Dara Manisku
Endless Regret

Dara is still in the waiting room of the hospital, Dara has been alone two days waiting anxiously for news of her mother who is now in surgery.

Adhan also reverberated, Dara stepped his feet towards the mosque.

“Assalamualaikum.....Assalamualaikum Dara has just finished performing the congregational prayer.

Dara sat alone in a corner inside the mosque. One by one people came out of the mosque. The atmosphere became quiet, making the people in it become more solemn’ to pray.

Dara raised both hands and raised her face while looking at the prayer of Allah on the mosque wall at that time. Then he prayed.

“Yes Allah....Forgive me.Sorry me.I may not be a dutiful child.but I love my mother, God.permit me to apologize to my mother...please heal mama.sawakan him.saah right again my mama yes Allah.let mama see me her son..There is no God but You ....O Allah to You I worship only You, and to You I ask for help, grant the Lord of all Nature....Aamiin!”

Dara prayed in tears. Crying without sound, adding a feeling of tightness in the chest. Dara's heart feels sad, “If I'm self-conscious and go home soon.If only I never left her..!”.

Dara keeps remembering all her mistakes, Dara's decision that made her leave her mother. That regret made Dara feel claustrophobic.

“If only I had never loved Varel.If only I had preferred mama over Varel...this would not have happened.

When Dara got married she was only 15, too young to start a household. Dara broke off her relationship with her mother on her graduation day.

Graduation Event Junior High Dara

“From Srifiana!” dara's name was repeatedly called by her homeroom teacher to go on stage.

 But Dara still did not come, her mother who sat right in front of the stage was confused why Dara did not appear.

“How long is it going to the bathroom?.... duh this child...!”

Mama Dara immediately approached the 9C homeroom teacher and spoke softly, “sorry sir...Her last permission to kemak”.

“But ma'am...Dara will have to accept the general champion award and give a school representative speech!” said the 9C homeroom teacher.

“Iya sir..I'm sorry once again, I will follow Dara now Sir!” Mama Dara rushed out of the Hall where the graduation was.

“Hp is dead anyway!”

“This is really a child, since hanging out with that bastard, Dara became rich gini!” Mama Dara repeatedly called Dara but her HP was inactive.

Mama Dara finally reached the princess bathroom, “Where is she..?”

“Loh...kok quiet!” Mama Dara was shocked to see no one in the bathroom.

Then Mama Dara came out feeling anxious, there happened to be two children passing by then mama Dara stopped them and asked.

“Nak...excuse me.eee...knew Dara gak?” ask mama Dara.

“What class is bu?” the two kids asked back.

“Class 9C!” Answer Mama Dara.

“Oooo...Dara it..Tadi I saw Dara out Bu!” Answer one of them while showing the direction of the exit.

“What....exit.aduh..ya already...thanks ya!” Mama Dara did not finish thinking why Dara even out the Hall.

“Iya Ma'am..sama-sama!” Answer the kids.

Mama Dara immediately ran towards the exit of the Hall, trying to chase after Dara, and the two children started chatting gossiping Dara.

“Eh ...Dara who is dating the STM child is not you mean lo?” one of them asked his friend.

“Iya... Dara it, though pinter loh him, but how even dating the same rich guy is it?!” thought he was astonished.

“Emang cowo why?” ask his friend again. “ I'm horrified, Dara's guy was a thug tau!”

“From...Dara...!” Mama Dara screams a scream calling Dara, but Dara is nowhere to be seen either. Then Mama Dara heard the sound of the dirt bike on the light.

Rushed Mama Dara towards where the sound of the motor came from. “From...? Dara!” yell mama Dara saw her son was chatting with men.

Mama Dara immediately arrested Dara by stopping the motor. “Stop!!...Down you!...Down!!” Mama Dara pulls Dara's hand forcing Dara to get off the bike.

“what the hell mama!” iiiiihhh...already deh!” Dara refused his mother's order to get off the bike immediately.

Then the man opened his helmet and held the hand of Mama Dara and said, “lepasin Dara aunty!”

“Hey...!! Who are you !! How dare you want to take aunty escape?..ooo surely you are called Varel ya!”  quickly Mama Dara's hand landed on the man's face, “PLAAKK!!”.

Varel gasped in shock and flashed a furious look at Mama Dara.

“Become..follow Mama, you are in search with your homeroom teacher!!” Mama Dara then pulled Dara to come into the Hall.

“Lepasin...lepasin!!” Dara resisted, thrashing ronta trying to escape the grip of Mama.”FREELSS!” Dara pushed her mother firmly so that her grip was released to the point that Mama Dara fell.

“Bruuukk!”..  “Aaww...Dara!” Mama Dara was in pain and shocked by Dara's harsh treatment of her own mother.

Dara then looked at her mother angrily and then said the words she would regret for the rest of her life.

“Mama...dengerin Dara, never schedule Dara's life again! Dara is tired!”

“Being bored..must be this..must be it, must rank 1...must be this champion...must be like this and so!”.

“Because of mama!... Dara pingin live the way Dara!”

Dara spoke in a loud tone, even the school security heard and tried to break up.

“Eeeh...what is this.. let's already! It's already! can't be like your mom!” security school immediately helped Dara's mother stand up.

