depends entirely on the people around him.”

“Progres well, now you can sit upright in a wheelchair. The feeding hose was also removed, a week ago. Only the food must still be soft and fruitful. If you want to talk, write on paper or hp. His handwriting is no better than Brandon's, but I know he's trying hard to heal.” After this sentence Ivana fell silent for a while. He looked at Rachel guiltily.

“Thank you because at that time you were willing to talk to mama. The doctor said, Your voice awakens your subconscious. That's what made Mama survive. Thanks ya Chel.” Ivana clasped Rachel's hand tightly. Full warmth.

“I'm grateful that your condition improved. May you be healthy always.” Reveal Rachel with great determination.

In the past, he was very sad every time he received unfair treatment from Martha. But now, that feeling of sadness and anger had already greatly reduced to even barely exist. This finally allowed Rachel to sleep well.

As Eva once said, being hated by someone sometimes doesn't require a reason. To love and love someone, there are no limits. Only his attention is different.

Eva's words, now become Rachel's living motto. In such a way, he is more able to calm down and accept himself as someone who can be loved and hated by others. What's wrong with that, we can't please everyone. We can only be the best version of ourselves.

Other people always have expectations of us and we are never obligated to realize the expectations of others. All we need to do is accept and be at peace with ourselves and try to become someone better. There is no need to be the one that others hope for, just be the one who loves ourselves and others.

Haaahhhh, that's Rachel's heart now.

“Then, how is your relationship with Nata?” this time Ivana asked.

He sees Rachel's far more lethargic attitude towards his sister on their initial appeal of separation.

“Still the same, we've agreed to part ways and wait for the first trial call. Mas Nata asked for the opportunity to be able to propose mediation. I don't know what he has in mind now.” Rachel looked at Nata for a moment, the man was so serious about learning his role in Calvin.

“You, only you and your child are the priority in Nata's mind now.” Timpal Ivana with confidence.

Rachel was stunned, she turned her eyes on Ivana with a furrowed forehead. Honestly, Ivana's words made her heart beat.

“I want to tell you about something and after that, you are free to judge it from your point of view.” Ivana looked at Rachel fixedly.

Rachel nodded small.

Ivana sighed deeply before starting her story as telling this would also open her old wounds.

“Aruni. Nata has an ex-girlfriend named Aruni.” Said carefully. She looked at Rachel, waiting for her sister-in-law's response.

The deg!

“She was Nata's first love for more than either five or six years. They have been in contact since college, until graduation. Aruni is the daughter of a successful businessman. His parents are business rivals papah.” Ivana continues her story.

“Seeing their long-standing relationship, one day, Nata decides to propose to Aruni. He felt very ready to propose Aruni who he loved so much. He came to the house and introduced Aruni equally mamah, papah, me and of course Brandon who was then only about a year old.”

Ivana paused her sentence for a while, the tightness was again felt.

“He asked, why Brandon has not been able to do anything at the age of one year? He is still like a six or seven month old child and cannot really hold his head up yet.” Ivana smiled brightly remembering Aruni's question at that time.

“I told you, Brandon's a special kid.” Ivana's voice rang out.

“At that moment, Aruni instantly silently sculpted. I could squirm his facial expression that turned disgusted at Brandon. He looked at Nata and looked at me while saying, then there is a chance that I will also have a disabled child if married the same? He's just ahead of me and Nata.” Ivana exhaled slowly. The shadow of Aruni's face was like flashing in his thought cavity.

“At that time, I couldn't answer anything, Chel. I saw him take off the ring from Nata while saying that he was not ready to have a disabled child with Nata. He also went so and left the dinner that Nata had prepared to convey his intentions the same papah and mamah if they decided to get married.”

“I know, Nata's heart is broken. Instead of seeing sadness, I saw more anger in Nata's eyes. Nata feels that Aruni has demeaned us by leaving. Though they have promised that they will accept each other's shortcomings, while living as.”

“Some time after that, Nata only found out that Aruni was betrothed by his parents. Aruni's parents also tried to destroy the papah company by spreading negative issues about our company until we fell bankrupt. The issues come from Aruni who apparently never really loved Nata. He just made the most of their relationship by figuring out the weaknesses of our company.”

“Nata was really angry back then and she really hated Aruni. The Aruni he loved became Nata's greatest enemy." Ivana looked at Nata's figure over there with a look of pity.

"But god is fair. He made Aruni's life far from happy. In her marriage, Aruni often gets violent acts from her husband. Until then, Aruni realized and came again, begging Nata to return the same Dia.”

"I remember exactly, Aruni's disintegrated appearance back then was very similar to Marsya's appearance a while ago, when it came pleading for freedom to mokondo mad it." Ivana's a little cynical.

"What does Natanya want?" Rachel curious.

“Of course Nata does not want. She rejects any means Aruni used to approach Nata again.”

“Until one day, Aruni contacted Nata by phone home.”

“He threatened to kill himself if Nata did not want to go back with him. At that time Nata did not believe it until then some police came to the house and took Nata somewhere. Precisely the apartment Nata bought for Aruni.”

“Aruni stands on the highest floor of that apartment building. I'm the same Nata hurriedly went up to persuade Aruni to come down. But unfortunately, Aruni chose to jump when you just arrived at the elevator door.”

“His body was drenched in blood and Nata felt very guilty.”

“Since that incident, Nata has been traumatized. She is depressed but continues to deny her own feelings that she is depressed. He refused to consult a psychiatrist. He shifted his guilt by working insanely. The good result is, our company is back up again but the bad result, Nata's trauma is getting bigger.”

“Therefore, after meeting you, I and Papah find out about you, Chel. We feel you're the woman who can help Nata."

"And sure enough, Nata is improving. If you see Nata coming home late, it's not really overtime. She often comes to a psychiatrist to cure her trauma.”

“But, a few months ago Nata stopped coming to psychiatrists. He said you were medicine for him. Therefore, he wants to spend more time with you. He fell in love with you until he always wanted to quickly go home to be able to meet you.”

“When in love, Nata is always stupid. Until he is negligent. He forgets that before he loves others, he must love himself. He must heal himself before he can be with you completely. And that negligence, made his mental state weaken. Marsya was so great to play her role to pry Nata's wounds and guilt. Nata confusion because Aruni shadow continues to appear in his mind.”

“I still remember how he sat for hours with the psychiatrist until he decided not to go home. He did not dare to meet you because he realized, all this time he nyimpen shadow Aruni in you.”

“That's her biggest mistake Chel and I'm disappointed with Nata."

Ivana grabbed Rachel's hand and held it tightly.

"But now, he was really sorry. For Nata, losing you is far more frightening than losing Aruni. He is no longer concerned if you know he loves you so he can do anything to him. Because he believes, you're not Aruni.” Ivana Strictly.

"Can you give Nata a second chance? I know, your injuries are not small but I also know that Nata's efforts never mess around. She's really looking forward to your love."

"I'm sorry if I was presumptuous and asked this stupid thing for you." Tandas Ivana with a heart-wrenching look.

Rachel was silent for a moment. His feelings and thoughts were debated again after hearing all of Ivana's stories.

I don't know what he should do now. Can he trust Nata again?

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