
Adel gasped in shock and immediately put Zafran back into the bed.
"N-Nisa ... you .. You are not going to enter the door first?" adel asked nervously.
Nisa approached with a sour face.
"Why did Zafran want anything? Want to buy Zafran? You realize that you can't get pregnant! That's a sign Mbak also will not be able to breastfeed any way. And once again, Zafran is Nisa Mbak's son ! Nisa's more entitled to breastfeed Zafran!"
Adel was stunned to hear the curse of Nisa, all this time he did not think that Nisa considers only irinya the most entitled to Zafran. In the past he said he would allow Adel to take care of Zafran.
Zafran started to whine, it seemed like he was troubled by Nisa's shrill voice.
Nisa quickly grabbed Zafran into her carriage. "Nisa hope Mbak will no longer cross the line Mbak. If you really want to breastfeed Zafran, Mbak can take stock of frozen breast milk in the freezer right? But not once Mbak love PD Mbak for Zafran. Nisa is not sincere, Ma'am. If Zafran later forgets the smell of his biological mother because of how? Can I take on the responsibility of making Zafran want again?"
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There was a throbbing pain in Adel's heart, he was silent a thousand languages. I want to feel defensive, but what power Nisa seems to be getting angry at this time.
"Nisa hopes this is the first and last time Mbak did that to Zafran. If it repeats twice, Nisa will be sure to keep Zafran away from Mbak and not ngizinin again Mbak helped care for Zafran."
Nisa whimpers and immediately takes Zafran out of Adel's room.
Adel's heart melos, he wanted to deny that what Nisa said was just the cause of his anger, and not a coincidence. But why it hurts so much when someone brings up his shortcomings as a woman.
Adel was still in his place, his tears were gathering to form a puddle in the corner of his eye. His eyes slowly stared at his flat stomach, stroking the soft belly that would never be able to feel a small kick inside.
"Why should I be a servant, O God?" hissing with tears that began to wet the cheeks.
Adel put his body on the mattress, squeezing his stomach strong even though it hurt in the former operation. Adel did not care, the pain was not even more painful than the pain in his heart when again the insults slid for him.
"Why God? Why?" adel screams on a pillow that can dampen his cries. No one should know that he is actually still this fragile.
Adel just wants people to know his warm and cheerful self, he does not want to show his fragile side to anyone even to the closest people like Zidan.
Adel cried for a long time, until he unconsciously fell asleep. In his sleep Adel dreamed as if he met Bu Sita who was wearing all-white clothes was standing waiting for himys under a shady tree. His face was radiant like a teenager who had just known the love of monkeys.
"Mama?" call Adel in his dream.
Bu Sita nodded and waved her hand for Adel to get closer to her.
After getting close, Bu Sita grabbed Adel's hand and held it tightly.
"Adel my daughter-in-law, thank you for following my last request to continue praying for Mama every day. Now look, Mama can be like this because of your services." Bu Sita twisted her body revealing a white robe and a clean white hijab in her wear.
Adel smiled happily. "Alhamdulillah, Mama is now calmer huh, Ma? Adel's happy Mama now biss like this. Come to Adel's dream often, Ma. Adel miss Mama, all miss Mama."
"Actually, Mama came to your dream this time because there was something that Mama wanted to say."
Adel's forehead frowned, but he complied when Bu Sita invited him to sit under the shade of the tree that was where Bu Sita was waiting for him. I don't know what the name of the tree is, but being near it feels so cool and pleasant.
"Ma, what would you like to tell Adel?" ask Adel afterwards.
Bu sita looked at Adel fixed, his eyes that had been sparkling now began to look foggy. And finally that point of water began to descend slowly wetting his cheeks.
"Actually, Mama who has made you can no longer have children. Because Mama is also your uterus finally forced to be lifted. Mama uprooted all of your fetal candidates, and ended up with a disease that attacked you. Until finally your womb becomes a victim. Mama Khilaf, Mama please forgive Mama." Ms. Sita sobbed loudly until her shoulders shook.
Again Adel was stunned, Bu Sita's statement just now really hit her heart. It turns out that all that is expected is the destiny of the almighty. In fact, it is a mere human engineering because it is blind to the treasures of the world.
Adel's chest tightened, as if a large stone was piercing his chest at this moment. Along with the strengthening of Bu Sita's cry, Adel's cry also echoed.
"I'm sorry Mama, I'm sorry. Although this crime Mama does not deserve to be forgiven but Mama please forgive Mama, so that your steps can be lighter in nature there. Mama please help Mama, Adel." Ms. Sita is still as excited.
Sometimes he tried to reach back Adel's hand which is now hidden between the knees so as not to pull Bu Sita.
Adel was still crying, he still did not think that all was her father-in-law. Though since long ago Ms. Sita was the one who wanted her to get pregnant soon, but always just miscarried. And Adel just understood that this is the cause of everything. Unfortunately, Ms. Sita grew richer and richer after she married Zidan and conceived her first fetal candidate who died at the age of three months.
"Why would Mama?" isak Adel lirih's.
Bu Sita wiped her tears which made her face wet almost entirely.
"Im sorry Mama, Mama was so blinded by the treasures of the world, until all the ways of Mama Lakainin including subverting your future fetus and Zidan which is also the blood of Mama's own flesh. Forgive Mama, forgive your mama, Adel."
Bu Sita went to prostrate at Adel's feet, he wanted to get sorry from his daughter-in-law who he had zolimi. But Adel quickly held his shoulder and brought Bu Sita's body back up.
"Don't, Ma. Fellow humans are forbidden to prostrate to other humans."
Bu Sita stared fixedly at Adel's face, Adel's hands slowly stretched out to wipe the tears on Bu Sita's cheeks that were still wet.
"Adel, Mama's time is running out. Again, please forgive Mama. Mama just wants to calm down while waiting for the perfect Mama's death. Please Mama, Adel. You're Mama's only hope."
Adel's heart was filled to see the seriousness of Bu Sita's heart, slowly the old body seemed to fade and increasingly unclear in view.
"Adel?" call Bu Sita once more before her spirit completely disappears from the front.
Adel took a deep breath. "Yes, Ma. God willing Adel has forgiven Mama." Adel whispered after the spirit of Bu Sita was no longer visible in front of his eyes.
Adel closed his eyes, I could hear a voice like thanking around the place where Bu Sita disappeared.