Drunk Duda (Ceria Skalane Time)
MD174. Wounds each

"Biarin, the important thing is to find money. The one who takes care of the child is the wife." He glanced at me cynically. 

"Bang Givan can take care of the children, but he also looks for money." I took back this piece of the jengkol from his container. 

"Well, there's this nanny."

Pocky. 

How is that his mind? Is there a nanny she said? 

"Yes the time of having children continues, but can not take care of children. Shame on me." I want to know his perspective on children. 

"The grandfather certainly can, mamah aja every have a child that is taken care of really. Only, I came to Cali this rarely met. Plus, I'm really worried about him. He used to be helpless at Kirei's age, I carried him with me and he continued to the mama house. I'm not back for a long time, the last time I bought him a tricycle at eight months old, Canda's brother was sick. Keep coming herein, do not return home because there is a new land forage. Be him so, cake to be eaten. But it's good to see him volunteer, remember the rat who was chased by the cat. Funny how that is." He smiles to himself. 

The child is likened to a mouse being chased by a cat. 

"When he's really scared of you, you won't call him funny anymore." I was just scaring. 

"Yes big time? It is impossible, especially if I go home often. You just go to the kid you just take a shower in the morning with nyuin." He glanced at me. 

He likens it to me. I obviously work, I don't have the backbone to meet my needs. 

"And I work. Yesterday I didn't work anyway, just as I kept going. Although I'm not a mother, can I take care of my own children." Although helped by people around as well. 

"Yes, my son you can't take care of." He looked into the jengkol container. 

"She can't, so don't take me as your wife." I'm just lying. 

The proof is that yesterday Cali came close to me. Indeed his son is active, so he does not want to be carried like Cala. Carrying her around is like forcing her to. In essence, he would rather be left alone. 

"What relation? I need you to accompany me to sleep." His perverted smile came out. 

I'm really traumatized by a widower who didn't bring his son into his new marriage, afraid of it like Ken bang yesterday. Let alone his son, his mother did not know that he married and had children from me. 

"Well, no, where s**s are out of need."

Huh huh? 

"Vin, do you know that households are complex? We're not just going to admit s**s, but there are other lives that need to be balanced, too." I wipe my fingers on dry tissue, because I don't usually eat my own fingers to clean the seasoning. 

"You think I've never been married? There are economic problems, there are understanding, ego, family, social and all sorts of things. I mean, I haven't been living with you. So, you won't know how I love you and hold you. I don't want to know any closer, I don't want to date, because in this way I've lost consciousness." He took his seat and set his eyes on me. 

I still don't believe it. She's not mature enough to be married, I'm afraid her household is like a game to her. 

"You're not good, Vin. Yesterday, too, he said that you turned off your wife over the phone. I'm hard-pressed to believe you." I clasped my hands looking at him. 

"Yes, I'm a talak because she brought her husband to Brazil together. But I learned from all that, I learned that women's desires are strong and compelling. The initial problem was just because it was never inaugurated, so it was so complex and he thought that I underestimated it. When asked, he seemed to have been hurt by my actions. From there I understood that a woman's desire was hard. What are your past problems, I know my mother was once a widow. Widows aren't bad, depending on who's holding. Ajeng was the same, he was not bad, he was a smart wife and good at managing finances. Just because it's her fault I married without parental permission, I booked her there. So the cake was confused," he said later. 

Honestly, I'm still floating about his history yesterday. What he said was so unclear to me. I'm not claiming to be holy either, but I want to know the biggest point of trouble at her wedding yesterday. 

"I still can't believe you and you're not clear, Vin." I let out my breath. 

"I was confused yesterday, so I asked for help bang Givan. Without a bang Givan help, without brother Cali's foster Canda. Maybe, I'm the same kid that dries up together in that room you're in. I think every day the reason Ajeng could put Cali outside, I think every time about Ajeng who brought his ex-husband home to Brazil. I wondered about him who was that so happy with his own son. I also thought, the time I talak and she continued to be pregnant but there was no defense once with the talak that I love. I mean I know she was humming it, but why did she bring her ex-husband home and accept it was time for me to break up. The reason is trivial, because he never obeyed the time he asked for formalization. I've brought her home, you know what, brother? But mommy same papah again has problems at home. I keep telling them that I have a crush on widows. They asked a lot, about the status of Ajeng's widow. I'm frank, if he's not official. I was forbidden to do the same Ajeng, I was advised a lot for it. But anyway, Ajeng I married at that time. Inevitably, I cover him temporarily because I'm afraid mama and papah are even more angry." This is the son of mamah Dinda and Papah Adi, his hard nature will lose if it is to his own parents. They flattered their parents' decision, even ruling out his decision. 

"After that, how was he?" I read the story well. 

"After that I messed up, this is the fruit of the old man's lie, make from the parents. Bang Givan was shocked, because Ajeng's thought was too strong for himself. The reason is to bring home her ex-husband too, let her ex-husband guarantee monthly money for his eldest son. Because his father Eagle his real father Eagle said. Go on, love him. Pissed me if you remember that, made me crazy with his attitude." 

Such problems, too, are enlarged and can be fatal apparently. I learned from the story too, it turns out that the ego of each partner is difficult to understand. Coupled with, the influence of parental consent, communication and understanding. 

Divorce is not necessarily from a third person, or parents. But, each personal party can trigger divorce. Household is that complicated, then we can't unravel it, finally parting way out.

With my past being divorced, past having been divorced, can we wade back into the household with our own wounds? I'm afraid Gavin always brings our problems to parents, because he feels this way because he doesn't obey parents. I was afraid, the talisman was easy to come out with my nature like this. 

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