5 Years of Marriage Without Love
Billi

POV Billi

I didn't expect to like Dina, Blah's best friend. Ever since he defended me, that feeling came up to me. It is undeniable that she looks beautiful in my eyes.

I realized, with my style like this, that maybe he likes me. My friends just mocked me as a sissy or a hunchback. Far away with her who looks graceful and pindar. I approached Barah so that I could always be close to him. Ah she just thinks I'm a friend, can't she see me as a man?

These High School days are my good times, ah Dina you're the one who made my life spirit appear again. Since childhood my mother thought of me as a daughter. I hate it because of my Mom, every day I'm made fun of by my own friends. Oh God please change my style.

High School period feels fast I went through, I parted with Dina because she managed to enter college at the University of Indonesia medical faculty, while I took the faculty of business at the University of Gajah Mada. I hope Papah's only hope to continue his business later, only Papah I care about me. Mamah lived in the top villa because Mamah had hallucinations about my dead sister, I never felt the affection of a Mamah.

Although I was different from the college and a very long distance, but I always tried to get together with Dina and Bilah when Blah contacted me to meet. It was nice when I met him. I wanted to be honest with my feelings, but I was scared when I was honest he just stayed away from me.

I secretly joined a taekwondo martial club, my goal is so I can be more maco like Bilah said. Said Dina likes a guy who's a maco. For 4 years I trained until I got a black belt. I also go to the gym to get my muscles formed.

Back then my High School body was thin but now my body is muscular.

Billi with her cool style

When I went to the mall from a distance, I saw Dina. He was not alone but with a man, they joined hands. It hurts me to see Dina holding hands. I look in the mirror, I don't deserve Dina. My body is muscular but my style is still gurgling.

After I investigated it turned out that the man was Dina's fiancee, dashed my hope. If he's a good man, then I'm back off. It turns out that Dina's fiancee is a dick, she has other women and even has frequent body intercourse. I won't let Dina fall into the hands of this son of a bitch. I secretly followed Dina's fiancee, took pictures of them while they were having sex and I sent them to Dina's number using the prime number I bought, she said, I also sent the location where the fiancee was doing the hot scene. Dina came and saw it all, she cried her hands trembling as she recorded her fiance while having sex with his woman. I wanted to hug her right then and there, but I just kept quiet from a distance.

I was happy, Dina broke off her engagement. I'll try to get close to him again. My father raised me as CEO, my time was seized with my work. Now we have our own profession, I as CEO, Dina as general practitioner, and Bilah as a wife.

When Bilah has problems with his household, I also help Bilah. Because indirectly it was Bar who helped me so much that I changed, and he was the one who made me close to Dina. Bilah is a good friend, she likes to help her best friend, I know the nature of a woman who is sincere when in a relationship, be it love or friendship. We three friends who will not be separated, especially with Dina, it seems I do not want to be far from him.

One time Bilah asked me for help, becoming Dina's fake fiancee, because Dina was terrorized by her former fiance. I am happy and smile with joy. Oh God I don't want to be her fake fiance, I want her to be my real fiance even I want her to be my wife.

But Bilah has a condition that if I want to be Dina's fake fiancee, that is, my style must be changed to a full-fledged man.

I have to fight myself, 1 week I train. I made 1 room full of mirrors, the room is shaped like a dancing room, which will show the movement of the dancer. I set my walking style with a firm position, chest puffed forward, I change my speaking style to be like a normal man in general. For 7 days I did it all even I didn't work for my change of style. I did it all for Dina.

When I pretended to be her fiance, I grabbed her hand, I kissed her head. God wants me to feel like I'm making it happen. I don't know what she felt when I spontaneously did that in front of her ex-fiancee.

One day my best friend Bilah disappeared. Dina was so panicked, she cried because she thought Blah was leaving because of her. Dina was very sad, all this time they were always together. There's Blah, there's Dina. Like a sister who complements each other. He was very frustrated and told me that he wanted to continue his studies at Jogja Gajah Mada University. The college where I went to college. My feeling when he said that, my heart felt unable to not see him. I couldn't say anything because he thought I was just a friend no more, that was my mind but the next day he sent me a short message that he had left to continue his education.

Ah Dina, do you know how much I love you. I changed that for you, I want to keep myself steady with you.

1 Week there was no news from Dina or Bilah but suddenly my phone rang, Bilah called me and he asked me to go to Bandung to take care of Dina. Barah told about the gossip and Dina yesterday made a press conference to defend Barah. I rarely watch tv or youtube, even this 1 week I was busy looking for Dina.

"Din, wait for me in Bandung. I will take care of you and I will tell you my heart, that I love you so much" Billi murmured as she drove her car to Bandung.

I am not afraid to express my love, what I fear is the rejection of your love.

Flash Back off

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Dina is still waiting for Billi to wake up, he always checks Billi's blood pressure, he can breathe a sigh of relief that Billi's blood pressure is normal. Just waiting for Billi's consciousness to return. Dina looked at Billi with sadness, Billi was willing to sacrifice her life to save her.

"I think you like Bilah, it turns out that I don't clap one hand" Dina murmured inwardly.

Dedded dedd

There was a short message that went to Dina's number.

Blade \= ["Din, eat yuk from yesterday you have not eaten anything. Don't let Billi realize his loe is even sick, I wait in front of the ICU door well, prospective in-laws loe also just came here. Later I will recognize Loe, that loe would-be wife Billi."]

Dina \= ["Don't crazy loe Bil, I still haven't had any communication with Billi. He said he likes me. Don't talk about it."]

Blade \= ["Hahaha, very sensi Loe anyway. Come out quickly, we'll eat."]

Dina \= ["Yes I'm out."]

Seriate

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