BLESSINGS OF LOVE
Jimmy

"Sir Maya, the pillow still smells papa. Said Bik Atik, papa sometimes likes to come home here just lying down to take a nap if tired from the field," said Mega while clutching and kissing the pillow that she will use to sleep.

"For sure, this room also smells papa, really. I felt and remembered that papa's memory must have smelled like gini" Maya also said as her nose sniffed her father's bedroom.

"Sadly well, we no longer have papa," Mega began to cry.

"He, uh, when at the end of the year I want to have my seventeenth birthday. I used to imagine that seventeen years of birthdays were celebrated in a big way. Wear a pretty dress, then dance with papa," Maya also began to shed tears.

Mega approached her brother, then the two hugged and returned to crying.

"We agree, well, don't let your mom get married again".

"Yes, I don't want a stepfather either. We'll both be tortured when mama's gone".

Brother sister looked at each other, then hook each other pinky sign agreed never to let his mother marry again.

"You guys haven't slept?" oma Regina asked as she examined her two grandchildren.

"Don't cry anymore, your papa is calm there. Pray, yuk, if you cry, then your father will also be sad," said Oma Regina while holding back her tears.

Then Oma Regina invited her two grandchildren to pray together, praise God, ask forgiveness and also pray Mario to be calm on the side of God.

"The air is not too cold, then you even catch a cold. Just the temperature, because at home oma is not as hot as in your house".

"Yes, oma, later also surely mama will turn off the ac and open the window if we are asleep".

Oma Regina kissed her two grandchildren, after her two grandchildren closed their eyes, she came out of Mario's room.

While walking towards his bedroom, his tears flowed down his cheeks. Sad still felt in his heart, losing Mario, and the pain of seeing his two grandchildren.

But the Regina oma still has to continue to be strong, lest her daughter-in-law and grandchildren even lose their spirit later.

So is opa Hansen, he's still in the backyard. Maya and Mega showed a photo of a car that was still submerged in the river in Palembang.

His old mind was staring at how his son was trapped in the car and could not get out until he had to breathe his last breath.

While staring at the photo her grandson sent, back tears dripped down her cheeks.

This old father also does not want to look sad in front of his family, he wants all other children, daughter-in-law and grandchildren remain excited even though they have been left behind by loved ones horribly.

"White, how are you still in the backyard? Come in, it's been this night. Papih must rest immediately," said Jimmy who happened to look at the backyard and saw his father still sitting crying.

"Of course, don't cry. Papih who said it must be strong, the current papih period that cries continues," continued Jimmy while approaching his father.

"Don't cry because of Mario, papih sad when you see Maya and Mega. How will school, college. Papih can not help as much as before, you know yourself the papih teak wood business is not like it used to be. Degenerate era, everyone prefers furniture from practical wood today," said opa Hansen while breathing heavily.

"Already, Maya and Mega became Jimmy's responsibility. School needs, pocket money and others become the responsibility of Jimmy. Papih don't worry," said Jimmy.

Opa Hansen was speechless, his mind still burdened by his two granddaughters. How about one day Jimmy will have a household, unlikely to continue to be able to finance Maya and Mega. At least Jimmy has a responsibility to his own family.

"It's almost ten o'clock in the evening, the papih should also rest. Already old age like this, do not need much burden of mind. Let Jimmy handle it all".

Opa Hansen finally obeyed the words of his youngest son, slowly he got up and entered the house.

"Soraya hasn't slept?" asked Opa Hansen when he found his son-in-law still facing his laptop.

"A little while longer, papih. This is still a lot of student duties that I have to check" Soraya said.

"You also don't sleep too late, you'll get sick, you'll feel sorry for your children" Opa Hansen reminded Soraya.

"Good, papih. Soraya will soon be taking a break too".

Opa Hansen nodded, then he immediately went into his bedroom following the Regina oma.

After believing both parents immediately rest, then Jimmy approached his brother-in-law who was still busy struggling with his laptop.

