Daddy'S Love
part. 71
Happy Reading's...
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"Mommy sofia.." I stopped. I almost forgot my promise.
Promise to close my conversation with a woman.the mother of the man who is currently in front of me.
Fortunately, their boisterous voices behind us interrupted our togetherness, breaking longing threads that had long been tangled.
I glanced at the three people behind me, aunty kania, my brother and also, him. Who else if not the little guy who always chattered at all times, and who always commented on whatever my circumstances. Rain, our adorable little son.
I looked down embarrassed to be found in the arms of the man he claimed to be his father, and I could be sure after this my little rain would have me all out.
"Are you guys done?" just as I thought, I increasingly did not have the courage to raise my face.
I am ashamed of myself, my son and the people around me. I want to feel like I disappeared to dispel the embarrassment that is becoming more and more because of the look in their eyes that mocked me. oh shit! I cursed in my heart.
"What are you talking about Rain? we didn't do anything!" seruku defended myself.of course, at this time my face looks like boiled shrimp.I looked at the man next to me who a moment ago moved now just smiling knots sucks.
"Well, you're not doing anything just hugging and it's so embarrassing." look at how annoying this kid is. and they seem to support what's in the rain.
I had no face. I wanted to turn around and run, but what happened? when I turned around instead of I could leave but I hit the chest of the field.
Kai took me in his arms again, and it further strengthened rain's notion that we were lying.
I saw the unhappiness on rain's face but maybe it was just the bad taste.
"Well rain, let them do whatever they want.You want to go for a walk, right?" finally, aldi mediated.
"okay, let's go" exclaimed rain girang.
then aunty kania and brother aldi took rain away so we could talk.
And now it's just me and Kai. I don't know what to talk about. I don't know how to start, but honestly there's relief in my heart.
Kai took me to sit on the garden chair that they occupied a while ago.
"There's something I want to talk about." she pulled my hand slowly, but I could already guess what she wanted to talk about.
I followed her movements and sat down on the side garden chair.I looked down embarrassed.and I could feel that she was looking at me right now.
a gust of wind accompanied the togetherness this morning.The clear sky was as bright as our mood.
Do not ask the state of my heart, which is certain that at this time I am happy.
Kai took my hand and I felt warm as he kissed the back of my hand.
"I know how hard it is to build this relationship, but I just want you to believe it and not doubt it." I still lowered my head to hear his words.
"I want you to know that I'm not your sister.We're not as conceived." she said without hesitation.
Finally the words I have been waiting for since 3 years ago I heard this time, but I am not at all surprised because I already know everything.
"I know kai." I said, but I'm sure he could hear clearly.
"I know everything" I said again with my head raised so I could see his face.
"Since when?" cut it quickly. I saw his face flushed red. Maybe he was angry or disappointed. I hung him for years despite knowing what our status was like.
"Zahrah!" his voice was high.he stood behind me. Maybe to regulate his emotions.
"I'm sorry." I thought, at least that's all I could find. I don't know what else to say.
"I'm sorry I had to." I hesitated to say it.
"forced because of what or who?" I was cornered.he intimidated me with his gaze.
"She.." I was still hesitant. "your mother." I finally said it. I'm honestly also tired.but again because of the promise or maybe the threat.
"Mommy? is he threatening you?" I saw his eyes demanding an explanation.
"since when did you find out what he said".
I think it's time I opened it all up. Let me be selfish. But Rain, I've suffered enough.
"since three years ago."
"What?" I'm sure kai is very angry right now. his face is reddened. Oh, my god, strengthen me.
"Since our last meeting, I've been thinking about our relationship.
If indeed we have a blood relationship, I will accept it. I consider it a destiny that must be lived. I think we can still raise rain together, even without the bond of marriage. at least he has complete affection."
"But..." I hesitated to continue.
"What?" his eye sign said for me to continue my story.
The first story where I had to be selfish and be unfair to me and my son was at least fair to one person. "Then your mother came."
"Did he ask you to leave?"
I agreed to the question, because it was his request.
"She told me all about you. about our relationship."
"Your mother begged me to leave you. She said she loved you so much and didn't want to be away from you. At first I refused for rain's sake.but she threatened me to kill her and make my father bear it all." my tears melted but I felt a little free from the burdens that had been stifling.
"Sorry kai, I don't want anyone to get hurt in our relationship" I said.
Kai hugged me tightly to make me comfortable.may I want it now and renege on my promise.but there is one heart that hurt.
"That's why I always refuse to hear everyone's explanations.Let me be stubborn and selfish.I just fortify myself to stay strong. I glorify myself fighting against my heart the longer I miss you."
"And now it's Rain who's the reason to open it all up. At least you'll protect us. won't you?" finally door.
I saw Kai smiling bitterly as I felt.
"Why do you bear everything yourself zahra. I feel so useless.sorry."
Our little togetherness taught us that the real relationship is to speak from the heart of the heart, not to be silent and to leave, and to think it is the best that actually makes us hurt.
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Ufft.. sorry late up yes gangs, because the real world is busy again.
It may be a bit crisp because it is made without concept and in a hurry and will be revised later if you have time.
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