Visible Loser
BLIND JEALOUS

Two more days, precisely the twelfth of July is Dian's birthday. I plan to surprise him for the first time.

I have contacted Nevi, to be willing to accompany me to Jogja. Nevi gladly accepted my invitation. Coincidentally he said Risa's boyfriend Nevi had started doing KKN also outside the city. So that by going to Jogja with me, he can release his saturation a little.

After I prepared carefully, finally I and Nevi went to one of the Government Hospital in Bantul Jogja area to give a surprise to Dian.

With two motorcycles we walked in tandem, tracing the southern streets of Semarang.

This line is famous as a track that is always jammed and often accidents occur as well. It always makes us careful in driving.

Large truckloads, container cars and inter-provincial bus buses dominate the gridlock this time around. Not to mention the hot weather in Semarang always stings the skin.

Slowly but surely, Nevi and I continued to drive the bike to the city.

Three hours passed, after passing Ungaran, Bawen, Ambarawa, Secang, Magelang and Muntilan, I finally arrived at the icon of the city.

In Tugu Jogja to be exact, me and Nevi rested for a while while looking for a sego kelingan, rice wrap that was famous in the city to release our hunger.

After that we continued our journey back to the city of Bantul. Along the way to Bantul, there are many post-earthquake houses that are being renovated but some are still left to blend with the ground.

Indeed, the effects of the earthquake are still so felt in the region, let alone have taken many lives.

With a travel time of approximately twenty-five minutes finally me and Nevi reached the location we were headed.

I did not give the news first to Dian to come to his KKN place. I only get information from Adi and Meta friends Dian, related where the location so I can meet with Dian.

Today was exactly two in the afternoon, after a long wait with Nevi while coffee in one of the stalls fitting facing the hospital gate.

Finally we saw Dian coming out of the hospital. But his position is being held by a man. At first I thought it was normal, maybe Dian was bullied by a motorcycle taxi driver or his friend. But I see, Dian hugged the man tightly from behind.

"Ndre, kae Dian. But karo sopo yo ?" Celtuk Nevi.

"Wow, don't know me Nev. I don't know either." I replied.

"Labra ae wiss." Nevi's orders.

"Liet Nev, it will be a long time to know who Dian is with." replied me again.

Nevi as my best friend, felt that something we saw was so painful.

Nevi imagined that it was Risa, who was in Dian's position. Nevi said that if it was Risa, I had run over and must have been immediately asked for clarity regarding this matter. Only I am different from Nevi, I am jealous of the incident but I can still think clearly before doing things that might be embarrassing for me later.

"Nev, let's go !" nevi and I rushed on our bikes to follow where Dian and the man were going.

Unexpectedly, they turned out to head to a house that resembled a boarding house on the side of the highway not far from the hospital where Dian did KKN activities. After the man parked his motorbike, Dian and the man went to the stairs and headed to the top floor of the dormitory. Here me and Nevi just watched them from afar, watching them being swallowed up by the stairs of the house.

"Catch up, Ndre !" Cetus Nevi's.

"Later Nev, that's where we don't know" I said. "Mending me her cell phone first. Make sure Dian's what she's doing." reply me again.

This time the surprise I designed was a little messy, even I myself who got a surprise from Dian.

I took my phone to try to call Dian and three times I called him.

I finally texted him.

"Hi, what are you doing ?" fill in my sms for Dian.

Me and Nevi kept a close eye on the dormitory, an hour passed my phone did not inform Dian's activities.

Two more hours passed by and did not see Dian coming out of the dormitory. Until Maghrib arrived, Dian out of the dormitory was still with the man who invited her. Dian looks different, apparently she had changed her clothes. It also made me feel jealous and suspicious.

Without further ado, Nevi and I followed her from behind, following where Dian was going next.

Dian and the man continued their journey towards Malioboro. Once there Dian and the man entered a gudeg restaurant that is quite famous in the area.

My phone still hasn't received any information about Dian.

"Piye, Ndre ? samperin just a wis." pinta Nevi who seems to be in anxiety at this time with Dian.

"Don't Nev, this is a public place" I replied.

Looking from a distance, I saw Dian and the man sitting next to each other. They are very friendly, Dian's hands always in the man's grasp.

"Dog, Ndre. Very friendly with them, you're here." Nevi arrived suddenly took the initiative to enter the restaurant.

"You're saying you are !" I hurried to embrace Nevi, so as not to be rash and get too into my personal realm.

"Kalem, Ndre. I just want to go in, buy a drink there, while prank on him to make sure he's on campus with me. At least if we're on campus, he's still thinking about you Ndre." Nevi explained.

"Oh, Ok. I'm watching from here yeah." I'm clear.

Finally Nevi entered the restaurant, she started talking to the waiter there. It seemed that he was negotiating about the menu he was going to order. After the waiter prepared Nevi's order, Nevi seemed to greet and shake Dian and the man's hands. I don't know what they're talking about.

From this angle which is quite limited by the Malioboro side of the road, the man appears to embrace Dian while talking to Nevi and their communication is finally interrupted when a servant approaches Nevi while carrying a package.

