THE WASTED QUEEN
Chapter 43 - The Past of Selene

The more days, Ars the more his own confidence crisis.

I don't know why he's getting so scared that he can't think clearly.

He was afraid that Cristal would leave him and would rather leave him.

Ars was afraid that Cristal would get bored of him and leave because he once made her hurt and cry.

As of now, it's his time with Anna and he keeps thinking about Cristal who doesn't want to be taken home by him and prefers to go home by his assistant Sammy.

" Dear, why not eat ? Don't you have to eat ?" Ars only glanced at Anna and refocused on her food.

But instead of eating the food on his plate, Ars only stirred it because he had no appetite at all.

" Do you want to get sick again and be taken care of by your first wife ?"

" An, can you not reply to this ?" Ars put down his spoon and left the dinner table just like that because he didn't want to eat anymore.

For some reason whenever he was far apart from Cristal it felt like he could not eat like this.

" Don't get me back to getting angry with your first wife. He always threatened me if until you got sick again he would make a calculation on me. He also threatened to freeze all my cards. " Hearing what Anna said made Ars immediately sit back in his chair and eat his food even though it was difficult to swallow it.

He just didn't want Anna to feel that he was so different from him that Ars was really heavy on Cristal than Anna.

" What that doesn't mean to me and my son that you don't want to see me. " Anna again opened a conversation between them hoping Ars would talk to her.

" An, I married you because I thought of the child in your womb. About my love and affection for him later I will not distinguish with the child in Cristal's birth. But sorry, I can't love you anymore because I just love Cristal An. " Hurt ?

Obviously Anna's heart ached hearing Ars's answer. He loves Ars, but Ars does not love him at all and even the man has said that he only loves Cristal his first wife.

" Then I ? what about me after this child was born ?" The question from Anna was able to stop all the ars hand movements.

He looked at Anna with a deep gaze that was difficult for him to understand. He knew that this woman must have been heartbroken to hear his answer earlier.

But how else because Ars no longer loves Anna.

Ars only loves Cristal and it really loves you a lot.

If Anna questions her fate after the child is born Ars also does not know what answer will be given to Anna.

Will they remain divorced or will continue to have unhealthy relationships like this.

" I don't know An, I don't understand what's going to happen. If we get divorced, I'll guarantee you a life until you get married again. Even if we continue to be in a relationship like this I cannot guarantee that I will give my love to you again. "

" Is there not a little taste left behind ? Just let me feel that love again. Even if I had to be your second wife and had to give up a lot with Cristal I would be ready. Let me hug my son. Let him remain my son in the eyes of the world. " Ars looked pityfully at Anna who looked so pitiful like that.

He could only look and promise a luxurious life for Anna even if the woman divorced from him.

But not with unhealthy relationships like this.

" I can guarantee that your life will not lack anything An, but even if you remain my wife I cannot promise you any happiness. Because I love Cristal so much and I just realized it all. "

" You used to love me, too, so I'm going to go back to trying to restore your love even if it's not completely. " Ars doesn't want to have any more conversations with Anna, so he'd rather just leave the dinner table and go back to his office.

Rather than discussing this with Anna, it was better for her to finish all the work.

Because what they are discussing has no end at all. Besides Ars who does not understand what will happen in the future. He also did not understand why he could love Cristal so much and forget Anna so easily.

" At least let me get back to fighting Ars. Let me be the single mother of my son because I don't want my son to know the world as Cristal's son. It would hurt my feelings as a woman. "

" Do what you want to do An, I can't ban you and I can't prevent you from having feelings for me, But the one thing I have to emphasize to you is that I don't love you because in my heart there is only Cristal. " The conversation between them was over because Ars really left Anna there.

He walked into his office and refocused himself on the job.

But absolutely could not because in his mind right now there were only crystals and Cristal.

She was afraid that Cristal would get further away from her because she kept going with Sammy.

Not only with Sammy, but Ars is also so jealous of the closeness between Cristal and Leo.

Ars gets lunch every day from Cristal's house and Leo gets the same thing.

Ars feels a crisis of his confidence.

He becomes insecure and fears ghosts. Afraid of losing Cristal.

Is this what you call karma ? If this is what is called karma then Ars really believes that karma exists and now he is enjoying karma itself.

Was Cristal like this too ? Did Cristal ever feel afraid of losing himself as he feels now ?

" I have to see him tomorrow. I wanted to ask Cristal for answers about all my fears. I want Cristal to really never leave me. And anyway I won't let Cristal get away from me. " Ars has made up his mind that he will continue to fight to defend Cristal.

Because after all Cristal is his and Cristal will only be his wife.

If he can't have Cristal then there won't be any man who gets it. Cristal was only created for her and will only be the wife of Arsya Anthonie Gilbert.

Not to be the wife of any man in the world.

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