Drunk Duda (Ceria Skalane Time)
MD126S. Disappointed and angry
I grabbed my brother and leaned on his left shoulder. He continued to sob by wiping his tears, mbak Canda so sucked with his tears that continued to flow.
I know, he's a whiny guy. But I didn't expect, he could still cry in the crowd like this.
“Mbak, sorry.“ I rubbed his arm.
“Sorry for what?“ Mbak Canda looked at it.
Apparently, her husband was on the doorstep. Maybe, bang Givan is looking for the whereabouts of mbak Canda. He must be worried, because his wife is not nearby. Moreover, Canda mbak does not master English.
“Mbak angry with me.“ I hugged his stomach.
Mother of many children, her stomach is this flat. I became jealous of him, because without money and effort, my physique could not return as it was once again.
“Mbak disappointed, Ria! Why does it have to be like this?! Whose kid is that? You're cheap right! You're kept away from Ken bang, here you even beguiled men. So why be separated from Ken's bang, if you stay broken like this? Now you're a child, you're in labor tomorrow. What do you want? How are we gonna get angry? It's all free, Ria. Besides, we continue the path of life after this.“ Kanda cried with her face covered.
“Sorry, Ma'am. I know, I can't possibly be disappointed with me. But I beg you, I'm sorry.“ I don't know how to fix this.
“Mbak sorryin, relax aja.“ Mbak Canda wiped away the rest of his tears, then focused on looking straight ahead again.
“I don't want Mbak to change.“ I want him to care about me.
“Mbak is impossible, but don't know your brother-in-law. If suppose he makes a distance between Mbak the same as you, Mbak can only recede.“
I'm tensed back. Because just now, he had already said an unpleasant remark. I'm afraid he doesn't care about me, I'm afraid he hates me.
“Please persuade him, Ma'am.“ I don't want to get Givan changed for me.
“After this.“ Mbak Canda was calmer, only his breathing was still wheezing.
The event was over, I got a message from Alfonso to come to a restaurant not far from this college. I walked along with Canda, he was shorter than me, he looked like my brother.
As I was about to cross the road, I saw Ken's bang car parked on the shoulder of the road. I don't want Ken to get caught here by Canda's mom and Givan's bang.
But what try?
He got out of his car and put on his glasses. But a moment later, bang Ken came back after noticing me and Canda's mother who wanted to cross.
He was afraid of being caught by Canda, if he was here. He saw Canda's whereabouts and he realized that our family was here.
“Come, Ria. It's Givan's mas in front.“ Ma'am Canda pointed right across the street.
Bang Givan was waiting there, but there was none. Bang Givan must be worried about his wife, bang Givan must think his wife is difficult to cross like a child.
“Come, Mbak.“ I started crossing, when the crossing lights were out. The lights turn red when it is forbidden to cross.
Bang Givan immediately embraced his wife, when we arrived before her. He was not ashamed to kiss his wife's head, in the crowd like this. Suddenly his steps came to a halt, then he turned his head towards me and embraced me as well.
My regrets are getting round and flat. My affection is this deep for me, even though I have done wrong for not obeying him. But I let him down, I ignored him and obeyed him. Now I risk it myself.
“I've ordered you a meal, Canda. You should eat a lot.“ Givan's bang voice quivered, while talking to his wife.
“Iya, Mas.“ Mbak Canda turned her head towards her husband, she looked up to see the face of her husband who was not in line with her.
“You too, Deck,” he added later, with a straight-forward view.
He still cares about me.
“Still, Bang.“ I hugged her so tightly.
My tears broke in her arms. I got as much as I could, with a crying voice that I could not control. I'm sure I'm the center of attention of people passing by here.
Just one hand bang Givan, who was on my back and rubbing my back. Smaller hands, come and rub my back. I know, it's my brother's hand.
Maybe bang Givan still hugged his wife too, he didn't let go of his wife when I hugged her this tight. I wanted to cry like this a long time ago, I was tired of being so stupid with everything that happened to me.
Even though there is the role of Alfonso's mother, but my tears are not free and relieved like in my own family. I let my sister-in-law's clothes get wet, because of my tears and my nose water. Bang Givan didn't ask me to let go, he just kept rubbing my back nonstop.
Until my condition calmed down a little, I let go of my embrace on his own body. Bang Givan's face looks red, with red, watery eyes. He threw away his face when I looked at him.
“Mas, here there is bottled mineral water that goes in the refrigerator no yes? Tasty time yes drink a light-light cold.“
Kumat's absurd.
“There, Biyung.“ Bang Givan approached his wife's face and kissed her forehead. Not to forget, bang Givan also cleaned the remaining tears on his wife's face and took his wife's eye dirt.
I want a household like that. But why, when living my own household does not match my expectations and expectations? Or are my hopes too high? Do I have to be grateful, even if my hope is reached only as high as a tree? As Brother Tiwi said.
Ma'am Canda held her husband's hand, then she returned to the right side of her husband by swinging their cluttered hands. Bang Givan held me in his arms as well, only that I was left behind and did not equalize his steps as he did.
“There is rice, Yayah wants to eat rice. Hungry in the morning, no rice. But it's a bit more rice here, either to be full no.“
Although he is rich, but he is still an Indonesian who has not eaten his name if he has not eaten rice. Before I got into the resto, I turned my head back towards the car Ken bang was in. He wasn't outside, only the car glass was half open.
Whatwant?
It seems he wanted to come to me. It's just that Canda's whereabouts made him stop at me. Apparently, he was watching me from far away. He must be familiar with the stature of bang Givan even from afar.
One question is, why didn't he come closer? Why didn't he come to me? Why didn't he intend to say anything to bang Givan? That is, just explaining it that way.
“Eating, Deck. Come on, after this we go to the hospital. You have to stay one day in the hospital before the cesarean. He said your schedule is tomorrow morning, so this afternoon you should be in the hospital.“ Bang Givan brought a plate of rice in front of me.
Am I really going to be sighed? I want my son to give birth normally, so that bang Ken understands that this is his son that he wants his birth to pass through my birth canal.
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