LOVE OR DEAD
CHAPTER 40: WITHOUT LOVE

I bathed and wore clothes from Kanon, a midi dress in ash – plain ash. The bruising and the Kawaki cigarette butt are clearly visible. I just stared at my body sadly without knowing when it would all end.

A housekeeper brought a tray full of food into the room with Kawaki.

“Sit down and eat” Kawaki's orders.

I sat down in front of him and slowly ate all the food on the table.

“You are greedy once, are you very hungry?” sindir Kawaki who watched me eat.

I don't care about his babble and keep chewing my food.

Arrived – arrived his hand pointed to my head, I immediately reflex dodged.

“Guild your head to my hand” her orders.

With fear I did as she asked, like Kanon at least I had to survive beside her.

I was shocked to find him stroking my head gently, the hand that always grabbed my hair doing anything else beyond belief. Was he taking the wrong medication?.

“You want to go to Hokkaido with me?” ask her while stopping stroking my hair.

“Is this a trap?” I returned with my eyes probing.

“Don't you miss your family, I'll take you to see them” he said without answering my question.

“You're sure, why are you so good at it?” I just can't believe it.

“Why, you don't want to? You choose to stay in the ward and forget your family?” the question seemed to imply something.

“What do you plan to do exactly?” I was more and more afraid of his good offer.

“Nothing, I'm just being kind to you” she replied with a sly smile.

“I don't believe you, you must be planning something. Don't bother my parents”.

“I won't hurt them, I just need their daughter. Now I have it. Get ready tonight we go there.to Hokkaido” he said with a smile.

By night…

Kawaki takes me on a black off road car with Enju and Jiro to Hokkaido. Every now and then Jiro steals – stare at me through the middle rearview mirror. I honestly wanted to vent my anger at him, but I didn't get to do it.

We enter Narita airport, Kawaki prepares all documents on behalf of Yoshiko Kobayashi taken from my suitcase. The four of us flew for about 1.5 hours until arriving at Chitose airport, Hokkaido.

I didn't expect Kawaki to take me to Hiroshi's family hotel, where my engagement failed at the time. Along the way to the room, I reminisced about the bad events.

Kawaki roomed with me, in front of our room Enju and Jiro stayed over.

A king-size bed with white sheets seemed to laugh at my fate. Kawaki hugged me from behind and whispered “You remember the incident that night, the night of the engagement that had failed. Right in this room, my ex-fiancee stabbed me. Very interesting, tonight we reminisce about celebrating”.

I froze hearing it, my tears dripping without me noticing. My heart is full of wounds and dark memories, Hiroshi forgive me.

Kawaki pushed me to the bed, I was lying down and being crushed by him. Looking at my tears, his flat face seemed to turn angry.

“I hate those hypocritical tears of yours, I'm sick of seeing it” he said then sat on my stomach.

“PLAKKKK!!” a slap landed on my face.

My silence made her get up from my body and go to the bathroom, the sound of the shower coming from behind the door. The breng$ek was in the shower, I was thinking of sneaking out of the room. I got out and took the elevator to the lobby, but I was unlucky to meet Ryota.

“Let me go, I want to go out for fresh air” I replied origin while releasing his hand.

“All CCTV is monitoring you, do not make a fuss by trying to escape from our VVIP” guests he said while coding two security to drag me up the elevator.

“Release me...please! Please... Anyone please help me!” I shouted in the middle of the hotel, but there were some guests who then looked at me.

“Sorry, he is suffering from severe depression. He is with his family at the top, we are trying to return him to his family” Ryota told several guests who witnessed me being dragged away by force.

“It was a lie... they kidnapped me, please believe me!!!” I shouted in rebellion.

No one believed, we went back to the room. Kawaki was sitting in a chair by the window facing the door, he was wearing only a towel wrapped around his waist to his knees. So relaxed while drinking wine staring at me in force enter.

“I'm sorry, I brought back your toys. He made it to the rams in our hotel lobby” Ryota said.

“What's wrong, thank you for driving him to me. Let me teach him a lesson, I'm sorry I have troubled you” Kawaki responded.

I hold Ryota's leg as I'm clear, “I beg you, help me get away from him”.

But Ryota's sister just smiled cynically, then brushed my hand off her leg. The door was closed, I banged – gedornya but no one helped me.

“Hai...come here, what are you begging to another man for. Only I can help you live” Kawaki said haughtily.

I turned to him with a sharp gaze, “Basar breng$ek, I live not for you. What exactly is the reason you did all this to me! Do you like me? Until you don't want to lose me?”.

“You're starting to lose your mind, you think you're so important to me? Don't babble, use your brain. Pel@cur like you a lot I got in Japan, I told you you were just my toy” elaknya.

“Cih..you're like a child wanting a toy, if your mother never bought you a toy. Very poor your luck” my sindirku.

“PYARRRRR!!!” the sound of a glass hitting the door that led to me.

At least I could dodge, the look in his eyes changed as if he was ready to kill me. He took the phone handle and looked at me, “Come”.

“I don't want” I replied.

He came up to me and caught me quickly, wrapped the phone cord around my neck.

“Le...pask..aku” said I limped by holding down the phone cable that snared my neck.

“You know what about my mother, your trash mouth needs to be taught a lesson” he said with an angry look.

I almost lost my breath, when he found out I was getting weaker he finally let me go. I drooped on the floor while managing my nearly exhausted breath.

“UHUKKK..

“Just you like me, why don't you kill me now. It's because you like me too deeply, obsessing over me to do this. Show me that this is wrong and only my argument is to kill me now” my challenge.

“You are indeed – really want to die in my hands yes, even you tried to manipulate me to kill you. You're desperate to live, but torturing you is more exciting than watching yourself die, ''” she replied, then took a cigarette and lit it.

For a moment he stared out the window, standing smokingly on my back.

“My mother was also desperate, so she chose to die rather than live with me.

I was stunned to hear that, I just found out that her mother left her and chose to end her life. The sadistic and brutal man before me was just a child without affection. Should I love him in spite of all the torture he has done to me?.

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