The Bridge Of Love
CHAPTER 19 I'am Sorry, I Love You

Carnations could only stare at the ceiling of his room. He touched his own lips, still feeling what he and Chrysanthemum had done. Chrysanthemum's request to refer to him still stuck in his memory.

He hit his head.

“Why do I think about it? Throw him away, Carnation! If you forgive, he will repeat for a second time!”

Carnations closed his eyes, trying to drive the chrysanthemum out of his head. He closed his eyes to sleep. However, his mind drifted to a few years ago.

“Why cry?” chrysanthemum asked Anyelir who was watching a Korean drama on television. He sat next to his wife, playing with her hair.

“The woman committed suicide in the man's grave,” explained Anyelir while wiping his tears. His gaze was still fixed on the Korean drama titled ‘I’ Sorry, I Love You’. An old movie that he thinks is very romantic.

“Stupid!” chrysanthemum Dengus. “What does the girl think about ending her life? Does he not think the woman who gave birth to him will be sad? Is there no other way to live life? Will ending your life change everything? Will the man come back to life? Or will they meet again in the afterlife? Really shortsighted! Think really short!” chrysanthemum grunts are long. “Have not cried because of the movie. That won't happen in the real world!”

“Who said? Yesterday there was news of a high school student committing suicide due to unapproved love!” kilah Carnations.

“That's again. Really stupid!” chrysanthemum Dengus.

Carnations looked at the husband. “You don't understand! The sensitive level of the person is different! How do you know what her life is like? Who knows, his life burden is so great! Maybe ... he is no longer strong to live life!”

“But not allowed to end life on your own! Really stupid! That is if one is too exalting to fellow humans. Loving can be, sacrificing yourself to save loved ones can be.

Never praise a man like God. After all, man is only a creation of God! If you love someone too much to think stupid, then end your life. And, suddenly God turned his lover's heart so that he did not love her anymore. Wouldn't his actions just be in vain? Isn't that self-harming?”

“You don't know what it's like to talk like that! You just saw the news about a high school girl killing herself out of love. But, we don't know what the real burden is like! After all live life with loved ones instead of romantic!” grunts Carnations.

“Romantic what if you kill each other like Romeo and Juliet!” krisan. Showing the television screen. “That too, what movie is it. Very stupid!”

“That movie is very moving. It's 'I'am Sorry, I Love You'. You know what the story in the movie is like? The burden of life of the man is so great. He donated his heart to his sister after she had an accident. After his death, the lover came to his tomb and finally drank poison."

“Lantas being stupid to suicide? The man died in an accident, not suicide because of the woman.”

“You don't understand. You better watch from the first episode. Will definitely cry if you watch it.”

“Such tricking film don't watch. Like you said, everyone is different. Some people think of the movie as entertainment. But, there are also those who cannot filter. It could be, because the film is an inspiration for people who watch it. Like you said earlier, a teenage girl committed suicide because love was not condoned. So stupid! Don't let him after watching the movie and then kill himself.”

“Stupid, stupid, stupid! That's all you have in mind. And don't forget, if you marry a fool! Because we met when I wanted to kill myself!” ketus Carnation then left her husband.

Chrysanthemum exhaled. Because the news on television made them quarrel. They rarely quarrel even though Chrysanthemum knows his wife is so sensitive. All this time, he was the one who always gave up.

“Honey!” chrysanthemum chases the wife to their room.

Chrysanthemum Calls ignored Carnations. But not to make Chrysanthemum stop persuading his wife. He held his wife's arm. “Sayang.”

Carnations brushed off Chrysanthemum's hands. He closed the room door rudely, lucky Chrysanthemum had already entered the room.

“Don't you not love me huh? I'm willing to die for you but you're humbling our love!” pissed Carnations.

Chrysanthemum is pinching his forehead. He knew his wife was PMS. However, his emotions had already gone too far in his opinion.

“Listen to me! I just love you. Because I love you, I try so hard to make you happy. However, that does not mean our story is like the story of Romeo and Juliet who you say is romantic. To me, such a story is so stupid! I do grieve your stupidity when you want to end your life. But, I was really happy when I stopped you.”

The chrysanthemum pulled the Carnation and sat it on his lap. “Show much love is not from ending each other's lives. Who are you to decide life and death? Show that love when you can make a loved one happy.

It's not that I don't love you when I disagree about suicide out of love. I love you so much. If you say love is alive it's romantic. I agree, but not suicide. It was just an impulsive act. Did God create us to end our lives? You know what romantic love is?”

Carnations just shook his head slowly. The chrysanthemum extended its hand to touch the wife's cheek. “Love who fought for their lives. Jack and Rose in Titanic. I think Jack loved Rose very much until the end of his life. They do not give up on fighting for life. They both went up to the door. However, that door could only hold one person. Of course it was Rose who finally got on the door branch, it was because Jack loved her. In fact, Jack still had time to exhale his warm breath into the hands of Rose who was cold. Although, they were both cold. Jack did not end his life, he died of God's will after he fought to save Rose. Does Jack's actions not include willingly dying for his lover?”