After receiving the package, Nevi immediately came out of the restaurant and approached me. I also saw Dian and the man was about to start eating some food at their table.

"Ready, Broo." I said. "Now, what do you want to tell me ?"

"Ndre, the same Dian. A Doctor Koas, but don't be mad." Nevi explained.

"That's why, she must be her boyfriend ?" ask me.

"Husband candidate instead. Dian said it to herself that. And when I asked Dian about you, Dian was like Ndre's amnesia." Answer Nevi.

"Serious Nev." asked me.

"Seriously Bro, when did I lie to you Nyet." Nevi replied seriously.

Hearing that answer, I immediately stood up from the motorbike I was sitting on.

"Go back to Semarang Nev !" I turned on my motor.

"Sik anyway, sik... Kalem sik Broo." Nevi directly blocked my bike while pulling the key.

"What else do you want ?" ask me again.

"You either hit them first or find out what they're going to do next" Nevi explained.

"This even makes me emotional hingga Nev, later." I said. "Obviously, they are serious and have been together for a long time in the dorm and my position is tired like this it must be patient like how else ?"

'Oh yowiss is up." replied Nevi. "Sik Ndre, my advice is to be patient. Smoke is !" nevi's suggestion while giving a pack of cigarettes for me to grab a piece of the contents.

I followed Nevi's wishes. Then I enjoyed the cigarette while wasting time watching those who were cool holding hands while enjoying the menu.

"Dians.. Diane.. I thought, you are a strong and tough woman. It turns out you're a player." I complained in my heart.

On a whim again, I dialed her phone number from my phone. This time the number is inactive.

"Of Dian, be honest with me." My mind became incompetent.

One day, two cigarettes have run out me and Nevi sucked together. I from a distance saw Dian so close to the man.

Me and Nevi can conclude Dian has landed her feelings for the man. Dian for almost six months in Jogja also turned out to have betrayed my trust.

My feelings began to fill with jealousy that had peaked. But I am still calm, because I do not want to be rash in taking the decision to raid.

I myself actually did not really really love Dian from the beginning. Because I realized there was a high wall separating us.

When forced, we both have to sacrifice someone leaving their God for love.

Jealousy is natural for me, because I have known Dian and together with Dian for almost a year. Dian and I have begun to collaborate on thoughts also related to the future plans of both of us. Even we always look compact in developing the Dian family business.

I don't know what Dian's parents think. I felt they were so accepting of my presence. When there is a family event, they still remember me and invite me to attend. I also really feel comfortable in their environment.

It's just that I'm thinking about how to break this relationship. Breaking up the right relationship will make me totally forget and even not want to see Dian anymore.

Not long after, Dian and the man moved from the gudeg restaurant where they had released their hunger. Me and Nevi are still following them and it seems that they are heading back to the hostel.

This time I was desperate to hit them, I followed them parking in the dormitory followed by Nevi. Dian and the man were not aware of our presence, as we parked our vehicle a bit away from their parking lot. Our distance from Dian and the man was about eight seconds. When Dian and the man went up to the second floor of the dormitory by climbing the stairs. I quickly followed them and separated only one stepmother.

After I reached several stepmothers, I saw Dian and the man walking into one of the rooms. I was still following Dian from behind, and then I saw a room they had unlocked and they went into the room together. The man before briefly kissing Dian's cheek before entering the room.

I then approached the room, in front of the room I heard a little sound ******* them. Because the door of the room was not completely closed. And....

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Today I was at my new boarding house, I decided to move from there. I don't want any more memories, I try to forget what happened a few days ago.

My heart seemed to have been modified again into a new one, I forgot the small stain on my heart. I spend my day, with all kinds of busyness. From devouring the rest of the courses and focusing my thesis program.

I no longer interact socially, I focus away from the crowds and even my college friends.

Every time I finished college, I just left the campus to go back to my boarding house.

Once I saw Dian watching me walk towards the motor park from the second floor corridor of our campus.

Dian apparently has completed her KKN schedule and just follow the guidance of the thesis. Dian's gaze towards me looked very sharp, and never turned at all until I was swallowed by the parking building.

It is likely that if possible and in accordance with the schedule, Dian and I can get the thesis and graduation examination in the same year. But I hope that during this process, I will never see Dian again.

Dian already has a new life with the man. Dian also could not squint when I knocked on their door at that time and it was as if I was mistaken to deliver a package of food to their room.

Dian saw clearly my face in the man's arms. And he turned his face away. Only the man answered my question as he closed the door to his room.

The second I recorded with Dian was a bit long, Dian must have realized that the impromptu courier was me. Plus me before leaving the dorm, I have had time to send mms in the form of photos of their room door and one sentence. "Goodbye !"

Until now, my phone no longer has any clarification phone or any reply message from Dian. This is where I assume, I have begun to be forgotten by him and I will learn also to never show my presence in front of Dian. I, too, always try to assume he was never on this campus.

(connecting.).