Victimizing Yourself for Love
Part*12

Due to fatigue, as well as a haunting drowsiness, Nining slept in a sitting position where both hands still hugged Tora. Meanwhile, Tora also ended up sleeping in Nining's arms.

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Nining opened her eyes when she heard the morning prayer greeting her ears. Because he sleeps in a sitting position, he feels a little pain in the shoulders and spine. But, he didn't pay attention to that feeling. What he ignored the first time when he opened his eyes was Tora's state.

He let out a sigh of relief when he felt that Tora's body temperature had improved a little. Still feels hot. But it's not too hot right now.

"Huh .. thank goodness. Although he had not returned to normal, but at least, his body temperature had already dropped."

Nining moved slowly to get out of bed. He wanted to leave Tora in order to prepare breakfast, as well as warm water for Tora to take a bath.

In less than fifteen minutes, Nining had already finished everything he wanted to do. He returned to Tora's room with a bowl of porridge and a glass of milk which he brought with his napkin.

As she walked into the room, she found Tora sitting on the bed holding her head. Tora looks still limp, but she forces him to get up.

"You're awake? Are you feeling better? If not, don't force yourself to wake up. You can ask me to take whatever you want."

"I'm not papa."

"Tora, I know you're still not better. No need to lie to yourself."

Tora did not answer. He only looked at Nining with a faint look.

When Nining put the napkin he brought on the nightstand, he saw that the ginger milk he gave last night was still intact on the nightstand. Instantly, Nining's face seemed to change. Like I was feeling a disappointment.

Understand with Nining's changed face. Tora immediately said something to dispel the disappointment that was in Nining's heart.

"I don't like milk. So, sorry, I can't drink it."

"Ooh .. is okay. If you don't like milk, it doesn't matter. No need to drink it."

'Oh my God .. why did I feel disappointed earlier. And now, I felt fine after she explained why she didn't drink the ginger milk I made. Actually, what's with my heart now? Am I okay? Ah, that's fucking. This must be because of the responsibility that Siah put on me. I was too burdened with so many thoughts.'

Nining took a deep breath. Then release slowly.

'May Siah return soon. I don't know what my heart wants to do anymore. If the longer, the more I forget myself.'

"Mc ... Tora, I've prepared warm water for you to take a shower. After the bath, you can have breakfast with the porridge I brought you earlier."

"Yes." Yeah."

"Mm .. I'm out now. You can shower yourself, right?"

Nining wanted to directly leave Tora after speaking. But, Tora quickly held her hand against leaving.

"Wait on! I want to ask you one thing."

"You ask what? Just ask."

"Are you doing all of this just because of the trust of bi Siah? Is there no other reason?" Tora asked as she continued to hold Nining's hand.

He had a strange question in his ear. Nining suddenly put on a confused face. He did not understand the meaning of the question Tora had just asked.

"You mean ... what? Of course I did all this because of the trust of bi Siah. I have no other reason than the trust he gave me. That trust makes me feel like I have a big responsibility to run it."

"Go away. I'm fine now. You don't have to worry about me anymore. The responsibility of trust is done."

"But .... "

"Don't argue with me. I don't like to be disputed. You should know that."

Nining grunted softly.

"alright. I'm going out. If you need anything, just call me. I won't be far from your room."

Tora did not answer. Don't answer, just look at him. Nining paid no heed to that. He just stepped up to leave Tora's room.

Not not wanting to be sensitive to the situation. Only, Nining did not want to be wrong in judging things. He was afraid that if he later the sensitivity he had even made the problems between them even bigger.

After all, he also knew that Tora would never want to be nice to him. The problems he created for Tora back then were too big. He wasn't sure if the problem could be lost in Tora's memory. Sorry for him, he felt impossible to get at any time.

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Two days have passed. Nining has done a very good job. He treated the feverish Tora with all his heart until the man was fully healed.

Having no supplies of groceries for her to cook, Nining was forced to go to the market alone this morning. Although in truth, he felt rather heavy-hearted to go alone. Because normally, he went with bi Siah.

He was only in charge of bringing the equipment that Siah bought. While all the groceries, bi Siah who bought it.

"Oh my God .. When will Siah come back here again? It's been almost a week since he came home. Uh ... It's so heavy I think I'm without him."

Nining complained in front of the door while looking towards the outside of the house. The leg was reluctant to step outside. But if they don't go, there will be no lunch for them to eat. Because the food supply is completely exhausted.

The complaint was Tora very well. He who had just come down from the top floor, suddenly stopped his footsteps from hearing the complaint.

"If you don't want to go shopping, then don't go. No need to complain like that. Not good."

Reacting, the remark made Nining feel shocked. He immediately turned his head towards Tora who was still standing on the stairs.

"I .. not really. Not complaining. Who said I was complaining? I was just talking about it."

"Mm ..really? I just found out someone's talking like that. Speak alone, with words and a tone of complaining."

"I told you. I'm not complaining. Yeah, I gotta go now."

"Wait!"

"What?"

"If you don't want to go, then there's no need to go."

"If I don't go, then there will be no lunch. Because I don't have any ingredients to cook."

"Yes already. Just order some food for lunch."

"Message? Ah, no-no. If we order it for noon. Then, later tonight, we'll order too? Then, tomorrow morning, tomorrow afternoon, and so on, should I order too?"