Scratches of the Injured Heart
just realized

ARYA POV.

I don't know what happened to myself, how I could forget my obligations. Today, the day I give my wife the freedom to do anything out there, after our tragedy.

A possessive and childish attitude will make the relationship will be easily destroyed, the feeling of not fasting makes us take the wrong step. Today I felt it, making a misunderstanding that ended in tragic chaos.

It's my fault, I shouldn't have ignored my wife so miserably. Though he did nothing, only interacting with old or former friends!

Somehow my selfish side appeared out of control, seeing him laughing loosely with another man I had already ignited the flames of jealousy.

He tried to explain, but I chose not to care. Not only was that a mistake I made, I even asked my sister-in-law these two days to fill the dishes while at the dinner table. Ignoring it, choosing to avoid it and steadfastly choosing to split the bed, I chose to sleep on the sofa to avoid it.

When I realized my mistake, I was a little late. The woman I love so much has started to drift away because of this childish attitude of mine. Today I can understand, it turns out that the smile that he always showed us was all fake. In his heart he had so many wounds. Standing up as if he was okay with lying to his own feelings, he was very fragile with a bloody wound.

My heart ached as she said 'I know, I'm just a widow you picked up by being your wife' Her words really made the heart feel like it stopped beating. He's not the trash I pick up, he's my most precious treasure! how could he think like that?

I never thought like that for Salva, I never looked down on him. Because he was me, I was him, we were created with the same ribs.

Since that day my wife is no longer the same as before, no longer spoiled, no more sweet smiles that always welcome my return if I feel tired at work. That smile was completely gone from his life.

"Dec? It's been two weeks, why are you still angry?"

As of now, we are at the dinner table together, mother and father are not at home, so is my sister-in-law. We ate in silence, nobody started talking, or rather didn't want to.

"I'm not angry" said Salva, that's all he answered every time I asked.

"Then why do you always inhabit mas?"

"Because I'm self-aware, where am I really!" That's all, I don't want to continue this conversation anymore.

Every day he does all his duties as usual, welcomes me home, prepares the necessities, also serves me. But he did it quietly without spirit.

"Mas tau, this is too much. But please, don't be like this? You can punish me as much, but don't stay like this."

Now that I know being silent is painful, now that you're doing it to me, retaliating for what I did. Inner arya screamed painfully seeing the wife ignoring her.

"It's noon, it could be late for work." Shifting Salva's current skill talk, opening me up twisting a puffed-up eyeball.

"Turn to divert the conversation ... Honey, comeon. Is it necessary to bow at your feet?" trying to hold my wife's hand, no rejection. "Do you want to avenge what you did?"

"There is nothing to reply to, I am I, and you are you, there is no need to bow down, for I am not God!"

"No! How can you talk like that? Is it that easy to separate? you and I are still us, never talk like that!" My emotions are really stirred up right now, how could he so quickly separate such a deep meaning.

"Is there still hope? It felt so tiring to hope, finally still disappointment I got. I don't want to fall in the same hole anymore."

"Salva! You're so stubborn! Well, if this is what makes you happy, do whatever you want to do!"

I took her bag in Salva's hand rough, not even saying goodbye to my wife like the usual morning. My chest really felt tight, there was no way I was instantly weak with this kind of ordeal, I was a priest it was my duty to maintain this relationship, but not for now, I did not want to remain silent.

It turns out that being unregarded and unwanted is really painful. But all this time it was my wife, feeling unwanted, feeling at her lowest because of the past. But he survives with his fake smile, only to make his loved ones happy. The fate of my poor wife.

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