Lily's Promise
The Trauma Actually

"St!!! everything will be fine! You are calm, do not think macem-macem yes! " Whisper Nathan while continuing to hug Lily tightly. Lily's whispering is getting louder. But there was a hiccup of the rest of the crying.

"It's quiet??" Ask Nathan. But there's no answer.

"If you are calm, we speak from heart to heart! Can you get out of his arms? " Tanya Nathan. Lily nodded.

Nathan took off his embrace. Leads Lily to sit on the sofa that Lily sat on earlier.

"Why did you get rich? want a story hmm? " Task Nathan slowly as he looks at Lily who is looking down playing her fingers.

"Why are all people bad? I never hurt them, but why are they evil." Lily said softly while still looking down.

Nathan grabs Lily's left hand and grabs her. The other hand touched Lily's chin. Lily looked up at Nathan.

"Who is bad? You tell me the same yes, I promise from now on I will protect you so that no more evil you! " Nathan said gently looking into Lily's luminous eyes.

Lily shook her head, bowed her head again.

"Yaudah, no pa-pa if you don't want to tell a story. Now it is better to take a shower first so that the body and mind are fresher. We ate together, yes. Want to eat here or outside? " Task Nathan again.

"Where, I don't want to see anyone! "

"Yes, if so I go out first order food. Back to you later. You take a shower! " Nathan said.

"M-mas Nathan's here huh? Please! " please Lily. Nathan was stunned to see Lily's pleading expression this time. He nodded.

"Yes, take a shower! I'm waiting here! " Answer Nathan. Lily nodded. He went to the bathroom.

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After thirty minutes. Lily came out of the bathroom. His hair looks half wet. Nathan waited on the sofa with some dinner dishes that Nathan had previously ordered.

"Well, come here, eat first!" Call Nathan when you see Lily coming out of the walk in closet. Lily came to Nathan. There is seafood fried rice, tomyam and satay soup, almond chocolate pudding, fruit salad, two bottles of mineral water, and lemon tea.

"Lily what do you want to eat? " Ask Nathan.

"That's much? "

"Later to eat while chatting, so do not feel will run out! "

"I ate soup! "Nathan nodded.

Nathan tried to melt the atmosphere. While eating Nathan asked what things Lily had done while here, what places she had gone. Lily told me everything without passion.

"You want to go to the Sea Island? " Ask Nathan.

"Initially wanted to go there. But, I don't know, want to go home soon! "

"Don't dong, we're already here, baby missed, later we go there! " Holiday Nathan. They're done with dinner. Only satay and dessert are left. Lily only silently responded while staring at the ceiling of the room.

Nathan moved, then walked to the nightstand beside the bed. Then take a small box containing the details of drugs. And bring her in front of Lily.

"It's yours, right? Don't forget to drink! " Nathan said. Lily looked at the thing Nathan was carrying.

"Mas Nathan knows what medicine it is? " Task Lily while picking up the box in Nathan's hand. Nathan nodded.

"I'm a doctor, obviously I know what this drug is. Why is that? " Ask Nathan.

"Mas Nathan saw what my condition was like, I'm sick, I'm not as rich as people! "

"Hey, this is normal for us medical Lily! What else after so many things that you passed, I salute you. You're amazing Lily, you're great, you're strong, you're able to survive this far, you know what you have to do for yourself! " Praise Nathan while encouraging.

"I'm not that strong, mom! " She lily.

"Oh yeah? can I hear your story? Want to tell me the same story? If you don't believe me as Nathan, you can trust me as a doctor, a doctor is obligated to maintain the privacy of his patients, how? "

Lily breathed back.

"Mas Nathan knows my family story, right? "

Nathan nodded, "maybe partly. "

"Mama's work as a celebrity who is known to many people and the news about the mother who always attracted the interest of the community in his time, making divorce and affair issues papa and mama can not be covered. The news spread quickly and became an easy target for the media. The news can be repeated many times a day. Until my school friends found out. They talked about it, not just in the back, even in front of me, especially those who from the beginning had disliked me without me knowing the reason. Every day, for a few months, I was scorned, ridiculed, even until someone said, I was also the child of infidelity. It wasn't enough that I even experienced physical violence. I got pushed in the rut for no reasonable reason. I considered shaming the school's good name because of my parents' case. Yes, I was in the hood physically and verbally to my mental state. Not only embarrassed, I also became afraid, even raised my face I did not dare. Everything I experienced always revolved in my memory, until even sleep I could never calm down. I was angry with my mother who made me stuck in this situation, I was angry at the same situation. Papa mama who cheated on each other, although they denied, and I who did not believe at first, but finally had to see their separation as well. The separation of papa and mama makes me fall apart and lose all happiness and confidence, those who are compact, love each other, harmonious, can separate, how about the other? I'm disappointed why I had to go through all this. So I decided to stay alone, not join my mom and dad and pretend to be strong. I have tried to end my life! " Say Lily.

"I withdrew from the association, I only had Dika's sister at that time. The only good friend, who can be trusted, who is always an encouragement. Until I have the same taste Dika. I do whatever Dika asked. I even promised to wait for Dika. Even though the reality is that Dika actually has a relationship with others. It hurt so much. I was hurt. There was nothing I could trust anymore when everyone close to me took turns hurting me, I was tired! "

"Why is it that every time I get tired, a lot of thoughts, all those memories come back, bring a sense of tightness, fear, and become a nightmare that doesn't stop haunting my night's sleep! And I am tired of conditions like this, I am tired of being followed by the shadows of the past. Until finally I ventured to find out what kind of condition I was in. I finally decided to go for counseling!"

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