THORNS IN MARRIAGE
CHAPTER 48 - I'M SUDDENLY CRAZY

Maghrib prayer is the moment I am most looking forward to. Besides being able to complain and prostrate for mercy to the Lord of the Universe, I also ask to be given the best way to straighten out this mistake.

Genta who was enthusiastic to join the conversation before coming Jordan, now looks more quiet. I know why. He must also be worried and anxious with the hardness of my heart.

I was invited by Mama Tiur (Jonathan asked me to call Bu Tiur as Mama, not Mom) to sit in the family room.

The album of childhood photos of the two handsome men adorned its contents.

"This is Jonathan, this is Jordan! Look, this is Jordan when he was two months old and Jonathan has his eighth birthday! They are so cute from childhood!"

I'm nodding. Somewhat forgot the problem of seeing pictures of themselves both in toddlerhood.

My smile slowly expands.

"Mama, Mas Jo as a child, his face looks a bit like Chinese?" askaku.

"Hehehe... Australia-Taiwan, Lian!"

"Ohh..."

"The original Australian Jordan!"

Hm... Quickly. Apparently, both are different mothers. Like me and Nadia, Intan. And I also remember Jordan as a child having trouble communicating because of his limited Indonesian vocabulary. Because his father was a foreign citizen apparently. But.., could-can be sick exposed to magic Mama Bianca. Hm?

"Papa Jonathan was Papi Jordan's best friend from a young age. They are students who exchange students and live in Indonesia. Because of falling in love with our country, they chose to settle down further college majored in double with Indonesian matkul to make life easier here."

I seriously listened to Mama Tiur tell a story, not realizing that there was Mas Jonathan sitting next to me while staring fixedly at my face.

"Husss, there! Why the hell join the gossip with us?" mama Tiur's tease shocked me because Mas Jo was next to me.

"Masa' own son expelled, Ma! Hehe..."

I smiled shyly. But immediately gasped when catching wet Jordan was looking at me seriously from the front door of his room.

"Sir Saleh,... "

I nodded respectfully at the middle-aged man who had just walked in and gave Jordan the car keys.

"Miss Liana! How are you?"

"Good, Sir! Your own father how are you?" ask me with a big smile.

"Alhamdulillah. Excuse me, Non! Let's..."

"Yes, Sir! Please!"

"Jordan! Where you going?"

"Get out, Mi! Jordan's girlfriend seems to be busy. Usually my chat is reciprocated, but this time it turns out to be ignored!"

I feel claustrophobic again.

Jordan was angry and disappointed in me. Even he blatantly admitted the word 'PACAR' to the person he usually chatted with. And maybe that person is ME.

I swallowed the saliva, lowered my head while squeezing a finger. Nervous and anxious that Jordan was really mad at me.

"Jordan! Went where? Can I go to Alfamidi?"

I subconsciously asked Jordan a question. Wanted to come along and give him an explanation of all this.

I have really gone crazy!!!

I feel so claustrophobic, so unwell.

"Can you, Mas?" I asked Mas Jordan.

"What do you want to buy Alfamidi for?" ask Jo gently. But his head nodded and as usual, he smiled sweetly.

I got up from my seat and rushed over to Jordan whose face became bright.

"Alfamidi huh?" ask and I say, "Yes!"

"Mama...., Liana came with Jordan for a while? Okay, Ma?"

"Go, but don't be long. Come back, don't go through Isha! Madam Sum and Cici will soon prepare dinner."

"Yes, Ma!"

"Yes, Mi!"

Jordan and I answered together. It made me fall silent while Jordan laughed.

"Sister! I'm coming!" The bell that came out of the toilet after urinating followed me.

"Genta, I won't be long. Just want to buy a bandage. Looks like.somewhat," I said slowly asking for his understanding.

If my relationship with Mas Jonathan continues, at least our friendship is not broken and does not continue to be friendly again. Just wanted to apologize to Jordan, that was my goal.