Carnations think for a moment. “Yes, she's willing to die for Rose.”

“That's the difference. Both Lonardo Dicaprio. I like Titanic better than Romeo and Juliet. Jack, go to great lengths to keep his lover safe to live a long life. Died in a warm bed. I think it's true love. Rela die, does not mean give up on suicide.”

Carnations shifted her seat, she stared fixedly at the husband. “I love you, I don't know if you're not by my side. Sorry, I'm too childish."

The chrysanthemum stared inside the wife. “If I can't keep you company. If God calls me first. Promise me, never give up. Live your life happily. No matter how desperate you are, no matter how heavy it is, never think of giving up. You must be happy, Carnation.”

“If I were the one who died first, would you be happy with another woman?” ask Anyelir who started off sad.

Just the thought of Chrysanthemum with the other woman alone was enough to make her cry. Especially if it happens. He knows he is selfish. His love is selfish. Thought Chrysanthemum was his only. Imagining Chrysanthemum touching another woman is so painful for her.

“I can't promise you anything. However, until this moment, I only love you. Always praying to love you and not want another woman in my heart. If God granted my request to always love you, and if God took you first. I, will choose to be widowed forever. Isn't being happy about someone not just being married? I can create my own happiness, waiting for the time to meet you again.”

Carnations shed more tears. “I'm grateful to have you.”

Carnations hugged the husband. “I love you, Kris.”

“I know, I love you a lot too. From now on, never think bad. Be good to God. Appreciate every breath God has given. We live the days beautifully, follow all that God has arranged for us.”

Carnation pulled his head. “Did you never get bored of me? Upset at my irritating nature for some?”

“Why ask like that?”

“Then, when we were still living in rented. I'm talking about neighbors. I can't cook, I'm not good at cleaning the house, and I'm just a burden on my husband. Don't you hate me? They say, I'm just a pretty capital.”

“Not wrong.”

“What?” ask Anyelir surprised.

Chrysanthemums just chuckle. “What they say is true, and you should not be offended. You can't cook, you can't clean the house and you're beautiful. Thas right. What if the burden of the husband? That's wrong, because I don't feel burdened. I married you not to make you a chef, nor to make you a domestic assistant. However, you are my rib,” he explained.

Yes, Chrysanthemum heard about it. He was ridiculed in the office for that. Chrysanthemums that never brought bekel cuisine of the wife and always mocked the risk of having a beautiful wife.

“So I really suck in other people's eyes?"

“That mattered in my eyes. I'm your husband, therefore, all you have to care about is my view.” Chrysanthemum cupped the wife's face. “I will never order you or force you to do laundry, cook or do any other homework. However, even without me like that, you alone have the desire to cook. The proof is, you brought lunch out of your hand. I wouldn't change you without you changing yourself. As long as it doesn't contradict me. But, if you wear skimpy clothes in front of others, apply excessive makeup for other men to see. That, I just got mad!”

Carnations laugh. “Possessive husband!” His ejek.

“As you said, everyone has a different character, a different nature and a different level of sensitivity. Here I am, I am not demanding you for homework. But, I demand you to always keep yourself from being stared at by other men. I hate it when a guy stares at you!”

“Me too, very upset if there is a woman near you!”

Chrysanthemums only look at women who are 7 years under him. “Kiss me,” the door.

The cup! Carnations kissed the husband at a glance.

“Again,” Chrysanthemum precept.

“The need added mulu deh!”

“Let's just! You can only kiss your lips, nothing more. Must wait a week first ‘kan?”

“Iya, yes, yes,” kekeh Anyelir. After that, she kissed her husband again. "The hair on your face is starting to grow."

"Hurt?"

"Slightly, it's tickling my face."

"Shaved to?"

Carnations nod. "Yes, let it taste good. But actually, the handsome face is filled with newly grown fur. So it's macho."

"Machos! But adore a smooth Korean artist with no feathers!" keluh Chrysanthemum.

"You're lucky that I'm a Korean actor. Because, I won't be able to cheat."

"really?"

"Yes, you're his mistress. Her husband is still Lee Min Ho" Anyelir chuckled.

"Basic naughty!" chrysanthemum pinched his wife's nose.

The chrysanthemum carried the wife and took her to the bathroom. Put it on the sink. "Shave my face."

Carnations obey the husband, apply cream to the husband's face and carefully shave the fine hairs on the face of Chrysanthemum.

"Well, how handsome my husband is" said Anyelir, looking at the face of Chrysanthemum, which was clean of fine feathers.

They stared at each other, slowly their faces drew closer and finally.

"Akh!" Carnations awaken from their sleep, awakening dreams about past memories. Her tears were dripping, she reneged on her promise not to give up.

He was too afraid of being left behind by Chrysanthemums to make himself throw away from the bridge. "Stupid! You idiot! I am a fool! I shouldn't have tried to commit suicide" said Anyelir in tears.