Drunk Duda (Ceria Skalane Time)
MD31B. Seriously talk
“Where to, Dek?“ she asked gently, trying to embrace me.
Adek huh? Hmmm, I should always remember this. So that I don't easily get carried away by her charms anymore.
I had to instill this harsh reality in my mind, so that I wouldn't be easily tempted by Ken's bang anymore. Bang Ken is a male b******, who only uses my body.
“I want to talk seriously, Bang.“ I pulled his hand, then invited him to sit on the porch chair.
Passion, Ria. Get this useless man out of your life!
“We chat in room only, while laying-lining.“ Bang Ken rubbed my shoulders. I don't know when he's embracing me, because I'm not just focusing on him. My mind was divided into sentences, which I threw at him.
“We are here aja.“ I don't want to room with him anymore.
“Why the hell? Break up with Keith?“
Even if it's true that I broke up with Keith, his destroyer. Bang Givan who hired Keith, he was very good at playing dismissing Keith's duties just like that. Another story, if Keith here is not paid. In fact, Keith was here because he was paid.
“That's why Keith and I never had a relationship. But if possible advice, it's good that you don't need to interfere about someone's relationship too far. Moreover, if it is not the scope of Brother. Brother is here a guest, while Keith here is paid by Givan. In addition to taking care of the company of Givan bang here, he was asked to take care of the residents of this house. You have no right to advise him to leave, on the grounds that you're here. You're just a guest, you're not paid. You have to understand your limits here, Bang!“ I pressed the chest of his field with my index finger.
“Oh, then..“ He rubbed his chin. “Ya already, Brother became the occupant of this house aja.“ He glanced at me with a sweet smile.
Damnit damnit! She's flirting once!
“If it's like that, let me get an apartment near the office. I don't want to get too close to Brother, who is just a distant relative. I have a relationship with bang Givan, but not with you. Brother must also know the limits of Brother here, who is Brother and Brother status for me.“
Wrong isn't my text?
“I take care of you, Ria. We're sister brother.“ He gripped my two arms tightly.
Bulshits!
“Sister sister is not like this, Bang. I asked Brother...“ I watched his face closely.
“Ask what?“ He decided our view.
I remember the message from bang Givan. If the client decides his views while talking seriously, he sings something about the condition of his company.
“Abang to leave the Princess, we continue to marry?“ Let me speak like this, I want to know his sincerity.
He put on an unusual surprised look. At a glance, he dared to look at me. Then, he turned his gaze back towards the courtyard of the house.
“Not a problem Brother should ninggalin who. But, Brother is not in line with your expectations.“ He spoke softly, bowing his head.
He shook weakly. “ We remain a sister, so that Abang can always take care of you.“
Definition of keeping it how? He said*j*n* me that, what is it called guarding? Is it because he didn't force his will on me? Or, because he was always around me?
For a long time, I wanted to strangle him.
“Jagain how exactly? Honestly, what is the function of your brother to keep it for? So, which point is your brother guarding? Is it because you feel close to me, so think that you take care of me physically? Or, rather, you keep the whereabouts of other men who are trying to approach me? Let me no one dare approach.“ I feel the last one is the right thing.
“You don't understand, Ria.“ He shook his head, then looked the other way.
“Yes that's why we're talking to each other, let me understand.“ I tried to mediate with us first, before I completely fortified myself from the man.
Look at! He was silent, turning his face the other way. He didn't say anything, he didn't answer anything. It seems, indeed he wants firmness from me.
“Bang, from today I do not want any closeness between us. I feel disadvantaged, I feel trivialized and not benefited. What if you focus on Princess? Continue, Brother try to approach the same flower Princess. It could be an activity that is more useful for the future, Brother, than Abang pepet I am not clear like this. I've decided to end my closeness with Keith, not because of Brother. I also decided to end my closeness with Brother, not because of Keith or other men. I want to focus on myself and mature my mind, so that I am ready to marry another man. Maybe, it's time I'm ready. I will ask to be betrothed, with a man who is in accordance with the expectations bang Givan to be the head of my family.“ I say things like this, so that Ken doesn't misunderstand me like Keith. Because earlier, Keith thought I left him to bang Ken.
It's not like that at all. I really want men who are ready to be serious with me, instead of hugging one of the clothes***** which is like the two of them. Stupid again, I lost and resigned because of my feelings.
I don't understand why I'm so resigned to men who just want my body. I felt my heart and my feelings, it turned out that the cause of my feelings was my own.
I just understood why there are so many pregnant women out of wedlock out there. Perhaps, because her man persuaded her and because of her love woman gave her whole soul and body.
This sounds a lot better, but try to understand that this is the biggest fact about women.
Along with being hurt, there are many women out there who pay attention to the man because of his love. Those who have married, reasoned for the pity of the child. But the truth is that we put our own feelings first.
Hopefully, I'm not too selfish because of my love for any man. I still have to have self-esteem, not humble myself out of love.
Is this how it turns out to be a woman?
Is the adult life out there more complex? How should this feeling persist, if the wound continues to be inflicted? Or, forced to endure due to circumstances? I mean, because it realizes that this self is not able to meet the needs of life without her man.
I'm sure life after marriage isn't about love. But I am sure, life after marriage also requires love from a partner as well. Plus, there is a baby that we have to think about later.
Ehh, where was it? Why is Ken silent? Is he sleepy, or intentionally cuckold his ears?
“Abang!“ I pulled her chin so she could face me.
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