The Estuary of Zalina Love
Chapter 1 Farewell

"When life feels fuzzy and I can't believe that I'm living without you and you're being taken away from me. I was told that the pain would subside in time."

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"And I'll think about it without tears but it's impossible because I have to have it here, he's my world my guiding star."

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Krieyingg ... Kriei ... Criating....

"Assalamu'alaikum, helloo."

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"Yes. With my own."

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"Innalilahi .. praanat .. plotakkk ... " The HP that was in the hand and the glass that was held fell to the floor, the body immediately limp to sit on the floor with tears sliding rapidly after hearing the sound from behind the phone. Still with a stupefied, tight chest, tears still pouring down, he said in his own confusion, "Ti - no way, it's impossible, I must have misheard, for sure ... sure is! yes, I'm sure he misheard, he got up while wiping his tears and wanted to make sure of himself. He headed for the room to prepare to leave, before entering someone's room from the outside door ran up to him.

"Australia .. hiiikksss ... Lin, are you okay? someone who approached him looked sobbing. His hands hang down wanting to hug someone in front of him but hesitating.

"Miss, what are you doing here? why crying?" ask Zalina. Yes, someone who received a phone call and got the shocking news was Zalina, a friend of Miss.

"Cin ... Kk-kamou ... H-have you heard?" ask Miss nervously.

"What news," said Zalina flat.

"M-mas .. m-mas Dewaa ... (Hindu silent for a moment, gulped, confused to continue his words), m_mas Dewa me ning gal Lin," said Miss crowded and tears.

"Oo that's yeah, someone just called me yesterday too, but you're calm I miss I'm sure I'm on prank, wong mas Dewa had just left his job healthy walafiat no complaints whatsoever," replied Zalina with a smile and holding both hands Miss the friend.

"But Lin-" Miss speech was cut by Zalina.

"Udah do not need to think, I will prove to the office of the Lord now I'm sure that now the Lord must be another briefing with the others, and I will be there now," zalina said as she walked into the room.

"This way I'm coming with Lin, I want to accompany you to meet the Lord," said Miss while following Zalina's steps into the room. Miss also hoped that the news she got from Nema was a mistake.

"You want to come with me?" asked Zalina while pointing Miss then pointed at herself, with a frown.

"Yeah" said Miss with a quick nod. "I don't want you to why there alone Lin," Inner Missed.

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"Splitting between the real and the mortal, in the veil of the shadow of love, implied prayer for you there, may it be quiet in eternal heaven."

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Zalina with all the flavors that she herself does not understand whether it is funny what causes it, whether cold what must be, what must be, not heeding the eyes that were staring at him began he got down from the car and immediately ran to make sure his lover was fine.

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"Sorry ma'am, let us take you to Mr. Akbar's place" said a person with his head bowed in a police uniform.

Zalina was like a bewitch following the young man's steps. When she stopped in a room, she seemed immediately aware of the mistake.

"It's not my husband's room I'm sorry I want my husband's room." Zalina said while turning around.

"Father is in the ma'am .. " said the young man softly and made Zalina stop stepping.

The miss who saw the confusion and fear on Zalina's face, immediately approached Zalina and touched Zalina's arm slowly.

" Zalina, let me accompany you inside" said Miss.

"But Missing, I want mastiin first if the God mas is all right," replied Zalina with her determination.

"Zalina, pleaseee!" longing touched Zalina's right shoulder with a cry.

Finally Miss managed to persuade Zalina to enter the room that read Health Unit.

When the door handle is turned by Miss, the door opens. All eyes were fixed on the 2 people who had just entered and all in the room immediately stood and bowed their heads. Zalina and Rindu approached the cage on which there was a person's body covered with white cloth, all the rigid body was covered with all white cloth.

Zalina was still confused, wanting to ask the meaning of this all but her mouth was afraid to speak. His tongue became muddy, wordless with trembling hands sticking out lifting the cloth covering one's face above the cage.

Tears that shed endlessly, cries without a sound, Zalina smothers her face, shakes her head in disbelief. continues to cry but does not make a sound. trying to scream but her mouth continues to be tight, she continues, his eyes were reddened with tears never stopping.

Not a single person dared to make a sound and draw near to Zalina. As if to make room for him. Longing who realized the destruction of Zalina's heart immediately embraced her. patting her gently on the back tried to give her strength even though it all meant nothing to Zalina at this time. Zalina whimpers crying in Miss's arms, her chest feels up and down her body shaking.

Missing can not do anything at this time, she just let the friend cry shed all the tightness in the chest of the friend.A little seconds later Miss realized the embrace of the friend weakened and the crying subsided, and the crying subsided, Missing to realize something was wrong, Zalina fainted in her arms.

"Russia ... Zalina, pleasee .. wake up Lin!, Zalina don't make me fear Lin, wake up Lin!" Sir please my friend sir, yelled Missing at the people who were in the room.

