
Tonight it was raining, I looked out the window from inside the room as I lay down on the sofa. For some reason, the rain made me feel better, calmer, calmer, listen to the sound of water splashing longing for the earth and the wind that delivers the message very gently to the dust, so that the clouds are happy after that.
Trings... The sound of the incoming message notification, I opened my phone that I placed on top of a small drawer between the cashier and the sofa I currently occupy.
It was a message from hannah
"Daniel, I'm sorry I was emotional"
"For you why are you still in contact with other women? Am I not enough?"
"Or am I just not interesting and your game material?"
"I really like you Daniel, for some reason, when I'm near you I feel comfortable"
Up here, while still typing, I pressed the phone button on the hannah contact
"Hi's still mad?" I opened the conversation.
"Try to think for yourself" he answered, hearing the sound still crashing.
"i can't think anymore, my mind is gone, defeated by my current feelings, dag dig dug" I replied, trying to win him over.
"i took your heart a long time to make sure you weren't lying"
"in my heart, you should be able to feel without stealing" I began to worry, he was a psychopath.
"yes in your heart there is me, but I'm just one of them, right?" ask hannah.
"if you're honest, but you're the closest to my heart, you're the one who can beat my heart the most"
"your answer makes me unable to say know?"
"let her be happy" I replied as I stared at the ceiling of my room and thought about what I should answer next.
"You can still be a dreadful thing right now, I'm still mad at you" hannah in her spoiled tone as a child asked her father for a toy.
"Your anger is funny, your cheeks are red, and I know, now you're smiling" I think people will smile if others think they're smiling, that's how people behave, although I'm not a child of psychology, I'm a child of medicine.
"You can, that's why I like you who are able to melt all the atmosphere"
"Hmm, that's the kindness that God gave me to make you happy" I again like to make a woman comfortable with me, even though I don't actually want to do this.
"but I want to ask you, is it not enough for me? Do you have to care about other women as well?" Hannah asked "I'm jealous of Daniel" and continued with a sobbing and slow.
"I'm sorry if you're jealous, lack of jealousy yes, now you better calm yourself, wash your face, wash your feet, then you sleep, you rest and hopefully brighter tomorrow morning"
"Yes, you too" hannah was still in her potent tone.
"Yes, see you"
I turned off the phone
"Huftt" I woke up from the bed, put the phone on the drawer and lay on my bed. I wanted to end my relationship with the woman who is still close to me. But, can they accept that?, I better sleep and think about that later.
ringingg... ringingg.. ringinggg.. My phone rang, zayeen called, I looked towards the wall clock, still at 5 o'clock past 15 am blind.
"what's zay? still this morning?" I picked up the phone with a still weak voice and eyes closed and still hugging the bolster.
"have you heard the news yet?" zayeen asked.
"what's the news? the cave is still very sleepy, ajar aja ah, the cave wants to sleep" reply me and immediately turn off the phone.
my phone rang again and from the same person, I lifted it up
"ica killed herself last night in her room" zayeen immediately let out a slap after I picked up her phone.
"seriously lo zay? no kidding, right? it's still this blind morning" I was shocked and thought maybe Zayeen was joking.
"cave joking isn't funny that you know" replied zayeen. I thought, I just met him yesterday and had a long chat with him, and I never thought he would take this path.
"daniel? you're still there, right? you're not sleeping anymore, are you?" zayeen.
"yes, the cave is still here zay, you know where it's from?" ask me still can't believe it.
"from his close friends ica and from his ex" I thought immediately to the former words spoken by zayeen, what was the ex that made him pregnant?.
why did he kill himself, Zay?" I pretend I don't know.
"gua also did not know including his friends, his family, they were all shocked, now the police are again looking for a reason why he killed himself"
"does the police know why he killed himself?" I was thinking, would the body at the autopsy be heard if Ica was pregnant?.
"not yet his body was brought by the police to be examined further, also his family said, when it was found that ica's body was stiff niel, due to the amount of blood coming out of his veins, as well as his family, he cut his own veins on his right and left hands, his room was also filled with blood"
"let's take that kind of thought" I spoke to myself in a sad voice, not regretting not marrying her, but not accompanying her and giving her the best solution.
"do you know about ica niel?" ask zayeen.
"no zay, the cave just did not expect it, ica can think to do that, but every problem must have a solution" I lied, I do not know if honest, I know, must be how to explain it to zayeen, to everyone else, besides I don't know who did it yet.
"yes, the cave is also not unexpected.yaudah later after returning to college we visited his house if the body has been returned, hopefully this problem is resolved"
"aamiin" I said, "yes, I'll see you later".
"yes, I'll see you later". zayeen turned off the phone.
now what am I supposed to do? honestly or secret this thing that sooner or later will also be revealed, but better later it will be revealed by itself, besides I also still do not know who the man who played with ica was, do I have to find her? but for what? nothing to do with me, anyway ica is also gone. if it will be found and then for what?. the questions are tiring, I look back at the wall clock at 5 hours past 30 minutes, and then for what, leaving for college at 8, I'd better sleep again now, to heal after all this streak that's made me almost a little crazy.