Genius Son My name is Aji
Consultation

What do you feel, when an event you never imagined, frightening and terrible, suddenly happens?

Something that happens is not only the thing that will make a big change in your daily life, but also the sacrifice of everyone you care about.

In fact, all of that happened not because of your mistakes and desires. At a very young age, you feel all these things. You have to be alone all the time.

Maybe that's all Cilla's been feeling all along. Although he was silent and never complained about it, all were hidden and settled into Cilla's subconscious mind.

Starting from the death of his biological mother, when he was too young, then living alone with his father, Wildan Bayu. Feeling the sweetness of the false affection of Dian Anita, Cilla's stepmother, even though only a moment in her teens, her father's bankruptcy, then his father fell ill and his stepmother's attitude changed which turned out to be a drunkard and a gambler. And the biggest and most unforgettable thing is, one event that will change his life, and he will never forget throughout the history of his destiny journey.

The night that everything happened, without Cilla knowing before, that he was sold by his stepmother, Dian Anita.

A history-changing event in the world of a teenager Cilla Andini. A cheerful girl who never complains and is always eager to live her days, even though she is no longer overwhelmed by the wealth and affection of those closest to her.

No tears were shed when Cilla finished telling the story. In front of the psychologist who handled it. Mami Rossa and Aji, who accompanied her, waited outside the room. Cilla was alone in entering, so she could freely tell what she had been feeling, without being able to tell back to others. Although he was also difficult to start the beginning of the story.

"So what are you thinking right now?" ask the psychiatrist to Cilla, after he finished telling the story.

"I don't know. I'm not sure of my own feelings. I don't know what I'm feeling, everything still feels doubtful" Cilla said in her own heart.

The psychiatrist understood, with what was being felt by Cilla at this time. He certainly understood, otherwise everyone could easily tell his heart. Moreover, people like Cilla, who had experienced many things in his life, even though in an immature age in fact. Cilla grew up and became a parent prematurely.

"Then what do you think about the people who are now close to you and also support you?" ask the psychiatrist again, after a moment of silence.

"They're all good and dear to me. So too with my son. But I still doubt, whether it is because of My Son, or because of Me. Is my feeling selfish Doc?"

Cilla asked about how she was feeling at the moment. Feelings that want to be recognized without frills as the mother of Aji, the son of Gilang Aji Saka.

Hearing the words and questions from Cilla, the psychiatrist increasingly understood what Cilla really felt. The true feeling is natural, often also felt by everyone, who of course wants to be recognized personally and not because of something that follows. Like for example, who is his son, whose family, but the feelings that want to be recognized as a single figure. Sounds selfish but that's roughly what most people don't realize.

Sometimes people around us are not aware of such things. They don't care about the feelings of someone who can't accept himself, like Cilla who. Without Cilla realizing it, she could not accept her own feelings because of the above factors earlier. I have doubts about what others say about him.

Do any of you feel that way?

*****

Cilla walked out of the room with a relieved smile. Especially when he saw Aji who fell asleep in the lap of Mami Rossa.

"Sorry Mi. Waiting for a long time, to the point that Aji fell asleep so," Cilla said with an anxious face.

"It's okay Cilla. Aji was tired of playing with his marbles. She yawns, so Mami tells her to go to sleep," said Mami Rossa to calm Cilla who looks anxious. Maybe out of fear if Aji troubles mami Rossa.

"It's okay Cilla. Mami is still strong, too," prevent mami Rossa by shaking her head.

"Test weight you know Mi," said Cilla reminded.

"You don't think Mami is strong?" Mami Rossa lifted Aji's body to be comfortable while in her arms.

"Eh, it was heavy. And I look really old, hehehe..."

Mami Rossa finally hands Aji over to Cilla. "Sorry to Cilla. My mom is old!" mami said Rossa realized that she was no longer young, and also not as strong as before.

Cilla smiled in response to the words of Rossa's mother who was joking. "But Mami is still beautiful" said Cilla.

"Hehehe.. beautiful grandmothers dong become," said mami Rossa mocked herself.

Both of them smiled amusedly at their strange-sounding words. Wanting to comfort each other to fill the chat void due to Aji who is still asleep.

"Yuk. We'll see Dr. Hendrawan after this."

Mami Rossa invites Cilla to get out of the waiting room, at the psychiatric clinic on the second floor of the hospital they are attending.

"Oh yes Cilla. Wasn't prescribed anything at all with the doctor?" mami Rossa reminded Cilla.

"No Mi. Cilla's doctor said he didn't need medicine. Cilla just has to be able to master the feeling, when in a situation that Cilla has not been able to accept it independently. It just takes time, he said."

Cilla's answer made Mami Rossa conclude, if Cilla can accept Gilang, it's just that a short time can not yet set his heart.

"Thank God then. Mama was happy to hear that. That means you just need time and habits that make you feel confident."

Cilla said Mami Rossa. He felt that was exactly what was happening to him at this moment..

They arrived at the hospital parking lot. The sleeper driver immediately prepared and opened the door for his masters.

"We go straight home or where did Madam go?" ask the driver to mami Rossa.

"We're going to Hendrawan's doctor's clinic, sir!"

"Okay, ma'am," replied the driver obediently.

After they all got into the car, the driver immediately started the engine and slid out of the hospital parking area. They're headed to the clinic, where Hendrawan's doctor practices. Even though Rossa's mom didn't contact her first, to make an appointment.