The unconscious zalina is handled by the health personnel in the room.

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"Without farewell the fallen foliage fell, leaving the twigs alone.one more now the leaves go away, narrating the twigs with deep wounds."

(by:Wesstly johannes)

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Zalina awoke from her stupor feeling dizzy in the head, trying to adjust the lighting that entered into her eye slit. He looked around and felt confused himself. As she remembered, she was in her husband's office and saw ... " Allah, Allah, it is all dreams" murmured Zalina.

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When Zalina was about to try to get out of her sleep and was about to sit down, someone opened the door of her room.

"Thank God you're conscious, Nduk?" Nema is worried about you, baby, kissing Zalina's forehead and caressing Zalina's cheek" said Nema, Zalina's grandmother.

"Conscious? worried?" inward Zalina, Nema- "Zalina who wants to ask seems silent trying to focus on listening to the sound of people reading the holy verse of the Quran together, the voice is not one person, but there are many people who read it. "Ddduuuaarrrrr!!!, Zalina's chest thundered strongly, tears fell again, her mouth closed, sobbing, but she would not let out her voice.

"Zalina, baby .. You're patient son. There's Nema with you, baby" said Nema, hugging the grandchild.

"Nema, mas Dewa, mas Dewa .. could not have left me Nema, he loves me, he already promised the same I will not make me sad, he said, so he can't possibly leave me, right Nema, can he?" zalina asked in Nema's arms with tears.

"Darling all the living will surely go away, all the living will return to him. God doesn't leave you son, it's in your heart, it's just that the body isn't with us" Nema said, trying to calm Zalina down. Come out, baby, strengthen yourself. The gods will be sad to see you like this, baby.

Instantly Zalina let go of her embrace towards Nema, she wiped away her tears trying to show some constancy within her. Zalina saw her appearance that already uses black robe and also black hijab. And I'm more convinced that everything he's hearing right now isn't a dream. Somehow the belief that collapsed his soul made the soul empty, whether able to somehow not his feet stepped out of the room.

Zalina came down from her bed stepping towards the door of her room. When she opened the door, Nema called out to her. " Nduk the strong dear, the patient," said Nema while putting the prayer beads on Zalina's palm.

Zalina was silent with a flat face.Open the handle of the door to walk out of her room. Zalina walked down the steps one by one, many pairs of eyes watching Zalina with her puffy eyes and pale face. Zalina walked slowly with her unfastened eyes staring at the coffin covered in a red and white cloth and given a strand of flowers located in the middle of the room.

Zalina sat beside the chest and then hugged the chest with one hand. Although the chest could not be fully embraced, he did not care even though he could only attach his hand to the top of the box with a bagbih in his diary. Without a sound or a sob, but her tears just shed, I don't know what Zalina was thinking. His gaze was empty, he pressed his cheek against the coffin, neither a shout, nor a sob, to which there were tears that continued to flow without a sound.

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"Seeing straight through time, Bringing the heart to the ground. Remembering the story with you. Make yourself vulnerable. Water drops wet the cheeks. With endless wounds. It's so hard to tear hearts. The promise of thousands of disbelievers. Who else am I complaining to? who else am I taking refuge in? even if you don't want to. Be a place to go home. You made me lose control. Getting into my mind nonstop. Until I finally love to die. Until good-bye I can't believe.

(by: Vega Rama Putri Utami)

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Zalina hugged the newly installed nissan. With a body that rests on wet ground. Just finished the funeral, with a military ceremony procession because the husband is a state servant. Zalina was still stuck with silence, she did not heed the steps of the people who left the grave, nor did she care about the call of the people who brought her home. Zalina simply fell silent without a sound by tightly hugging the headstone in front of her.

"Lin, go home yuk! remember Kanaya Lin, she needs you right now, too" Miss said as she gently touched Zalina's shoulder.

"Deg, K-kaanaya .. " said Zalina lirih, as if jolted at the name of kanaya.

"Yes Zalina, let's go home! kanaya's nanny called me and said that if Kanaya cried, the ASIP stock in her refrigerator ran out Lin," said Miss while helping Zalina stand up.

With a limp step swept by Miss, Zalina left the grave. Zalina remembered the kanaya, the baby she was with her beloved husband.test ... tears were back dripping, realized the cute beautiful child was now no father, no longer father, no longer, the beautiful child was abandoned before being able to call the father, the beautiful child named Kanaya Anaka Dewanda has become an orphan. Zalina's tears are increasingly dripping, Zalina erases the rough cheeks.

Miss who sat beside Zalina clasped Zalina's fingers, Zalina suddenly looked at Rindu. "Smile and be firm, for Kanaya's sake" said Miss.

Zalina just looked away out the window, Suddenly what she felt now was like a dream, she remembered how early she met her deceased husband, yes, because now that figure is gone forever.