For A Husband Who Doesn't Love Me
32. Surrender

Seeing Maira's shoulders tremble, Hidayat moved them closer. He was made to feel guilty because he knew his wife was crying.

"Mai, about last night..."

"Maira surrender now, Bang..." Maira's words cut out Hidayat's.

Hidayat was stunned, his face instantly turned tense.

"Maira finally found this situation, where the desire Abang in the beginning we married is the word surrender from Maira, right? Today Maira went to college to take care of the leave, then Maira will go home, and tell our families that we can't be together..." Firmly Maira with tears streaming down her cheeks.

Hidayat pulled Maira's arm and turned his wife's face to his. He stared intently at Maira's eyes which also challenged his gaze.

"Tell me, Mai, what Maira said just now is really from Maira's heart..." Challenge Hidayat.

Maira's speechless. Her tears meant she didn't want that.

"Maira, replied Brother...!" Ask Hidayat again in a clear tone.

"Yes... Yes, from Maira's heart, Maira wants to separate from Abang..." Maira replied loudly, but still her tears were falling more and more to her cheeks.

Hidayat. Instantly his grip on Maira's arm slipped off. His reddened eyes dropped a warm clear grain. He felt his heart torn apart, unbearably poignant.

For a moment Maira glanced at his arm, which was originally numb, suddenly feeling nothing.

"Don't you ever think, how many hearts did you hurt with this?" Maira asked in a loud voice and sounded raucous withstanding the same pain.

Hidayat remained silent. He could not deny, his mother, mother-in-law, his wife, also Kirana was a victim of his selfishness.

"Please listen to Brother first, Maira... Brother please..." Pinta Hidayat with a bitter voice.

"Is there anything else you should explain after Maira saw with Maira's own eyes that she hugged him?" Maira asked without breathing a single bit because of the annoyance that had arisen in her chest.

"Now just answer Maira's question, does Abang love her, and she also loves Brother?"

Hidayat was increasingly pressed by Maira's question, and there was not a single word he could get out of his mouth. The answer is, he once loved Kirana, although he did not know when the love was finally lost. But still, whatever the answer was, it would only hurt Maira's feelings.

"Can't you answer it?" Maira's question softened and looked desperate.

"Didn't Maira say Maira would forgive you?" Tanya Hidayat. Avoiding any of Maira's questions was useless as well.

Maira smiled wryly. He felt trapped by Hidayat's appeal yesterday. Maira nodded, "yes... It's been... Maira's sorry, brother..."

After saying so, Maira was about to move out of the kitchen.

"Didn't Maira bang Ajiz think it was wrong to directly intimidate Zahra without first finding out the truth? Didn't Maira say that it's not good to decide something in an emotional state? Also, didn't Maira say that everything we see isn't necessarily the same as our thinking?"

Maira's steps stopped. He sobbed after hearing Hidayat's words.

"Maira also said to Brother, if there's nothing for Maira to worry about anymore if Abang's heart has fallen completely to Maira, right? Why would Maira give up now? Maira want to see our mother's heart both hurt? Also, Maira wants to break the hearts of both of us who just grew like this bud?" Ask Hidayat again powerless to resist his helplessness to persuade Maira's heart so hard because it was hurt by his actions.

"Then, what is the reason Maira deserves to hear from Brother's explanation, huh? Obviously Maira saw Abang cuddling with her last night..." Maira protest sniffled.

"He hugged Brother, Maira..." Denying Hidayat.

"When you rest for prayer Isya, someone called you using his phone number..." Answer Hidayat.

"Keep, with concern you're heading straight to the hospital to see him?" Cut Maira without realizing the jealousy that made her act like that.

The breath of Hidayat. He felt the heat at his body temperature, but he could stand it as well. "For God's sake, Mai, it's not like that... At first I had no intention of coming..."

"Then how can you get to the hospital, if you have no intention to come? Brother pity, is that it?" Ketus Maira increasingly did not accept the reasons thrown by her husband.

"Abang was pitying, but Brother no longer wanted him to misunderstand my brother's pity for him... He ended it all with her, but she refused... What can you do?" Said Hidayat made a self-defense.

Maira's speechless. He stared fixedly at Hidayat's face as if implying his disappointment was not over.

"Maira's... Please, just calm down..." Pinta Hidayat held Maira's hand, but Maira brushed him off. Not because of hate, but Hidayat's body temperature that gets hotter makes him surprised.

Hidayat's tears were coming back. I don't know why he felt tired and weak.

"For God's sake, Mai, last night Brother came over worrying about Maira..." Said Hidayat gasping, then his legs that felt withered no longer held his body. He collapsed, and it was fortunate that Maira quickly held back with all her strength.

"Instead..." Peekot Maira's. His nose drooped weakly on his lap. Hidayat's high body temperature caused Maira to panic and cry.

Although she was in a state of disappointment, but still she could not stop worrying about her husband.

***

Arya looked at the concerned face of Kirana who was looking down miserably at the corner of the house. After hearing the whispers of neighbors who came to visit Kirana's father's residence, he understood why Kirana was so. The despicable girl in his eyes, full of puzzles and question marks.

During this time it turns out that Kirana struggled alone, not by an instant way of utilizing her. He was disappointed, why he was not like Hidayat who was heartened towards Kirana. Why did he just leave without asking why and what?

"Oh my God, what can I do for him right now?" Arya muttered feeling helpless looking at Kirana's tears falling unceasingly.

"Sister..." Ayu ran into her arms. The little girl's eyes had also been swollen from crying all night, while Kirana had no intention of replying to Ayu's embrace.

Arya could not bear it, then approached their position.

"You're the sister of this beautiful actress, aren't you?" Goda Arya tried to persuade and comfort Ayu.

"Surely sister Arya, huh?" Ayu asked while forcing her smile.

"Yes... Do you often see Arya's sister also in tivi?" Arya asked again while stroking Ayu's head.

Ayu nodded. "It's great to meet Arya in person..."

"Sister Arya was also very happy to meet Ayu..." Aryan. The girl smiled, but her tears were still dripping, unable to lie that she was so injured at the moment.

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