My girlfriend is my brother-in-law
why are you crying?

Ardi was currently inside Rasya's room. It had been two days since the incident at the restaurant back then, Rasya did not even want to talk to his papa. Ardi knew why her son was acting like that to her, maybe it was her fault. She shouldn't be in a hurry to introduce Zahra as her new mama-to-be. He should have let Rasya get close to Zahra first, only then did he tell everything slowly. He has not formally proposed to Zahra to his parents.

Ardi was currently sitting opposite to Rasya, there was not even a barrier between them. Rasya sat cross-legged on the sofa, as did Ardi. It has become their habit if they are in a room together.

“Honey, you're still mad at Papa?” Ardi looked at Rasya who was busy playing online games on his mobile phone.

Rasya responded with just a nod of his head, even the look in his eyes he still pointed at the flat object in his hand.

“If Papa knows, why don't you like Aunt Zahra? isn't aunt Zahra so nice to you?” during these two days, Zahra always took the time to come to Ardi's house after finishing work. Because he wanted to be close to Rasya and the Ardi family. Zahra even always gave gifts to Rasya every time he visited Ardi's house.

“Because Rasya doesn't want to have a new mom. Rasya only wants Kay's mother as Mama Rasya.”

Ardi sighed, “Papa knows you love Mother Kay very much. Papa will also not forbid you to remain affectionate with Mother Kay, but Rasya will know, if Mother Kay also has her own family. Papa just wants Rasya to have a mama who can always be there for Rasya, accompany Rasya, and love Rasya,”.

Rasya turned his gaze, now he looks at his papa eyes, “mother also loves Rasya, mother also considers Rasya like her own child,” he said.

“Papa knows it, but Papa does too.” Ardi stopped his words when he saw tears falling from both corners of Rasya's eyes, “sayang, why are you crying?” he asked while wiping away the tears that wet his two cheeks.

“Pa..why don't you love Rasya? Why did he leave Rasya? Is Rasya not a good boy?”

When Ardi parted ways with Monic, Rasya was one and a half years old, he didn't even know anything. Her fear of her current biological mother may have gone away with time.

Ardi pulls Rasya into his arms, “sayang, Mama Monic is affectionate with Rasya and Rasya is a good boy.” Ardi tried to calm his son. He knew that Rasya had missed a mother very much. Although Kay always pours out her affection for Rasya, but it is still different, because Kay's affection is not always Rasya felt every time the child misses a mother's embrace.

“Honey, Papa promised to give you a good mother. He will always love Rasya and will always be there for Rasya. Will Rasya give a chance to aunt Zahra to be close to Rasya?”

Rasya lowered his face, he did not know what to say. The boy was just afraid, afraid to open up to others, because all this time only Kay and her family were close to him.

“Alright, Papa won't force you. Papa will give you time to think about it. Now Rasya has grown up, and Rasya already knows what is best for Rasya.” Ardi then moved from his seat, he then stepped his feet towards the door of Rasya's room.

“Pa..” call Rasya lirih.

“Hem..” Ardi stopped his steps and turned his body looking at Rasya who was still bowing his head.

“What Papa loves Aunt Zahra so much? is Papa really going to marry her?”

Ardi scrunched his forehead, he then stepped his feet closer to Rasya. The man then sat crouching in front of Rasya, “why are you asking that dear?” tanyanya.

“Rasya know if all this time Papa is always lonely. Papa always cries when he sees Mommy together with Om Arka.”

“The truth knows everything, Pa. Papa parted ways with Kay's mother because of Mama. Rasya and mama were the ones who made Papa suffer all this time.”

Ardi did not expect that small child would think like that, even blaming himself for what he experienced, “sayang.” Ardi clasped Rasya's hand, “this is not your fault,” he said.

“Pa...Papa Papa still love Mommy?”

“Papa love Mommy, Papa also love the same Om Arka. We are all family, and we should love each other. But why do you ask like that?”

“Rasya just wants to see Papa happy. If Papa does not like to see Rasya close to mother Kay, then Rasya will stay away from him.”

Ardi shook his head, “Papa is happy to see Rasya can be close and consider mother Kay as the mother of Rasya, but Rasya also must remember if mother Kay also has her own family,” he said.

Rasya hugged his papa very tightly, “Rasya dear to Papa. Rasya also wants to see Papa happy,” he said.

Ardi gently rubbed his son's back, “Papa also love Rasya. If Rasya is happy, then Papa will also be happy,” he said then let go of his embrace.

“Now Rasya must sleep, tomorrow Papa will take Rasya to meet with mother,” said Ardi while wiping the top of Rasya's head.

“What Papa will also invite aunt Zahra?”

Ardi smiled, “if Rasya does not want aunt Zahra to come, then Papa will not invite him,” he said.

Rasya lowered his face, “if Papa wants to invite aunt Zahra is also okay, Rasya will allow aunt Zahra to come,” he said slowly.

Ardi's smile looks more and more, is this a sign Rasya already willing to accept Zahra? thought.

“But..” Rasya looked up, “Rasya has not been able to accept aunt Zahra as her mother Rasya,”.

“Papa will not force you to accept aunt Zahra as your mother. Papa just wants you to want to get to know and be close to Aunt Zahra.and Papa will accept all your decisions.” Ardi again rubbed the top of his son's head before he came out of Rasya's room.

Ardi wanted everything to go slowly, he would not rush, because he did not want to fail for the third time. Maybe with a little patience, he will get happy results later. In addition, he has not met the Zahra family to propose officially.

There may be fear in Ardi's heart as well, would both of Zahra's parents approve of her, if they knew about her past? The failure of his household for the second time, maybe that will backfire for him to his happiness. But he was confident in what he would get later, moreover Zahra also loved him very much and always supported him. Because that is all Ardi wants, and he will not give up on being able to make Zahra his life companion.

~oOo~