Call Me Rain
Guilt

After returning from the funeral, Mirza actually wanted to accompany Gweny with Mama Indri and Pa Sanjaya. Comforting and encouraging him so that Gweny does not feel alone.

But he also felt he needed time for it. Until finally he decided to go upstairs, and go into his room and calm down there. His impromptu marriage to Gweny he could not take for granted, for a while he wanted to avoid Gweny.

For a moment he decided to sleep on the bed, but he remembered that Gweny would be the new occupant in his room. Finally, Mirza chose to go out to the balcony of her room.

He sat pensively on the sofa on the balcony of his room, recalling the time when the Papa whispered something while they were waiting for Om Handoko who was being handled in the operating room.

"Papa does not want, you make Papa disappointed Mir," whispered Pa Sanjaya who was sitting next to him.

"Papa is afraid, this will be Handoko's last request."

"Well," Mirza stared in disbelief at the Papa, why to think of something that had not happened.

"You, you've repeatedly pushed back the marriage. For the moment ... Please, fulfill Handoko's request."

Mirza couldn't deny it, it was her fault. He always takes time for a wedding.

If only he had been honest with his own feelings, perhaps this impromptu marriage would not have happened. But, in order to maintain self-esteem is also the good name of the Papa, Mirza willingly harbored it in the heart.

Mirza stood on the balcony, staring at the pool with calm water in the backyard. The beautiful memories of her being with Alula suddenly flashed through her mind.

Mirza took a deep breath, then exhaled violently. If only he did not remember there was a family that he still loved, it would be like he plunged right now from his balcony.

The twilight came so fast, while the shade felt increasingly heavy. Alula, the girl he slept with last night, no longer knows where she is.

Mirza took a deep breath, not knowing what would happen next. His head felt heavy, the thought of love made him like a dying man.

"Why did you choose to leave my life La ?" Mirza stared at the pavilion building that was once Alula's residence.

The place in it is full of memories, even though it is now only a wishful thinking.

"At any time, I'll feel guilty for making a terrible mistake with you." Without feeling the clear circle decays from the fertilizer.

Mirza was sitting on the sofa, with a body that felt weak, her head felt heavier, she grew increasingly upset. For some reason, Alula's shadow continued to spin in her mind until she unconsciously fell asleep soundly.

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Ever since the night she met Alula, Mirza felt her sleep never felt good. When he tried to close his eyes, Alula's shadow continued to haunt his calmness.

Almost a week after her simple wedding with Gweny was held, never once did Mirza touch Gweny. They even sleep in different places. Gweny sleeps on a bad spring, while Mirza chooses to sleep on the sofa in her room.

No, not because he didn't accept Gweny as his wife. However, when he just looked at the face of Gweny, which appeared precisely the sad face of Alula.

Whether because of guilt, or because of his heart still stored the image of the beautiful white face Alula, so that every time he tried to touch Gweny, Alula was always present in his shadow.

Like tonight, Mirza just got home from work after attending an important meeting with her co-workers. He saw Gweny just coming out of the bathroom in bright red pajamas. Gweny smiles at her arrival, trying to be a good wife for Mirza, although Mirza's attitude is still cold towards her sometimes.

"Just home?" gweny asked when he saw Mirza open the black suit he was wearing. Mirza simply nodded in response.

Gweny went up on the bed, his body felt tired all day. He does all his work at home.

"Gwen," called Mirza to make Gweny who was playing a mobile phone turn.

"I'm ... going to try it tonight" he said meaningfully.

Gweny was stunned, there was a sense of disbelief in his heart. Will he belong to Mirza tonight ? Will Mirza accept and take her as a wife from tonight ?

Shaking, Gweny tried to smile.

"Bring first," he told Mirza who was still standing looking at him with an illegible look.

Gweny put lipgloss on her lips to make her look fresher, parfume with the scent of roses she sprayed onto part of her body.

It didn't take long, Mirza had returned after cleaning herself up. He went up to sleep where Gweny was waiting for him with a restless heart, happy, in disbelief, and longing to be one in his mind.

Mirza tried her hardest to get rid of Alula's shadow in her mind. He closed his eyes, not daring to look at Gweny's face. He tried to do it carefully, not wanting to hurt Gweny's heart and feelings.

"What hurts?" mirza asked Gweny who looked grimacing as he had just done his duty to Gweny.

"Silver," complained Gweny.

"Sorry," said Mirza, still breathing heavily.

"It's okay, maybe the effect is like this." Gweny was still grimacing, but he tried to keep smiling.

"Thank you, you're waiting." Mirza looked at Gweny who was now smiling at her.

"No, I should be the one to thank you. Because you have accepted me," said Gweny sincerely.

"Now sleep !"

Mirza got out of bed, she put all her clothes back on.

"Where are you going?" asked Gweny with a shrunken forehead.

"I'm sleeping here." Mirza pointed at the sofa in front of her.

A disappointed look on Gweny's face. How could Mirza sleep on the sofa while they had just done the usual thing done by husband and wife.

Mirza still could not accept Gweny completely, so she chose to sleep in a separate place. Again, Gweny felt disappointed at his own thinking. Now he knows, Mirza is only doing his duty, not because he has received Gweny completely.

Mirza noticed Gweny who was now restlessly asleep on the bed. Mirza thought, whether Gweny was feeling pain in his body, so he often changed his sleeping position.

"Is that sick?" inner Mirza. He looked at Gweny's sleeping body with his back. However, he suddenly recalled the incident where he took half forcefully something very valuable in Alula.

"Did I hurt you too La ?" it was almost inaudible.

Mirza cursed to herself, because she could think of Alula, when she had just done it with Gweny. Perhaps, his mind was already broken at this moment.

"I'm sorry" he said, closing his eyes.

Hoping that his guilt could be eroded just by closing his eyes.

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Happy Reading 😊

Sorry, again authoritative to disappoint all readers. 🙏

As the Authority is also writing one more story, the attention of the Authority is divided into two. So, for a faster Up it doesn't seem like Otor can do it yet.

Otor hope everyone remains patient waiting for the story of Neng Peri as Semir kang ya.. 🙏

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