You Forgot Me Your Queen
Try Sincere

The chest tightness I could not describe, the pain, the pain was indescribable even though it was only a piece of ash, my world was tossed udders, variously hit by thousands of storm waves that hit the reef.

What reality is this? It felt like a dream, because when I pinched my hand it felt numb, and it was all because of my disappointment in the love of the person in front of me. After this, did you repay my devotion?

After I took my kids to go to her grandmother's house. Yes to Mas Hendri's mother, my in-laws. I decided to talk to Hendri, of course, at our house.

I sat on the sofa opposite to him.

I sobbed at my place, still in disbelief.

"Kal." called him in a still trembling voice holding back the cry, maybe he was sorry, but whatever power, the rice had become porridge, and it was all I had to swallow, even though it was just a bitter taste I received.

"Speak." My reply was short, I don't want to hear any more nonsense this time. Let it hurt all right now. No need for half.

"Dia—" she said stammeringly, as if it contained a whip ready to whip my body.

"He was pregnant Kal. "he continued, then looked down and sobbed in his tears.

"Pregnant? " murmurm. Oh my God, has my husband really done that disgusting thing, I feel so distrustful of all this, the person who has accompanied me from zero, for 8 years, impregnated another woman?

He broke all my trust, even breaking his own vow not to betray me. You're the reason for your common sense? Don't you have it anymore?

"She's pregnant with my son Kal, I'm sorry Mas Kalisa, I'm stupid, I'm sorry." he said as he continued to sob on the sofa.

My tears are shining. Moistened my cheek again that felt hot because it slapped reality.

Is God really this, am I not dreaming?

I took a deep breath, then threw it away slowly, hoping I could feel a little calmer.

"Then what should I do? What else are you asking of me? My heart, my love, my love you have, even my trust you have, but you destroy it yourself because of your ego, then me? What do you think I should do? " i asked as I continued to shed tears, because it was not happy anymore that I had, but a wound, a wound that did not even have a cure.

"You're not alone, you're with him, and you should realize that I'm the one who's left out here" I said, eager to laugh, laugh at the stage of this world's play, and to laugh at the stage, who gave a very bitter destiny to this weak me.

"No Kal, I didn't love him, Mas only loved you, Mas Khilaf back then, "

The Khilaf said, the caliphate that eventually brought disaster, the destruction of souls even the safety of our families at stake. Okay, all mistakes can be forgiven, but not for infidelity. Oh my God what should I do?

I'm trying to think, is this really the way out? Should I do all this? For the sake of my two children. Yeah, it seems like enough for them the reason.

"Married him." I said. Made him look up and look at my face with his eyes reddened. Head shakes.

"No want! " reject raw.

"You who have brought him into our lives, you who have sinned with him, and you do not want to take responsibility for what you have done?" my reply tried sincerely with the thread of fate that was so tangled. Who chose me to feel such tremendous pain.

"But Kal—"

"The baby is innocent, the sinner is you who become his father and mother" I said, then left Mas Hendri who pegged in his place.

I ran to Little's room, I spilled it all there, I screamed in my heart, let me hear it. I hit my chest because it felt like someone was squeezing there, making me feel tight even if just to breathe with relief. Will this disappointment turn out beautifully in time?

"Aakhhhh... O Allah. As dear as you are to my servant, until such trials and trials as you give to my fragile heart, I cannot, O God, be so sick, so sick. "

I hugged my own body, for there was nothing that could calm a man but this self. There was no more warmth, everything felt as silent as this heart.

"Make a sincere servant O Allah..... And let this heart just numb it to him."

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