Loving My Husband's Son
Curse On Alex

PoV Nilam

Aldi doesn't trust me, so what's the problem? He always thought that I was a cheap woman, a treasure-mad woman, a criminal, a traitor with no heart. What if he thinks all that stuff is about me?

I was the one who caused him to misunderstand me and I kept making him feel that way. So why should I cry about all that?

I wiped my tears and cleaned my face because I didn't want to cry any longer. I want to live my life without any worries. I then wore casual clothes wearing white shorts and I didn't wear any makeup.

I grabbed my bag and stepped out of my room, then my phone suddenly started ringing again. So I answered that call.

"Hello Alex!" My speech.

"What are you doing? I'm in front of your house." Said Alex.

"Oh, I'm already on the road. Why don't you come in?" My toot.

"no need. I'll be waiting for you out here, so hurry up and meet me outside." Reply Alex.

"Well Alex, I get it. I'll meet you outside."

"Don't take too long." Said Alex.

"Yes, wait there. I'll see you." Reply me.

I disconnected that phone. But just as I was stepping, a voice made me stop my steps.

"Where are you going?"

I immediately stopped my steps and turned around when I saw Aldi looking at me.

"Why do you keep seeing Alex? How close is your relationship?"

Aldi stepped closer towards me and held my hand very tightly. But I immediately threw his hand out of my body. It's none of your business." Reply me.

"What?" He said with anger.

"Why are you here to take care of my life? Shouldn't you take care of your lover?" I yelled at him and even when I mentioned the word 'lover', I felt that I was hurting myself with a very sharp knife.

"I understand you're jealous." Her speech.

"Well!" I'm confused.

"You're jealous of Sarah. That's why you pushed him."

So he really believed that I had pushed Sarah. He believed what the cunning woman said instead of me. He believed that I was guilty of hurting others in such a way. But what else can I expect. It was all very clear from the beginning. I furiously pushed him away from me.

"So your distance from me, Aldi, and if you believe that I pushed Sarah, then it's up to you. Believe whatever you expect. I don't care." My speech.

"...."

"I betrayed your love and you found your love. So let's end it all here."

I cried and also laughed at myself in my heart because it was as if I was deciding on my beloved. We broke up a long time ago and there is no future between us.

"Stay standing there Nilam. I forbid you to meet with Alex." He spoke in an angry voice and sounded like a jealous husband or jealous lover. But the truth is, we're no longer in that type of relationship anymore.

"You have no authority to ban me Aldi. Who I meet or not can only be decided by your father. So take care of yourself, my dear son."

'My dear son!'

I can't believe what I'm really saying. It sounded as if I was truly acknowledging the harsh reality that I was already a mother to Aldi.

I finally made it out of the house and met Alex. We'll go shopping. However, it was because of my displeased feelings, so Alex took me to his house and offered me a drink and I told him what had happened between me and Aldi.

"So it's like that." Alex said as she listened to my story as if she didn't feel the pain I was feeling.

"Yes, Aldi hates me. He really believed that I pushed Sarah, but I didn't." My speech.

"You're the one who wants that to happen." Her speech.

It was as if he was telling me that I wanted to be hurt myself and that I deserved it. Butwhy?

"What did you say?" Ask him.

"Listen to me Nilam, I've been hearing your story for a few weeks and from what I've seen, it's all very clear that Aldi loves you very much and the pain he causes you is not enough with the pain you give him."

"....." I can't say anything.

"Every time you come here and you always complain about him, but you deserve it." Say Alex again.

"What?" I said increasingly confused.

"You are the one who always makes him misunderstand you by keeping him in the dark. So you can't expect him to treat you any other way." Said Alex.

"I just...."

"You're the one who's watering what you're planting to grow bigger. You were the one who planted the hatred and didn't believe him and now that's what you got."

Alex was right, I never tried to look at things from any other point of view, and now when I can see that, I just....

"You're acting like a stupid woman in a movie I'm watching. They hide their secrets from their love, assuming they want to protect them. But that same secret caused them damage. Don't you know that hiding that secret is something else than killing yourself." Said Alex.

"I...."

"You don't have anything you want to say about this. Of course Aldi hurt you, but you can't also offend him for that. Didn't you?" Say Alex again.

It's hard to hear the truth from your best friend. But Alex is right in every way and I can't deny that. Love is based on trust. But I betrayed Aldi not because I left him for his Papa. But because I don't trust him enough.

"I had no choice Alex. Mama's dead, I don't want to lose Alen either." My speech.

"What did you say?" Ask Alex.

"Tante and Om forced me to marry Mr. Erfandi. But someone also threatened my sister's life and my son's. I'm afraid Alex. I don't know where Alen is so I'm so scared." My speech.

"Why should you? You shouldn't be afraid. Believe in yourself and trust in your love." Reply Alex.

Believe in myself? I can only do it if the solution is very simple. I wish that all this was just a nightmare and I could wake up with Aldi by my side. Just like it was raining during the day and at night that I spent with Aldi that night when Leon might just start growing in my stomach. I really can't forget that day, the day where it rained so hard.

After spending all day at Alex's house, I drove home in a taxi. I went straight to Leon's room and he was already soundly asleep. As I looked towards her, she kept reminding me of her Papa figure.

"Sleep well, baby." I kissed my son's forehead.

I then walked out from inside her room, closing the door slowly so as not to wake her up. I was about to walk into my room, but then I looked towards Aldi's room next to mine. I admit that I was so curious and wanted to go inside. But then I didn't do it. Sarah may be asleep and Aldi is next to Sarah just like any other couple.

'You brought all this to yourself Nilam.'

Alex's words came back to my mind. Yes, I have to admit it. I'm the one who brought all this for myself. My marriage to Mr. Erfandi was not my choice. But I stayed away from Aldi because I was ashamed of myself and I kept all my secrets from him because I was afraid or maybe I was just a coward or maybe I was an idiot.

I pushed open the door of my room and closed it sadly. But what I didn't expect was to see Aldi in my room.

"Well.... Al... Aldi's..." I said nervously.

But it wasn't his presence that surprised me the most at the time. I lost much more surprised when I saw him holding a ring. It was the same ring she gave me when we were dating.

"I don't think that you've kept this all this time." Her speech.

"...."

"Why are you still keeping this with you? Do you have feelings for your own son and if you still have feelings for me, why did you marry my Papa? Why did you leave me?"

I don't know why, but at that time I wanted to tell Aldi all the truth. I wanted to tell him what I had been keeping in my heart.

"Speak Nilam Yuniarta Widuri..."

"......"

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