Tahajjud
Confused By My Feelings..

O'Allah, it was my fault that Agus refused, an erratic feeling raging in the chest..

Nur, who saw me, asked me..

" hey, what's up??

I raised my face and looked at Nur's sister deeply, Am I guilty of rejecting a man?? Ask my sister Nur..

" Why can you do that to Brother??what is Agus talking about??

" He said he didn't love Safirah, but you know, if all this time, Sapphira loved him very much and even willingly fought with me, and accused me of not being, because he loves Agus..

but on the other hand Agus said he called Safira just because he had a hard time contacting me because I rarely received calls from him..

" Have he ever told Safira that he did not love Sapphira??? Ask Kak Nur who wants to know for sure..

" It was Agus, but Sapphira did not accept honesty from him..

" yes' already if that is so, it's wrong Safirah himself who told me not to believe.

* i who was confused by all this just kept quiet and sat down sweetly when Kak Nur said that all this was the fault of Safira who was expecting more from Agus..

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Kak Surahman's car was parked beside the road, and I was with Kak Nur went down and climbed the stairs while Kak Nur followed me.

I who was in front deliberately did not squeeze even knock on the door, let Kak Nur do it, sengaka I did not do because of fear Safira who opened the door..

After the door was knocked by Kak Nur, a person heard who opened the door..

kreeekk,,!!! The door was opened by someone, it turned out that the door was opened by Safira.

" From ngantarin Alfi met with Agus, kak nur said honestly to him..

" what??? He rounded his eyes as if he did not believe the word Kak Nur said..How can,,

I who heard his question to Nur's brother running through it, I do not want to bother with the business that is about Agus or Safirah.

Immediately I changed my clothes and lay on my mattress while playing my gaze, while occasionally I sharpened my ears to hear Nur's leg talk with Sapphira...

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10 Minutes later I will break the fast, I immediately take ablution at the beginning and wear my Mukenah, so that after breaking I will immediately perform magrib prayer..

It looks like all the occupants of the room, already in all corners of the room with their respective activities, while waiting for the time to open like myself..

Every now and then I lyric the existence of Sapphira sitting in the corner of the room with a look of uninspired face, in my heart asked, why is her face tangled?? Is it because sister Nur told her something about my meeting with Agus earlier?? Or not" Agus himself said it ???

I guessed" alone with the question I made myself..

If it is my guess, hopefully he does not blame me anymore, that I am the destroyer of his relationship with Si Agus...

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Allahuma Laaka sumtu waabiikaa'amantu waa'alaa rizkika aftartuum biraahmatika yaa'arhamaarrahhiimin...

Thank God, finally the time to break with satisfaction arrived, everyone also enjoyed the Iftar meal with joy because a day full of hunger and thirst..

Then I stood up first because the voice of the azan was already reverberating in the mosque near my residence..