Pamite
38. Pamite

Ayu and Jaka continue their journey. They plan to visit one by one the hospitals in the area.

Ayu's mind is getting worse after hearing the news that Alif was in an accident and looked badly on the head. He could think of nothing more this time.

"Mas, there are many hospitals that we go to. But there was no Alif there. Where do you go, Mas?" Ayu was crying in frustration, so tired she was sitting limp on the hospital porch. I don't know how many hospitals there are.

"Patience, how do we eat first? This is late afternoon, from the morning we have muter, you also have to take care of health. The one you take care of is not just you, but there are children, your child there are three. If you have pain, your children feel it too."

"I don't have appetite, Mom.".

"Forced. Let's go see Alif, right? How sick are you screaming at him?"

Ayu exhaled a long breath before nodding. With a limp Ayu stood up and rushed away from there.

"Sus, nurse. Which doctor? That's the kid I hit yesterday!" Gita frantically shouted at one of the passing sisters.

The screams from the Gita made Ayu's steps stop. I don't know why hearing the name of the little boy he wanted to go back into the hospital.

"Why stop?"

"No, I just heard a little boy who was hit by someone. I feel like I want to go there,"

"We asked and showed me a picture of Alif, right, and the sister said she wasn't here. Don't be discouraged, I'll be by your side under any circumstances." Jaka calms Ayu by stroking her back slowly.

Honestly, a touch from Jaka makes Ayu feel weaker. It was like he was putting his head on someone's shoulder. He is really tired today both born and inner. Regrets until now can not be lost from Ayu's mind. Had he not allowed Alif to come with his father, he would still be by his side this time.

*

Anang also since this morning did not rest looking for the child. He was looking for his son as well while looking for a rented house for him to occupy. He decided to leave the house forever, if only he could break the blood ties with his mother, maybe he would do that.

At six o'clock in the afternoon, Anang who had just returned home immediately packed his goods. He will move today, he is also disappointed in what his mother did. Throwing away innocent children for the wrongs their parents make is a criminal act.

"Nang, what are you doing packing clothes? Went where? From the morning you swamp, not work," protested Lasmi's mother who had just arrived at her son's house.

"When you go, who will take care of you, Nang?"

"Mom has three children. There's Galuh and Fadil. Mother's youngest son is here. Let him take care of mom. Let his hobby not just go out at night come home in the morning. For the cost of mother's life, ask Galuh. Mother's son that I always take pride in everyone. After all among the mother's children, she was the most successful and wealthy. You don't have to think about me, I can take care of myself. I'm saying goodbye."

"Nang, dare you come out one step from this house, mother will not consider you a child, you still have the tanggunan Fadil college."

"From this moment on I'm not a mother's son. I'm satisfied, right? Whether I am or not, it makes no difference. All the sacrifices I made were in vain. I was so crazy to respect my mother, I forgot that I had a son and a wife. They need me too, but I'm blind with my love for my mother. Until this moment, I lost everything, did you feel my sorrow, you were sorry for me? Nope! My mother embarrassed me with my mother's behavior. I was at my lowest even though, mother still demanded me to obey what mother said. I'm a slave or a child, Mom? I'm the one who paid for mom's life after dad died, have you ever appreciated me? Mother only considers and prides the son of a mother who managed to become a successful businessman over his wife's capital. Ever been given money with Galuh? Have you ever been given anything from Galuh? Have you ever helped me pay for Fadil's college? No, right? You got all that from me, Mom. Mother's firstborn, but mother never thought of it. Which I always adore the rich mother's son."

"Kok you so it's a tally? You're not doing all that? You should know, caring for and raising you don't need a little money, you...."

"Did mom just raise me? Galuh and Fadil raised who? You're asking me to repay all of mom's services? Why isn't Galuh? I just found out, no matter where I've been all this time, I just realized I was born from a woman like a mother. If only I could choose, I'd rather die while still a blood clot."

Anang stepped away, before he was truly wrathful it was better he left then and there. To be honest he did not want to say so bad to his mother, he did not want to be considered an ungodly child. But, on the other hand, he was also disappointed in his mother's actions. He who struggled to support and educate his sister was never appreciated at all.

"Pue! How dare you be like mom?" he shouted out loud.

"I'm not brave with you, but it looks like I have to get out of here. Going from an environment that does not appreciate me, just like Ayu who went from my life, because I was blind to her existence and sincerity to me. I'm saying goodbye!" anang said without looking at his mother.

The woman just fell silent on the spot.  His ego which still controls all the cells and joints in his entire body makes him again blame Ayu.

"It's all because of Ayu and her son. Where to, Alif. Why haven't you seen me since yesterday? Just make it!" gerrutu annoyed.

*

The night had made Ayu and Jaka decide to go home. They return home with hopes that are still gray. There is no word yet on the whereabouts of Alif who was in an accident.

"We're here, Yu," said Jaka, busy unbuckling her seatbelt.

No response from Ayu, Jaka turned his eyes to the woman who had fallen asleep. It was so visible from Ayu's face that she looked tired. Even a stroke of sadness was clearly visible on his father's face.

Jaka was confused about how, he could not bear if he had to wake Ayu's rest. If not awakened... Ah Jaka so rubbed his head rough because of confusion.