Loving Husband Interlude
45. Honesty Najwa 2

"Who loves you with all my heart is my deck, why is he defending it? What's my lack?" said Azam.

"You are nothing less than you, everything is already on you. Good looks, manners, friendly, sholeh and also you have everything. It's all on you, it's just that your heart never understands what someone's heart is. You know, my brother and um were so honored to have you come and ask me to come back. So patient is the heart of abah and umi when his son was divorced for that unreasonable reason. Just because your mama can't wait, I haven't had a child. I thought about it, but my brother and um were always patient. And still put forward my feelings that were still in love with you, but really now I no longer love you. Thank you you for still loving me, but you better switch your love to your wife Mala" said Najwa.

Azam was getting quieter, his face red from restraining anger. He does not accept Najwa rejecting him and continues to bring up the problem of Mala his wife.

"Wouldn't accepting destiny now be better than having to force me to remarry. You can be calm with your son in the future who will be your happiness and your wife" said Najwa again.

"No Najwa, I still love you. I want to marry you, I don't care about Mala with her pregnancy." Azam said with a vexed look.

"Mas, don't say that. When your wife gives you happiness, she carries your child. After all, you married her it was recorded in the religious affairs office. It is also legal in the eyes of the state, do not waste it mas, think clearly. You don't love me, you're obsessed with me" Najwa said.

"I really love you!" said Azam a little loudly.

The eyes around the people who were busy eating at the restaurant were partly looking towards Azam and Najwa. Najwa gave a rude snort, he was very embarrassed by Azam's attitude.

"Here you go, don't be extended anymore. I still refuse you to marry again" said Najwa.

He no longer respects Azam because of his selfishness. Najwa had always felt that Azam was selfish, but he did not care about him because he still loved him.

Azam was silent, he looked at Najwa who was looking down at his phone.

"I'm sorry deck, I was wrong. But, can I fix it and you come back to me?" ask Azam.

Najwa looked up, looking at Azam. The man did not understand his words either. The situation is not wrong and right, but Azam's position is still married and it is impossible to divorce him.

After all, Najwa did not want to take the married man. What happens if he is later called an actor, he does not want it. And what's damning is that he already loves Arsyil. Her ex-husband and will fight for her love for Arsyil.

They love each other, only to be hindered by a promise. So one has to give up, and it is when Najwa struggles to get her love for Arsyil.

"I want to go home, thank you for buying me a meal" said Najwa.

Azam was silent, he was not willing to have to part with Najwa at this time.

"Dec, think again. I still want to live with you" Azam said trying to ask Najwa.

"No mas, I'm sorry. My heart is no longer for you, so don't force me anymore" Najwa said.

"You love Arsyil? Is it that easy to fall in love with her?" ask Azam.

"I told you, God can turn the hearts of men back. Even if it's just for a little while, my heart can change. Allah, the All-Powerful, can no longer be spoken of. Although I know about the covenant, but a sacred promise of marriage cannot be toyed with. I fear that God will be angry if we play a marriage because of our desire and selfishness. What else does the person whom we consider to be the object of our covenant accept, but it turns out that destiny says otherwise" said Najwa, giving an understanding of the love he felt was not mere admiration.

But a taste that appeared so deeply on her husband Arsyil first. Maybe the real soul mate is Arsyil, not Azam anymore. And so was Azam, his soul mate was Nirmala.

"Believe me, someday you will understand what it means to love that comes because of destiny. The love that comes because of God is not to destroy a relationship that has been established, it is not love. But obsession and lust shetan mas, do not be fooled by the feeling of lustful love.

Azam was silent, I don't know what he was feeling right now. Heartache, disappointment and feeling not to be defeated by anyone. In fact Najwa's love turned away from him so quickly, for him it was a defeat he could not take for granted.

"I want to go home, Azam must contemplate everything. Pay attention to your pregnant wife, if you cannot love her yet. Just try to love him for the sake of the child he bears" Najwa said.

Azam was silent, he did not respond to Najwa's words. His mind was preoccupied with defeat in reclaiming Najwa's heart, he felt it was a humiliation for him. Yes, Azam felt it was an insult.

An Arsyil is able to lure Najwa quickly. Usually he is always alluring and always admired by many women in the office and his clients.

"Daddy, can't I give you a chance?" ask Azam again.

"Sorry, I can't. Thank you for still loving me, still wishing for me. But I'm so sorry, I can't go back to you. There are many reasons why I can't go back, the most important one is that I don't want to be selfish and I have to pursue my own happiness" Najwa said.

Throwing away the hope Azam wanted to get Najwa back, he was really disappointed and angry. But he could no longer force Najwa to give him a chance.

Najwa got up and looked at Azam, who was still sitting in his chair. He wanted to leave first, but Azam did not wake up.

"I went home first" said Najwa, deciding to go home alone.

"I'll drop decks, you go with me. So I have to take you home too" Azam said.

"No need, I'll go home in a taxi. You can go home by yourself, and maybe you want to reflect on what you have done" said Najwa.

"I've pondered it, I'll try to convince you again deck" Azam said.

Najwa was silent, he looked at Azam. But then he took a deep breath, it seems that Azam still did not accept the fact that he refused his request to marry again.

"Sorry, I'm going home by myself. Assamalu alaikum." said Najwa.

She left Azam, there was no point in talking at length with Azam and lingering if her ex-husband had not accepted her decision.

Najwa continued to step away from the restaurant, he came out and immediately stopped the taxi that happened to stop in front of the oriental restaurant.

When Azam chased Najwa out, it turned out that the woman had entered the taxi car that had moved away from the restaurant.

"Aaargh, shit!"

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