"Sir Aya, still busy?"ask Jimmy.

"Oh, not really. What were you talking about, Jim?" Soraya asked back.

"I want to confirm something, it will definitely make Brother Aya hurt. But I'm also sure Aya's sister must want to know what really happened".

Soraya looked at Jimmy, then slowly she closed her laptop and sat down to face her sister-in-law.

"Tell me, Jim. I really have to know, why Mario to grieve me," said Soraya firmly.

Jimmy looked at Soraya who looked tough, then he conveyed what he had heard from Wildan and Danu who were his best friends Mario.

Flashback for a moment when this afternoon Jimmy met Wildan and Danu after finishing a meeting with all his staff at the office.

"Well, a new one can a big project come too eventually. Come on, get in my room," welcome Wildan when Jimmy comes to his office.

"How are you, boss Wildan, boss Danu, I hope my arrival does not interfere" said Jimmy as he greeted Wildan and Danu.

"No, let's have a casual chat in my room. For a moment I had the officer make us coffee and buy us snacks" Wildan said, exiting the room and apparently ordering one of his office employees to take out a few pieces of money.

"How, bro, what's the news?" ask Wildan when he enters his room again.

"Look at Wildan bang, Danu bang, I just got a college building project from Louis Orlando," Jimmy began his talk.

"Then?" ask Danu.

Jimmy sighed before continuing his words.

"But it turns out that in the employment contract with him, there should be no sub-contract at all. So I'm sorry I couldn't get bang Wildan and bang Danu's work team together for this job" Jimmy said.

"Take it easy, we already know how Louis Orlando Handoyo works. That's why we didn't move forward, because if the cooperation with him must be him who arranged us," Danu explained to Jimmy.

"But don't be afraid, Jim. This is your first step to work alone, not under the shadow of Mario. Just move forward, but remember our cooperation contract is also still the way, well," said Wildan reminded that they are still tied to another job.

"Ready, bang, for a job with bang Wildan and bang Danu, I've prepared Bakti and Amran. As for the job of building a college building, I've paired Ferry and Ko Aliong" Jimmy explained to his late brother's two best friends.

"Okay, sip, you gave Aliong a chance and trust. I'm sure he can, he was just carried away by Mr. A, actually he honestly just carried away the easy lifestyle by people like Mr. A," said Wildan.

"Sorry, bang Wildan and bang Danu, there's something else I'd like to ask. Are you willing to give me an explanation?" ask Jimmy.

"About what?" ask Danu curiously.

"On Mario and Asmila" said Jimmy, widening his eyes.

Wildan and Danu look at each other, automatically both surprised at Jimmy's question.

"What do you want to know about them?" ask Wildan.

Then Jimmy explained to the two about the conversation between Soraya and Aliong at Kristy's diner a few days earlier.

Soraya was with his two new friends who were also the family of the victims of the accident in Palembang. One of them was her husband Asmila.

Wildan and Danu are also surprised to hear that Soraya and her husband Asmila have dismantled Asmila's boarding room and found many of Mario's belongings there.

"Honestly, Jim, me and Wildan did know that Asmila met Mario a lot. If we gather at a cafe discussing work, surely Asmila soon followed. He's been chatting with us until the night," Danu starts to tell the story.

"But their problem until it comes to more than that, we can only guess. It was also because we had invited him here on purpose. Then I checked him for alcohol, and while he was drunk he opened the conversation" Wildan added.

Then Wildan and Danu told him how Mario got drunk and said.

"Lu both imagine, I married Soraya already a dozen years. But my wife up until now has never even shown that she loves me," said Mario when drunk a few years ago in the room that now Jimmy is with Wildan and Danu.

"Gue heard from others, if his wife first asked for intimate relations. But I've never felt it, even the one who likes to ask for it is Asmila".

"My wife does not want to be invited to make love by changing positions. Just the same Asmila I can do it, even many times. Maybe because she was lonely too, her husband just chased the post without caring about her".

