Your charms are diverting my love
A Great Woman

I saw Vita who was busy tidying up my clothes that I had been berantaki this morning. I am not used to arranging my wardrobe, I am called an independent child, who dares to determine my own future, but I can not be separated from the loyal Mbok Sum became my assistant from my childhood until the wedding. Now the task of Mbok Sum may be lighter at home mama, because there is no me who always mempercokinya, which if every day I call Mbok Sum more often than mama.

Mbok Sum knows everything about me, even about my matchmaking with Vita. Despite knowing, and I was against hard, Mbok Sum never supported me to rebel, even Mbok Sum always advised me, he said the choice of parents is better, and he said, and he said, he said, with me against my way of life to become a teacher was already very opposed to mom and dad, do not add to the heartache of mom and dad. That said Mbok Sum.

Somehow I followed the advice of Mbok Sum, not to oppose my match with Vita. Mbok Sum said, Vita is also no less beautiful than Nadira? Vita is not less great with Nadira, even said Mbok Sum, Vita more than everything compared to Nadira? I only smiled when Mbok Sum said that. Somehow at that time, I was curious about Vita, wanted to prove Mbok Sum's remark that Vita was better than Nadira.

Obviously Vita is better, because Vita is able to raise the name of papa and mama, able to be what papa and mama want. But, I'm sure Vita is very restrained. The soul of business and entrepreneurs is thick to look at Vita, but he may be restrained because of the attitude of papa and mama who always ask Vita to be what they want. It's just my feeling. Somehow Vita's going through all this. Vita is also more mature and more independent, although she is the youngest child. Honestly Nadira is a spoiled woman, she always relies on me, and involves me in everything. My time is focused on Nadira, as long as I'm in a relationship with Nadira. Until mama and papa said, although I love Nadira very much, mama and papa can not change the decision that has mama and papa set, which is my matchmaking with Vita.

My world seemed to collapse, when I had to leave the woman I loved so much. All my dreams with Nadira that we carved were shattered, because mom and dad could not change his decision. I have to stay married to Vita. And inexhaustible, Mbok Sum also joined in the path papa-mama, agreed with Vita, even Mbok Sum getting closer to Vita, after me and Vita fiancee. Mbok Sum always told me that Vita is a good woman, a great woman, patient, and can maintain her honor as a woman. I was really disappointed, Mbok Sum at that time even sided with mama and papa. I had absolutely no one to defend when I was betrothed to Vita, even my college friend, who was the most familiar, and knew my relationship with Nadira only, supported me with Vita.

I was alone at that time, no one was on my side, all in favor of me marrying Vita. I had a long relationship with Nadira. I knew at that time Nadira was disappointed, angry, and hurt. But he also accepted the situation. There's no way I'm against my parents, Nadira knows who my parents are, and she knows who she is. Just a normal girl, from a normal family. I don't care if Nadira is from an ordinary family, maybe mama and papa can also accept, let alone mama and papa know, Nadira is my friend from High School, she often goes home, she often, with friends at group work. Mama and papa never distinguish my friends from among which. However, from before I knew Nadira, my mother and father had warned me not to date, because I had been betrothed to Vita.

Although mom and dad finally knew I had a relationship with Nadira, after I ventured to negotiate with mom and dad, because I refused my match with Vita, mom and dad were not angry with Nadira. Mama and papa are still good, even advising Nadira, because the matchmaking happened since I and Vita were teenagers. Mama and papa advised Nadira, in order to accept the reality. Nadira and I were desperate, my mom and dad couldn't accept our wishes. Nadira finally gave it all up. During the five months leading up to my marriage to Vita, Nadira tried to avoid me, even she decided not to continue teaching at school, because she wanted to forget me. I persuaded him, for it was impossible for him to leave his job, for he was one of the exemplary teachers of the school. All the teacher friends were equally encouraging us, because it was my parents' decision that could not be contested.

My relationship with Nadira continued, I couldn't leave him, I still wanted to be with him, I still loved him a lot, and Nadira did. We both know that what we are doing is a big mistake. We realized that, and sometimes Nadira wanted to quit, I did, sometimes I told her to get married, I also often match her with a friend of the profession, he said, but Nadira said why marry without love? Indeed you? I just kept quiet when Nadira said that.

He also looked fine this afternoon when he met me and Nadira. Although I knew his heart was turbulent, the lightening of his eyes implied a deep sadness, but he was able to hide all that. He could still speak well, straightforwardly, gently, and comment on a sincere, though forced smile.

Vita closed my closet. He faced me, with a cross. I put my book down, and looked at it.

“It's finished, don't mess it up again, can't you take her clothes carefully? If you want to take the bottom, the top lift first, put it on the mattress, then take the clothes you want to take,” said Vita.

“Iya, thank you,” I replied.

“Hmm ...” Vita immediately passed away from my room.

I looked at Vita coming out, until Vita was nowhere to be seen. I was still staring at the door of my room that was still open. Whether there was anything about me, I felt even more guilty about Vita, especially when I remembered the incident at lunchtime, I felt guilty. I am a husband, but without sin, I treat a woman who is not my wife romantically in front of my wife. Even I called my dear to Nadira, in front of Vita.

I closed the door to my room, I locked it. I took my phone, opened a message from Nadira, and replied to her. I continued to communicate with Nadira via video call, and like this every night, at bedtime, we video call even to sleep.