“DIAM!” Dara did not want and never asked to be a child of this MOTHER!!” dara answered very rudely.

“From!..why did you become like this, son..? Mama loves you.ini Mama dear.ini Mama!.. Mama please". Mama Dara spoke in a pleading voice until she shed tears.

“Heh...dah what time is it, our game goes Dar!” whispered Varel in Dara's ear. Then Dara took out sheets of test scores from her bag.

The paper was torn Dara in front of his mother, “this is what you want.this is !.this is !.eat this all!” Dara then threw all the tears in front of her mother's face.

That was the last time Dara saw her mother, now her mother was lying in the operating room helpless.

“ Sister...how is her operation..how is my Mama...what is the operation successful?” dara asked with an anxious face.

Then Sister tried to calm Dara, “ Sit first yes...have you eaten?  Ask the nurse gently while inviting Dara to sit down.

“ my fast Sus” replied Dara

Shortly after that the doctor who operated on his mother Dara came out.

“Doctor!” Dara stood up straight away

“Quiet ...sit.!” The doctor asked Dara to stay calm and sit down.

“How's my mom doing Dok?” Dara asked the Doctor.

The nurse then left Dara with the Doctor alone to speak.

“Are you alone here, are no other families accompanying?” Ask the Doctor about Dara.

“No Doc, mom has no one else, just me son”. Dara answered while wiping away her tears.  

“I hope you are ready and strong to hear the results of this Operation that your mama is living?” Doctors expected Dara to be steadfast no matter what the final outcome of her mother's surgery was.

“Iya Dok..let's just say, I'll listen and I'll accept whatever it is”. Dara made sure that she could hear whatever the doctor wanted to say.

“All right I will tell you how the patient is" Doctor finally wanted to tell Dara.

“ Your mother has a ruptured blood vessel in the left part of the brain, and there is a possibility that some organs of the body will experience interference, such as difficult to move the legs, hands and maybe his vision also”. The doctor explained briefly. Then the doctor stood up to go back into the operating room.

Dara was silent for a moment and Dara stopped the Doctor by asking about her mother, “wait for Doc....Mamma.. My mom is now where Doc is...? I want to see”.

“In the meantime your mother will come out and be taken to the ICU room, later the nurse will explain everything yes". The doctor went back into the operating room.

Dara bowed lethargic, she leaned her body against the wall and fell down sad.

Dara cries While hiding her face, “Mama...Mamma.. Astarghfirullah..!”.

Sister comes over to Dara, “mba...mba is okay?” Ask the nurse while touching Dara's back.

“Hmm... Yes.I'm fine!” Dara hurriedly wiped her tears and saw that it was Sister who was beside her, who was smiling at her.

“Mother is already in the ICU room now, do you want to see?” Say Sister softly to Dara.

“Iya sus..mau!” Dara replied, then Sister showed the direction of the ICU room was located. “Here mba!”

“Mama..” Dara was finally able to see her mother even though only through a large glass window that read ICU.

“Suster...can I log in?”Ask Dara.

“Later..if the patient has better his condition and has begun to realize, mba can go inside.. ya”. Sister explains when Dara can get into the ICU room.

Tel Dara back ringing, “Iya hello...Ihsan”'s.

“Assalamualaikum Dara, how are you?”

"Wa’alaikumus warahmatullahi wabarakatuh, thank God I am good, you how are you? Has your leg improved?” dara asked Ihsan.

“Alhamdulillah is still a little stiff when walking, but all is well, oya I heard from Ummi, your mama in surgery, how is she now Dara?”

Dara answered Ihsan's phone while looking at her mother behind the window. “My mom is in ICU, thank God the operation went well".

But suddenly there was a noise, like an angry person. “Sebentar Ihsan”. Dara stopped her conversation with Ihsan.

“From...what is it? ..hallo?” Ihsan wondered why Dara stopped talking.

“I want to go home!” shouted a young boy who was rampaging and fell out of the patient's bed.

Dara peeked from a distance, coincidentally the patient's room was behind the ICU room and the door of the patient's room was wide open.

“Ooh..the manCan't walk!” Dara in my heart.

The man insisted on wanting to go home to the point that he crept on the floor imposing his body on all fours wanting to get out of the room.

In front of the door stood a half-old man holding a stick whose tip was gold.

“Hey...lift him..fast!” the man told someone to lift the man's body and force him to lie back on the patient's bed.

“I'm like I've heard that voice?.. but where is it? Golden head stick?...what could he be?” Dara seemed to recognize the half-old man.

Dara was curious, Dara walked a little forward to see more clearly the man's face.

“Hallo ...Tare...Dara?” Ihsan was still connected to Dara's phone.

“Iya...For a moment, I'm like I know her". Said Dara to Ihsan while whispering.

“Who? Who do you mean?” Ihsan was confused, actually Dara saw who.

The man's face began to look, and so surprised Dara that his legs were limp shaking and fell to the floor.

Suddenly the man heard and looked back and looked at Dara.

Immediately Dara got up and walked away.

“ Thank God.Fortunately I've been wearing a veil!” dara felt grateful.

“There is Dara..hallo...Who did you see there?” Ihsan asked curiously.

Who is the man Dara saw on the doorstep of the VVIP patient's room?