"Indeed I married my wife because of an arranged marriage, but if I didn't love I couldn't have married her either. That's why I married her, because I fell in love with her. For the past few years I have been married, it is hard to get love from him. My business needs are my wife's duties, but I also need expressions of love from her. At least where I am, when I go home. What my children have always been, from their little ones to their teens, is always the children I have been".

"This is me never at all, maybe he's the one who's not in love with me. And I can feel loved, loved and desired it's the same Asmila".

"Like that, bro, that we heard from Mario directly when he was drunk here. It's clear what their forbidden relationship is like, and how, we don't know for sure" Danu told Jimmy.

Listening to the words of his brother's two best friends, making Jimmy so creepy to hear it.

"Gosh, that means my brother cheated. Bad bang Rio, I must how to explain the same to his wife and my family," complained Jimmy as he covered his face with both hands.

"If I think, his wife should know. Soraya also had to learn from this experience, who knew she had a soul mate again. At least Soraya should learn how to be a wife. Not just meet the needs of the husband, but there are other more important things to do. Intimacy with the most important partner is done by a wife," Wildan tells Jimmy about the importance of life with a partner.

"I'm more afraid of marriage, I'm afraid that until there's a betrayal of love like this. I was once betrayed, I couldn't if I was married like Rio bang, then there was an affair" Jimmy said at the time.

"It's wrong of you to think so, not everyone who is already a household like that. My wife and I have been married for almost twenty years, many ripples of temptation. But if we go together, open to each other, God willing, everything goes well" Wildan said, advising Jimmy.

"True, don't equate you with Mario. Maybe it was suratan he was so, Soraya could not be invited open all this time. But don't be afraid of marriage, it's wrong that you always think so" Danu also advised Jimmy.

After talking for a long time, Jimmy finally said goodbye to Wildan and Danu. Moreover, she was called by her mother who said that she was awaited by Kristy at her home.

Returning to the central room in the Maliangkay family home, Jimmy recounted what he had heard to Soraya his sister-in-law.

While shedding tears, Soraya listened to what Jimmy had to say. It hurt her heart, but it was also true what she heard. For a dozen years of living with Mario, she is like a wife Mario. But the total role as a wife, especially in terms of filling the inner husband, he does not run completely.

True Soraya never had the initiative to vent love to her husband, only in the form of obligations that she did without reciprocating the overflow of love to her life partner.

"Thank you, Jim. I'm also starting to realize, there's no way a hundred percent Mario's cheating. There must have been a hand in it that made him decide to have another love in his life. There is a part of my fault, and there is a part of his fault" Soraya said in tears.

"At this time I can no longer be angry to vent his frustration to him. The man is no longer there, only the regret I now bear".

"In every prayer I always ask God for forgiveness for my husband, and I also ask that I can change my mindset as well. I don't want kids when they grow up and get married, to have the same thing with me".

Jimmy couldn't say anything more, he patted his brother-in-law's crying shoulder and checked the locks of doors and windows all over the house.

Soraya turned off her laptop, then immediately went into the bedroom, seen the two girls were asleep.

Entering the bathroom in the room, Soraya immediately washed her face.

After that, he prayed to God. Begging God for forgiveness, because at least the mistakes her husband did was a part of her that led her husband to commit an affair.

"Mama, here sleep next to Mega" whispered her youngest child who woke up when Soraya finished praying.

They must always show love to their partners in the future.

Jimmy was lying on his bed, the wall clock was showing almost midnight.

He also has to rest, he sees chat messages on his phone. The last he received from Aliong around nine o'clock last night, apparently Aliong and the team in the field just finished drilling water. And Aliong sends information as a report to Jimmy as his boss.

The short message she was waiting for from Kristy did not come to her phone.

Jimmy folded his hands behind his head while lying down and contemplating.

Remember the time when you had a lover named Yanti, three years of dating but Yanti even had another lover even to get pregnant with the man.

That was twelve years ago before he worked in Mario's office.

