Dear Om Rey
Chapter 40: You Are More Everything

The morning is approaching. My body tastes as light as cotton. I have no energy, though. It feels so tired. Even after my consciousness appeared, my eyes were so heavy to open.

Last night's activities really drained my energy.

Slowly I squinted my eyes, my hands on Mas Rey's plain chest. When I looked up my husband was still asleep. Seeing the face of his sleep that was so cute made my sleep instantly disappear.

My fingertips can't stop me from touching the tip of her big nose. Then the pink lips surrounded by whiskers and a thin beard look so inviting. Though last night, I don't know how long his lips are linked to mine, but I still feel like I want it again.

But I expressed my intention because honestly my body was very weak. I need to charge my strength before we do it again.

I put my head back on his arm and went into his arms deeper. The winter weather outside, made me not want to leave this comfortable and warm mattress.

Slowly sleeping Mas Rey was disturbed by me who continued to attach my body to his body under the covers.

"Darling, are you awake?" His voice is a typical raucous wake up.

"Yet..." My heart closed my eyes again.

I heard a little laugh from him. Enveloped my body and let out a long breath, feeling comfortable. "Not yet awake, but can answer my question."

I also chuckled slowly.

"Cold..." Mumbles.

Mas Rey swiftly lifted a blanket that only covered up to the waist, became covered up to my shoulders and then hugged me tightly.

"But her body is anget. I don't want to wake up." Lirihku.

"Yes, we're going to sleep a little while. We have breakfast downstairs."

"Hmm." My mouth with a mumble.

Suddenly my stomach rang softly asking for food.

Hearing the sound of my stomach Mas Rey rubbed my stomach. "Something is lager like that." He smiled, making me ashamed. "Do you want a room service for breakfast?"

Actually we should have eaten at the hotel restaurant this morning, then we will take a walk to several destinations after that. When I get upset, get up and get ready or stay in bed and hug each other like this?

"No, Mas. We have breakfast downstairs. It's gonna take a walk." I grudgingly still with my eyes closed and a body firmly attached to my husband's innocent body.

"The streets can be tomorrow-tomorrow if you still want it in the gini room." Bargainly.

Instantly I thought it was a good idea.

"It's breakfast here, Mom." I agree.

Finally Mas Rey grabbed the phone by the bedside and called the receptionist, ordered breakfast, after which hugged me back, waiting for the waiter to bring us breakfast.

A few moments the door was knocked. Mas Rey grabbed her clothes and left me for the door. Then he came with a folding table that was full of various kinds of food and warm drinks.

Instantly I got up and was busy enjoying the appetizing display of the food. "So getting laper. Eat it, Mas!" My spirit.

"Wear the shirt first, honey." He put me on his sweater before I eat his food.

I just realized that my body is still not wearing anything, it is already that I am in front of this husband. "I can wear my own clothes. I'm like a kid on a shirt."

"It's okay dong, Mas pakein Mas's wife's shirt." He doesn't seem to mind at all. Even with pleasure to do it.

After I finished putting on my sweater, he grabbed a spoon and fed me, and fed himself. We shared all the food until it was finished. After that we decided to take a shower, which we did together again.

Until noon came and my body was very tired, Mas Rey just stopped. Though tired yet happy filled every corner of my heart.

We were in bed again. Rey is resting her head on my chest. Both of my hands were busy hugging her, occasionally my fingers were playing with her straight black hair. "Well, it's snowing. That's great." Mumamku.

"Yes, honey." He seemed uninterested to see the snow falling and still drowned his face in my chest.

"This is the first time I've seen snow. So I want to hold. How do you feel?" Mumbles.

"Cold, honey." The answer is still with closed eyes. "Later in the afternoon we're out." Bring along.

"Really huh?" My spirit.

"Yes. But now rest first."

I let Rey rest. While I still feel at home looking through the glass wall, seeing small grains of snow that continue to fall. My mind started thinking about a lot of things.

After a long time Mas Rey looked up, looking at my face which was still busy seeing the snow falling out there.

"What are you thinking, honey?" Suddenly, Mas Rey's question interrupted my daydream.

There's one thing I'm thinking about. Ever since I got married to Mas Rey, it's always been coming to my mind even when we're doing it, Aunt Manda. My guilt for him and also not calm because I have not met him is always present in between my thoughts.

I myself do not understand why the flashes of Aunt Manda always disturb my mind. It's hard to really be able to focus and not think about it at all.

Will the shadow of Aunt Manda always shadow me like this?

Especially when I do it with Mas Rey. I wondered, am I good enough? Is Rey satisfied with me? What while doing it with me, Mas Rey thought of Aunt Manda? Or did he ever compare me to my aunt? Honestly, I'm just an ordinary woman, sometimes jealousy is also tucked in between my heart considering they've done this too even though it's been a part of the past.

"Darling..." Not getting an answer from me, Mas Rey grabbed my cheek, making me realize.

"It's okay, Mas. Just a little," I close my index finger and thumb. "Slightly the same thought of Aunt Manda." I said with a forced smile.

"Why suddenly think of her, honey?" Ask Om Rey.

"Absolutely not, Mom. But sometimes I like to suddenly think. To this day we have not seen him again."

"Mas knows you're anxious, but Mas doesn't like your thoughts and still feels guilty about Manda." His facial expression hardened. "We don't have anything to do with him now, honey. You're not wrong until you have to keep thinking even when we're on our honeymoon again. Just think about it and our happiness, huh?"

Hearing those words made me feel guilty for Mas Rey. That's right, I should just think about it on our honeymoon like this. "Are you happy to marry me and say it's the same as me?"

Rey smiled. "Mas is so happy, honey. Even Mas can not describe the happiness of Mas at this time because it can finally marry you, confessing all this is the same as you."

Her face was so honest, I knew Mas Rey was telling the truth. But that sense of obstruction still lingers in my heart.

"But when compared to Aunt Manda, I still have no experience, right, Mas. Surely Aunt Manda can make Mas more satisfied than me." Sad say.

Rey looked back at me a little coldly. "What experience do you mean? You think Mas's happy because Manda has more knowledge about kayak gini things? What to be proud of with that? Manda knew those things because she had already done it with another man before with Mas."

He was silent for a while, then got up and sat down to face me. Throw my hand and hold it. "But equally you, our first night, Mas really felt like, this is the first night for Mas as well. You are much more satisfying to me. The pain you feel, the two peaks you say feel scuffed because of the action of Mas. Things like that make Mas feel guilty but at the same time Mas is also very, very happy. I'm happy because I know that I was the first for you. And that's very special to me, dear."

My heart withered for a moment hearing his words.

"Please, in the future, do not compare yourself to Manda. Because everything about you is so much better than Manda. Never compare yourself to him again, for you cannot be compared to him. You're so much more everything, honey."

I nodded in understanding and went back into his arms. "I'm sorry, Mas. I promise I won't touch Aunt Manda again."