Bonds Without Love
ITC #77

Bisma stopped chewing when she realized his wife did not touch the food, Erina just looked at the plate filled with brown rice and side dishes, Bisma also saw sadness in the eyes of the woman she loved.

"Darling, why not eat? don't you like the brown rice?" Bhishma asked, though Bhishma knew that was not what made Erina sad.

Erina had told her nightmares, the woman had a dream of Bhishma cheating. Perhaps the situation would be different if Erina had never had a miscarriage, Erina would have thought that her nightmare was just a sleeping flower.

However, Erina's miscarriage became her problem, Erina always said the possibility of Bhishma would leave her for the sake of other women who were more perfect, Erina also had many times asked for time to prepare herself.

Hey, Bhishma never thought of leaving Erina because she felt that there would be no woman like Erina in this world, although Erina many times made Bhishma have no other choice but to give up.

No matter what anyone says, Erina will remain the only wife and only woman in Bhishma's life. Because it will be difficult to find a woman who cares more about her job than money or other things.

"Oh." Erina awoke from her daydream and looked at Bhishma with a smile. "No. I love it." And then I started eating that rice.

As Bhishma becomes clear that his wife is pretending, Erina forces herself to continue believing in Bhishma, even though she knows that Erina's heart is suspecting her. Yeah, Bisma knows Erina saw lipstick on her shirt.

"Max ..." Calling Bisma quietly, she felt she could not bear to see Erina who continued to pretend.

"Hm?" Erina said as she chewed the food in her mouth and looked at the gentle Bhishma.

"Is there something you want to ask, hm?" Bisma asked Erina to provoke her into saying what was a burden on her mind.

Erina fell silent and thought, it is true that there are some things Erina wants to ask her husband, but Erina feels it is inappropriate to ask. Bhishma has endured their marriage should Erina be grateful.

Erina was anxious to ask Bisma where to go until late at night, but was Erina still worthy to ask such a thing? Erina even felt unworthy of feeling hurt if indeed her conjecture towards Bhishma was true.

"Darling, I know something's bothering you." Bisma spoke again to see Erina who kept silent staring at him.

Erina squeezed the spoon in her hand. "No, I don't think anything and nothing bothers me." While continuing to smile.

"Alright, then you can keep on playing, I'll go to the office." Speak Bhishma while stomping a spoon on the plate and cause a distinctive sound. Bhishma really couldn't bear to see Erina.

The bisma just left the dining room. Not angry, Bhishma just couldn't bear to see Erina trying to look okay. The more Erina tried, the more Bhishma saw that Erina was just pretending.

"Why does it feel to have to be this sick ..." Lirih Erina while holding her chest that felt tight and began to shed tears.

Erina saw the red lipstick on the white shirt that Bhishma wore last night, whereas on the same night the man said he had a lot of work in the office, then whose lipstick was it? Leo is still a male, right?!

"Stupid!" Suddenly someone hugged Erina from behind, but she didn't really leave Erina or go to the office, she was still there watching Erina. "Who dares make you cry, hm?"

"Maos ..." Erina is even sobbing. Erina had trouble controlling herself, she felt like a very bad person.

"You're just gonna tell me who it is, I'm gonna make him regret it for the rest of his life." Bisma remarked.

Erina shook her head weakly. "Nobody made me cry, I cried of my own will." her voice still sobbed.

Bisma sighed and slowly let go of her embrace, then the man stood in front of Erina, right across the table where Erina was sitting. "Mas knows who made you cry" after which Bisma slapped her own face.

"Bast jerk man! why are you lying to your wife? why did you break your promise not to hurt her? and why-" Bhishma just stopped slapping her own face when Erina's two tiny hands held her hand.

"Why did you slap yourself?" Erina asked raised her voice from being too panicked.

Bhishma looked straight at Erina's watery eyes. "Mas is just helping you teach a lesson to the person who dares to make you cry, sorry .." Her hand moved erasing Erina's tears very gently.

Erina shakes. "Mas is not wrong, why do you have to apologize? not the reason I cry! don't blame yourself!"

Bhishma held Erina's hands together and immediately carried the woman into her arms. If possible, Bisma is eager to erase Erina's memory so that her wife returns to the way she used to be.

But, how could erasing Erina's memory without hurting her? Anyone, please tell me what can Bhishma do now? Honestly, Bhishma would rather see Erina's flat face.

"Last night I met the man who had made you wretched, I did nothing but chat, and then suddenly there was a woman who tried to kiss me, because I avoided it so the lipstick was about ..."

"I know you will never betray me." Erina interrupted Bisma's explanation for not wanting to hear it, and Erina's hand returned Bhishma's embrace.

Erina had tried to trust Bhishma, and tried to convince herself that the lipstick meant nothing, but Erina's heart could not trust Bhishma just like that. Erina also did not know why her heart was so weak like this.

"Erin, you're free to ask anything, you can scold me if I make a mistake, but please don't be like this, you're just hurting yourself." Bisma said softly, then tightened her embrace on Erina's body.

"I'm a fool, I don't know why I can live like this, I find it hard to trust others, I've been trying to make myself sure that there are still good people in this cruel world, but ..."

Erina stopped talking because her voice suddenly choked, her chest felt like it was a heavy burden and it made it difficult to breathe. Everyone knows, changing something won't be as easy as when our mouth says it.

Erina had tried hard to change the bad things in him so as not to make the same mistake for the umpteenth time, but Erina even hurt herself. Because something that is already attached will be difficult to disappear.

"Erin, I'm not asking you to think I'm good, I just want you to think more about yourself." Speak Bhishma with a hoarse voice.

"Please wait a little while longer, after everything is done, I will take you on vacation, hopefully after that you can feel calm."

And without them noticing, there was a pair of eyes watching them from a distance. "I can't understand what's going on here."

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Now what do you want to say after knowing that changing something that is already inherent in us is difficult? Are you trying to like something you don't like? easy one?

"Never judge a person without trying to understand what happened to him. Talking is easy, you just open your mouth and make a sound, but do it?" (Author)

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Regards,

Nur Alquinsha A's.