"Well, I really want to get married, have children, have a wife that I can hug. But I'm afraid, really the fear still can't go away. Plus bang Rio also up to this incident," Jimmy's inner while lying down.

"Oh, I can't think. It's up to Kristy to forgive me or not. Not necessarily he my soul mate, son of a rich man, what does it mean to me. Just sleep, sleep me".

Within seconds, Jimmy was asleep and dreaming of flying into the clouds.

Unbeknownst to Jimmy, after returning home from Jimmy's family home, then Kristy immediately to his restaurant.

Fortunately that night not too many customers came, usually in the middle of the week rarely visited by many customers.

Another case at the end of the week, surely visitors can not stop coming.

Kristy immediately gave her homemade pancakes to all her employees, especially with the cook she had a long discussion.

"If you use tuna, it is delicious but the price is expensive. Later who wants to order," said the cook.

"Wear the cob, tomorrow I try to buy the cob and we try to make a cob" said Kristy.

"Only if the fish cob should be more spicy, because if not spicy there will be a bitter taste arising from the fish," the cook gave his input again.

"OK, tomorrow morning Oci before coming here, stop by the market to buy a cob. Here's the money you brought, '" Kristy gave Oci a job.

"Ready, the same let alone a beautiful boss. This is the money more certainly," said Oci.

"This is what I'm recording, which must be chili and tomato should also be a lot".

After noting all the shopping needs, Kristy handed over the shopping notes to Oci.

Seen by Oci, on Kristy's face like saving a story, then immediately he asked Kristy what she was feeling.

"What story does the romance have, nih.... behind learning to make pancakes?" Oci Goda.

"Sokay know, just want to know," said Kristy while chirping.

"Hmmm, lie down, time is just learning to pray without any story".

"Hmmm, Jimmy used to, he was sorry. But I kept quiet and answered nothing, so he asked me why I was silent. I said I'll think first," Kristy nyerocos told Jimmy.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I'm sure she's been sorry to ever say that same pretty boss," teased Oci again.

Kristy was silent, she just shrugged and went upstairs to her private room.

Oci giggles alone to see the behavior of his boss, he is sure that Kristy also actually likes Jimmy.

At nine o'clock in the evening, the restaurant finally closed as well. All the employees went home, Kristy made sure all the windows and doors were locked.

After that he climbed into his private room, turned on the music and lay on his bed.

Wanted to pour out his feelings for his friends, but he soon remembered that all of his friends were married.

It doesn't feel good to bother his best friend to just listen to his outpouring.

All his close friends have long married and have children, of course they are all busy with their families.

Suddenly his stomach feels hungry, the effect of eating is not clear all day so that the night becomes hungry.

Forced to go downstairs, to check the fridge, if there are any apples there.

When he came down the stairs, he again saw a flower sprig on the cashier's desk with the words "I'm sorry".

"Hmmm, I've had this flower five times. I don't know who put it here. Whatever it is, I'm lazy to think about it," said Kristy as she continued to step into the kitchen.

"Thankfully there are still apples" said Kristy happily.

Then he picked up an apple and immediately went upstairs again. Without him noticing there was a black shadow rising into the air hole on the kitchen ceiling.

Inside Kristy's room sat at the end of the bed enjoying an apple she picked up from downstairs earlier.

Kristy pranks her music device she changes from disc to radio, and starts looking for her favorite radio channel.

"Hi, still accompanied by Bela and Elan, we are still talking about forgiving people who have been rude to us. Okay, Elan, how many messages have come in from listeners who give responses to our discussion," a radio host named Bela said like that.

"Wow, there are so many Bela, there are already dozens who have entered. I read some well, this is from Gugum tattoo he said just forgive me, who knows when it was the person who spoke again khilaf," sahut Elan one of the other hosts who were both hosting the event that night.

"If this is from Nita Centil, just forgive who knows the soul mate. Hahahaha, means he's never been talked rough with a guy".

"But make no mistake Bela, there are also men who are arrogant but actually really like the same girl".