I'm guilty. Not being open and honest about my closeness to Jonathan. God is opening my disgrace now. They were different brothers of my father and now I'm afraid of being restless.

Jordan opened the door to his mercedes benz metallic red.

Jordan...! Excuse me...

Genta drove me to the car.

"Sister, don't wear it for long!" he said he looked dirty.

"Yes, Genta! Your order I'll buy!" I answered trying to calm him down. Looks like the kid has a bad feeling.

Justjust right...

Just a few meters away the car came out of the Jordan family mansion, all of a sudden...

Wuss

"Jordan, slow down!"

"Let us die together! It was much better than seeing you marry my brother!!!"

Jordan!!! Jordan, please sorry Jordan!

"Sorry, Jordan! I let you down, Jordan! But not this!!!"

"This is not what I want!!!"

"Jordan stop the car, Jordan! Jordan!!! Jordan, please...!!! Please forgive and apologize from you! I'm willing to bow down on you, Jordan! Hik... The torso!!!"

Czechiiite

Bugs. Tiiit...

Jordan braked his expensive vehicle. He also punched the dashboard until his car horn rang making a noise on the edge of a deserted residential street.

"Hik hik hik..."

We sobbed crying.

Blaming fate and unflinching destiny. While I can only hiccup with palms covering the face.

"Why should Gege, Liana? Why???" yelled Jordan again with wet eyes.

I can't answer. I didn't know they were brothers and sisters either.

"Other men, I can relax! I'm willing to fight to get your love to death though. But competing with my sister, it can't be Liana! I can't be mean to my Gege! Hik hik hicks..."

"I'm sorry... Pardon me! Sorry, Jordan!"

"You know? I want to heal to be with you! I'm struggling to get your heart that I think is still hurting because of your ex-husband! But it turns out, you chose Gege without telling me! You're cruel, Liana!"

"It's not so, Jordan! Everything is so fast! Even I feel like this is a dream! Jonathan chose me to be his life partner! Hik hik hicks..."

"Why don't you firmly reject it? Whyyy??? Is it because he's the boss that I don't have a job? I'm the cripple who sits in a wheelchair, only making ugly paintings that even lizards are reluctant to see! Hik hik... Lianas! Lianna!!! How you are to me! It's tega!"

"Jordan, sorry... Hik hiks, sorry..."

I wept. Down and down and down holding his legs, Jordan grabbed my shoulder to sit on the car seat beside him.

"I don't know, Jordan! I don't know how to! L'm... I love you, but Mas Jonathan is a good man who has always protected me from the bad guys including Irsyad! I didn't mean to hurt you nor to lie to Mas Jonathan. Why don't you tell me he's your brother when I say I work at CV JAVA FOOD HARVEST. You must have known since then, didn't you? But you also covered it up and lied to me!"

"I thought that after three months of your work, I could come with a mighty manly while carrying the flower of love. I thought it would finally be beautiful, Liana! I don't think my brother would be interested in you. I think we're gonna be a happy couple!"

We looked at each other, long ago. With tears of regret for the sake of regret at the fate of love that ended cruelly.

"It's crazy!!! It's crazy!!! O God, if this is a dream, wake me up from this long sleep!!!"

Jordan hit his right head. Makes me cry hysterically while pulling her hand.

"Don't be like this, Jordan!!! Hik hik hiks, Jordan huaaahik hik... Forgive me, please forgive me all my mistakes!"

"If I knew this, I told you straight away that I am also one of the biggest shareholders in CV JAVA FOOD HARVEST, Liana! Hik... Let you know that I deserve your respect too. Not just my brother!"

I hit my head against the iron door of the car. Wishing I'd died right then and there because my fatal mistake left Jordan hurt. Because I felt like I was suddenly going crazy.

Oh, my God, my God! I've been ignoring Genta's advice all along. I did not heed his words so as not to continue to do negligence which is increasingly becoming a mistake. This turned out to be the payoff. Well me let alone Jordan, we were both disappointed. And I don't know what else if Mas Jonathan finds out that I've been in a relationship with him and his sister.

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