Happiness Leads to Farewell
FINAL PATIENT DEGIL

After 2 weeks of work as usual I decided to go home by trying to hide the longing and pain that I felt after almost 2 bln more I felt the longing and pain that I felt by bers@maan . before I go home I try to come check@an the doctor who used to handle me

assalamualaikum... ! I said when I entered the room

waalaikumsalam uh bu yuman... Tumben once came here? answerable

the doctor can, I replied

iyah.. I was shocked at the arrival of mother let alone this night! answer doctor AISYAH

DOCTOR AISYAH is the doctor who used to treat me since I was diagnosed with cervical cancer that I told this.. he's the one I can work with to cover up the real reality of my illness well at first he didn't want to help you and didn't want to lie to my family but because of my insistence and out of pity with my final state he gave up and wanted to do it... Thank you DOCTOR for helping me.

don't talk like that dong doc! I answered with a small laugh

yum.... like her you are not okay...Your face is pale and like her you are holding back pain? ask him again as he quickly approached me which I indeed felt pain and my body was weak at this time

ah.. really not. I am just a little pain in my stomach.

then he told me to sit on the examination bed in the room...

let me just check... udh how long do you feel ?keep the medicine what do you eat routine? ask her again while quickly she called the nurse who is outside... Asri come cep@t here help me. call her to the nurse who is outside the room.

oh, Doc, can I help you? ask the nurse

please do I apply gel on my stomach that I'll check her? he said as he put on his hands the rubber gloves that are usually worn when doing the examination

well doc.., sorry mom can lift her shirt and I'm sorry I'm going to review this gel... he said as he took off the clothes and jacket I was wearing at the time and then he put the gel over my stomach to make it easier to do USG as usual... then the aisyah doctor approached and began the examination carefully and very carefully and also with a very serious facial look then shocked and surprised him when he looked at the monitor screen in front of us now.... then he looked at me full of sadness..

yum.... Why is it like this? have you never been in therapy and neglected to take her medication? ask her with a face full of anxiety and worry when seeing me

why is it doc...? ask me

oh so.. his development like that will it affect me doc.? my answer is calm and without guilt at all even though in my heart it is very afraid

you can still be this calm yum. This is very dangerous! is the end of this you experience something ? ask her again

oh.. no doc just been almost a month this always comes more pain and pain in the area here, I replied while showing the right abdominal area in the area of the uterus is located . jwb ku

what else do you feel ? ask her again

how often does that happen? and what kind of pain is it? so what happens to bleeding? then he meme leaned me with a question

ouch doc. the question one I so confused answer.

the pain is often..yach his pain is not as usual continue... if bleeding... I doubt answer it.. if I say there I am afraid if I am told to go to the hospital.... but if you say you will not be afraid to happen again when I am at home how I speak in my heart but I have to say let the doctor give you medicine for that... then I answered yes once doc. but not too much but it hurt doc.

then he took a deep breath and finished his rough finish then ended the ultrasound examination and told me to sit down and let the nurse clean the equipment and tell him to come out

after that then she looked at me with disappointment and worry at the same time

yuman.. You are so stubborn your age is not young anymore why you are still like this. I have often reminded you not to take your disease lightly.. yes, he can disappear and recover if you can maintain a healthy diet, or your lifestyle, eat regular medicine, check up often, and,... but you're a very wayward patient all you're breaking so it's the result.see.he talks at length in a very very disappointed tone to me because of the progression of my disease..... and he spoke while showing the results of the new USG done.

I can guess anyway maybe the development of cancer in my womb is getting faster and faster could be a big meme why doc? that's all that came out of my mouth.

cancer in your ovaries and cervix is developing very rapidly this will be very dangerous once and these cancer cells have spread to other parts of this must be removed immediately and very dangerous your life is yuman. he said. deg. I was shocked but I do not want to look weak in front of my doctor this . then what should I do but please don't tell me to stay in the hospital or have surgery.

Continue to want you what this must be done as soon as possible this action is very dangerous yourself you can lead to death yum... you are very stubborn, there is no bargaining tomorrow I refer you to the hospital... I don't want to rage all that I stick with my decision I'll survive my own way of dealing with all this doctors enough against me only I'm still strong to fight it don't need doctors worrying about me like that.

yuman this is very unlikely to be allowed again this must be acted on immediately I am afraid that something happens with you is very risky, he said again while continuing to persuade me. but I kept resisting and persevering with my decision and my commitment from the beginning with him enough he helped me keep this a secret and raw my disease progression alone I would try my best to deal with it all with my own way and leave it all to Allah SWT who controls my life I will follow the line of Destiny that has been written to me with a debate that is quite alot the end of the decision is made where AISYAH DOCTOR gave up on me with a record of keeping my healthy lifestyle and following but and eating drugs regularly and also should not stress me nor support it but yach we will see if I can or not at least I just agree with the doctor so I don't fall into the hospital and my space is limited that's all.. finally I was ready to go home with all the advice and advice from him that I had considered like my own brother yach me and doctor Aisyah was like a sister brother so he would never hesitate to scold me like that.