The Obsession of the Enthusiast
RG 46

Kevin stared at the giant screen containing CCTV footage in front of him. His forehead frowned, the right hand on his lips, propped up by his left hand that was hugging his own waist.

He was thinking.

About the tactics of beating Nirmala.

He was convinced that Nirmala had the same feelings as him. But the woman was too afraid to step forward.

Also, choked up due to Kevin's past.

Which, in fact, they both have known this for a long time, if the past cannot be changed, and trauma is difficult to be expelled away.

Kevin's disappointed, though,

But when Nirmala passed, she realized.

If he is too hasty.

The problem is, he's been holding this back for a very long time according to him.

6 Months of search, plus 6 months finally met but could not even get close.

Kevin really wants Nirmala.

And I am so grateful that woman is single.

There have been many disappointments, including court delays for her mother's killers who apparently dragged on big names in politics. Artha wants to wipe everything out, but Kevin doesn't want more victims.

She is nothing but Artha, and the man is soon to be married to his best friend.

So he better go, hide, live his life comfortably in his own way while he waits. He still believes the judicial process in this country can seek justice for all its people.

And there is God's intervention in this matter.

It's been quite sad, now it's an affair.

“Copot all his cameras,” whispered Nirmala near his ear, from behind him.

Kevin was shocked and looked.

“Ih, Aunt. This is for the sake of security and safety ber.”.

“Non need to my apartment, right?!” cut Nirmala while putting the fried rice on the dining table. “Oh yes, why fill your fridge snack all? You have to eat a lot of meat,”

“If you want to eat stay to warteg,”

“Terus why there is no stove here?!”

“Yaaa... because I ate it in warteg,”.

“Not good snack hold,”

“From childhood I ate it in warteg,”

“Yes yes your mother will have warteg,” Nirmala ruffled waist while sneering.

“From now on if hungry will stay to the front unit,” Kevin grimaces, “After all I move?”

Nirmala sighed and sat down. “We need to talk about a lot of things, Kevin. Including about your move here,”

Kevin sat in front of him, taking a spoon. “Eat first yes, Auntie Dear,”

Nirmala again sighed.

Their nights were spent chatting.

Many things.

Nirmala listened more, because Kevin's life varied. Dynamic is like the nature of this child.

She smiled and looked at Kevin with longing.

How long were the nights spent thinking this child was next to him, sleeping while hugging him. And how many of his days were spent working as he sought to cast off that shadow. Therefore, Nirmala's lifestyle changed drastically, especially the hours of sleep.

Every time Kevin remembered, he woke up and did activities that could distract him.

But this young man has always existed.

This young man stole his life.

Should he just give up on the situation? Because the more he moved, the closer Kevin got. When he felt that he had started to move on and the intensity of remembering Kevin was reduced, Kevin in a human form actually appeared in front of him.

And what is this dream now? Or reality?

That can prove it only tomorrow.

By morning, everything was not gone.

That's proof that this is all real.

Kevin who was telling the story in front of him now was like a slow motion clip memory in Nirmala's view. It was so beautiful and seemingly unattainable, but it was always on his mind.

“...But finally Om Artha even imposed installments, that's why the amount spent half my salary anyway! Fortunately lunch is still catering from the office, if a little smilein the canteen mothers can be greedy take away dinner, hehe,” Kevin story.

Nirmala reached out to Kevin's cheek and cleaned the rice. Then put the rice grains into his own mouth.

Why does it taste sweet? Did I put sugar wrong? Or because of Kevin's cheek?

Nirmala thought as she frowned and chewed the rice grains again in her mouth. Make sure of it again.

Oh, no really. Tastes savory. It turns out that the influence of this child has reached my senses. Thought Nirmala then.

When he realized, Kevin was looking at him.

For a moment they just kept staring at each other.

Not paying attention to the atmosphere around them,

indifferent to the faint sounds surrounding him.

A few seconds quiet, though,

There were only the two of them in a quiet world.

Then there's something Nirmala always wanted to ask Kevin.

“Kev,”

“Hm?” Kevin was still looking at her with the same expression, half-awed, half-solicited, but not daring to approach.

Afraid that Nirmala might run away again.

“What is your wildest fantasy against me?” ask Nirmala.

Looking next to Kevin's eyebrows raised, “After so long, why ask that one, anyway? I'll say you run,”

“Worse dong answer,” here's Nirmala's conclusion.

“Yes it must have been severe, I was experienced in it, and I was still abege, it was definitely a strange thing that came across,” Kevin half nagged because of Nirmala's unexpected question.

Nirmala chuckled, then looked down. Her ears are hot and embarrassed.

Why would he ask that? Is there nothing else to boost his confidence than to know that he is the sexual object of a college boy?!

“Abege.." murmured Nirmala, "It doesn't feel like a long time has passed since I saw you in a white-gray uniform, huh. Now there is an alma mater jacket on your coat hanger,”

“And Name Tag,”

“Ah Yes, and Name tag. I'm the only one you're proud of, let alone your mother huh,”

“You're not who I am,”

“I'm always not everyone's guy,”

“Once in a while believe in yourself dong, Auntie. Many people care about you, really. It's you who don't accept them,”

Nirmala was silent again.

Now so many figures appeared in his memory.

Papa at the end of his life said: Nirmala, Papa always believed in you.

Mama in her last moments said: Mala, take your sister and your Papa. Only you can make sure you get through it all.

Wana recently said: Why do you always let everyone hurt you? My dear brother became even more sad to see him. Love yourself first, brother.

His boss in the office also said: I have noticed that you always have a hand in every solution. Interested in being promoted to a higher level, Ma'am Dierja? If interested anytime contact me.

Come to think of it, many also care about him. Because of Jaka and his family, all so he magari with his gloomy thoughts.

And in fact,

The one he most wanted to exist and care for him, was this young man in front of him.

Who realized that this world, although full of bad things, but always tucked good things in every trip. No matter how big a stone fell on him, he always did not give up on going forward and facing everything.

Kevin is actually a teacher in his life. He was half the age of Nirmala. But his life is 3x more complicated.

Which he could still face with a smile.

Life problems that make Kevin mature and see the problem with his chin raised, as if satisfied with his own life.

Where have I been all this time? Just shutting yourself up and unwarranted insecure. My problem was long over.

So, uh,

It is time to accept something new,

Start life from the beginning,

Fill the sheets of his memory with the thing he wanted the most.

The first one is, the,

“Kevin, want to live with me?”