"Pretend not to, but want to, yeah".

"If there's a guy like that to you, how are you going to Bela?".

"If I'm sorry, if it's as ugly as you, I'll consider it. Haha".

"Well, if it's ugly like me but shit, how?" ask Elan.

"Gue sorryin dong, right tajir. Haha".

"Basic Bela matre".

"Just son, you Elan. I pinch it to blue".

"Hahahaha, torture. Instead of hearing me being tortured by Bela, we better listen to the latest chat in fifth place this week. I'm sorry my love, from the blue hearts".

There was a melodious song performed by one of the famous foreign band groups.

Kristy at least felt a little bothered by the talk of the two hosts, plus the melodious song lyrics that contained about a man who apologized for abusive remarks that he did not realize.

After a few hours of listening to the chatter of the radio host about the apology, then followed by many songs of love sad tones seduce both presented by foreign artists and from within the country itself.

Finally at midnight when the show was over, before going to bed, Kristy pressed her chat button and typed in a sentence she was pointing at Jimmy.

"Forgiveness for new beginning".

(Pardon as the beginning of a new leaf)

But after the message was sent, until the next morning Kristy didn't get any answers from Jimmy.

By six o'clock in the morning, Kristy was up and ready to run.

Glanced at his phone and saw a sign that Jimmy had been reading his chat since half an hour ago.

"Jimmy Monyong was asleep last night, just read the chat this morning half an hour ago. Until now do not reply to my chat. Sorry I sent him such a message," said Kristy with annoyance, then she immediately went downstairs and ran off early in the morning around the complex.

Without Kristy knowing, actually Jimmy was glaring at his phone while reading Kristy's message repeatedly.

For half an hour she thought hard about the meaning of the sentence Kristy had sent her.

Even after taking a shower and breakfast as well, Jimmy still thought of that phrase.

"Sir Aya, the meaning of the phrase from forgiveness for new beginning, what the hell is that?" jimmy asked his brother-in-law, who is an English lecturer.

"I'm sorry to open a new page, so why? Hmmm...surely, you will get a message from a girl," said Soraya while teasing her sister-in-law.

"Oh, no, it's from the status of friends on social media" replied Jimmy just as he was.

"But it must be a girl, if a guy makes it, where might you think about it," Soraya said while making jam bread for her children.

Jimmy didn't answer, just kept quiet pretending he didn't hear what Soraya said.

"Jim, when you were still in SD and like to join mamih to the yoga place. Remember not the same white grandpa, round eyes?" ask Oma Regina while sitting at the dinner table.

"Hmmm, remember to forget, if not wrong the child's mother was pale skin. The boy was also a little boy, two or three years old, funny fat, white skin, his eyes round like a rabbit" said Jimmy while remembering the incident when he was in elementary school.

"Yes, the child's mother was Ivanna Romanov Handoyo's mother, and the child was Kristy" Oma Regina said casually.

"Ohuk...huk...huk...!!!"Jimmy suddenly choked.

"Why are you, Jim?" ask Soraya.

"Jeez, mamih..so Kristy is that kid?" Jimmy's shocked.

"Yes, she was yesterday when Kristy came here. When she asked whose child she was, it was Ivanna's mother's son. Of course you know him well first," Oma Regina casually explained.

"Cie.cie...apparently dating since childhood..ehem...

soon there's a new son-in-law in this house" Soraya teased.

"Basar Aya, how do I know that he's a kid who used to like me to be seduced. Now it's big like this, almost old anyway," said Jimmy pretentiously evasive.

"Den Jimmy, let's get married. Let Atik have more work, still strong if ngurusin baby anyway," said Bik Atik who suddenly joined nimbrung.

Jimmy did not answer, his face was confused. Want to reply to chat still do not know what to type, plus hear a new story if Kristy turns out the little boy who used to like her seduced at once he took care of.

Memories decades ago back present, he remembered if his mother followed to the gymnastics yoga place would be happy because would meet the white dedek round eyes.