
"What's that?" He fused his eyebrows.
Does he have a brain? Why did he ask?
"Nyesel I married you! You act like you're a good man, a man who doesn't do anything weird. In fact?! You have a relationship with him where you promised and prepared a marriage for us. You motherfucker! You're not a good man!" My breath is kempis. I'm too emotional, I find it hard to digest my own emotions.
"And I'm still marrying you."
Is that a smart answer for him?
"Where are you? You have status with someone else, but you promised me a marriage. How do you feel? Do you have the feeling to understand someone's heart?" My tears seeped along with the vibrations in my voice.
"Can you shut up?! The important thing is, I choose you and marry you?!" He put on a creepy look.
Oh, so he wants me to shut up? Okay, I can be quiet forever from now on.
"okay." I went to the bathroom to wash my face.
I'm gonna kill this feeling, even if I know he's my husband. My disappointment in him, made the sense of caring erode right now.
Already Maghrib, I'm out the bathroom already has ablution. I let him play with the phone, with Kirei looking at the contents of my father's phone screen.
So this is the Riyana family? The selection was really done, without thinking about how the women felt.
After I finished praying, someone called out his name. Gavin came out immediately, until he heard the discussion about the harvest.
Kirei whined, he rubbed his face. He seems to be sleepy. I was still claustrophobic and snobbed, not hungry and interested in eating at all. I better sleep, while nursing Kirei. Because this activity is intoxicating in my opinion.
I don't know if I've been asleep for a long time. Gavin patted my feet softly, with a small request.
"You eat, Mom." He's still trying to wake me up.
Didn't he? Need too? He wanted me to shut up, right? Okay, I'll always be quiet. I went to bed, without being found out that I was awake.
His heavy breathing sounded. Then, there was the sound of a spoon clashing with a plate.
"Wake up, Mbu. You haven't eaten." His voice was a little loud, followed by the sound of the television lighting up.
What does he care about me? Earlier, when in front of RT sir he asserted that we were betrothed.
I couldn't really sleep, I heard clearly some sounds from his activities in this room. Maybe long enough, until finally he lay behind me and rubbed my body.
I thought to myself, that he married me because b. He wants to stay smooth doing, in a halal relationship. He wants his biological needs to be met, without having to be rewarded for sin later.
"Remote." Her hand opened my dress.
"Oh God." His hand was gone from there, but it felt another movement.
He needs an impingement and I understand if I'm needed. This time, I actually left her to sleep.
Am I gonna be cursed? But how did my husband who disappointed me in such a way?
Wake up early, just to wash his clothes. I didn't make breakfast, on purpose. I went out with Kirei, after washing and drying his work clothes.
Kirei and I had taken a shower, I went to take my dirty clothes to the laundry place to eat breakfast outside. Somehow his response and did he realize his mistake this time.
If he is wrong, he will assume that it is a minor problem. If I am the one at fault, that matter will turn out to be big and fatal.
Ah, this kid. It's my entertainment, he's my friend walking around alone.
After all, Gavin was used to waking up during the day. He would not realize that his wife and son were not by his side. Either he'll look for us no, if he realizes that we're not with him.
"Dad Ken, kentir. Gavin's father, saiko. Nothing's right about this guy, Dek." I scrambled this kid to talk.
Kirei touched my mouth instead, he was excited to see me chewing. I grew anxious for him, thank God I was given this cute child.
Where else is it? I'm lazy to go back home. My mood got worse, as the young girl wearing the gray span skirt queued up at the porridgeman as well.
Not only that, he pointed to the place next to me and he approached me. His face was Chinese, narrow so, with white skin. He's shorter than me, probably because he's still growing.
"Hi, Grandpa." He even greeted my son.
"Hallo, Brother." I had to teach my son to say the greeting as well.
"Whose name is Adek, brother?" lina asked with a touch of Kirei's hand.
Kirei instantly noticed Lina so fixed, her smile was not there yet. He still doesn't know anyone here.
"Kirei, his name." I answered as necessary he asked.
"Breakfast is not the same, Gavin, brother?" He dared to ask.
What the hell is that dude? Baby you so? Or additional calls such as bung Karno like that?
"Still sleeping." What do I have to answer? My husband was still a mess.
"What time, Brother? It was the same with me. I'm out the alley, he's into the alley."
Oh, it's been wandering around too it's people.
"The grandfather can't get up in the afternoon, brother. It used to be routine between me and school."
Oh, nyambi so a free ojol as well as himself?
"Oh yeah? Good, save some pocket money." How should I respond to it?
"Yes, Brother. Brother why don't you ask for a delivery?"
What's on this kid's mind? Does he want to compare Gavin with him and his wife?
"And I said he was still sleeping. Why didn't you ask to take it between you just now pasapan? He said it was routine?" My appetite is gone.
"And I told you, the last five months haven't even come home."
The last five months? I came two months ago like that.
"Who? Wh why? It fits perfectly." His father, even scrape information.
"She kept telling me to let me go there. Keep asking for fiancee first he said, the last time Gavin came, I asked for funds for an engagement title. Man Gavin doesn't want to hurry he said, waiting for me to graduate first. But the father said, over time the hell, a quick marriage just used to be okay, do not think about school. Well, in his chat it was bang Gavin told me this. It's not about the diploma he said, but he didn't want my education to stop because of him. Keep doing it he thinks, keep me away. Chat is not always reciprocated, tell me to date again with the others he said. Let's what try him like that? Until finally I sentin him, because tired of the cake hanging so. Confused about him too, what does he want?"
How did he even vent? Why didn't Gavin just decide on Lina? Why hang up the relationship? Why would she have to ask Lina to date again?
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