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140. Discussions
Zahra then went to her father to talk about her husband's feelings, who was uncomfortable listening to rumors from around them. To disturb the husband.
"Dear, please, pity Mr. Rashid!" zahra asked her father for help.
"Is it true that your husband wants to have his own cottage?" kiai Hamid asked his daughter.
"Ber Abi, Mas Rashid has dreamed of it for a long time. He was forced to bury the dream, feeling he had to help Abi here!" zahra tried to explain the situation of her husband.
Kyai Hamid seemed to think hard, because it was not a light thing. There will be many consequences that must be prepared, when deciding to release Rashid from the cottage.
"Tell your husband, to wait for your brother's arrival from Egypt. So that someone will take his place in this cottage!" kyai Hamid said in a soft voice. Feeling sad, because he just found out that his daughter-in-law also has other ideals, in addition to helping herself take care of her boarding school at this time.
"Zahra call your husband now to Abi! Aby wants to talk to him!" Zahra resigned from her father's presence and sought her husband.
"Mas was asked by Abi to face!" zahra said as soon as she found the husband who was playing with Zaki.
"What's wrong? Is Aby sick?" rasyid asked with concern.
Zahra nodded and smiled at her husband.
"No, just meet Abi. He just wants to talk to you!" Zahra then took Zaki from her husband's arms.
With question marks in his heart, Rashid finally met Kyai Hamid in his private room.
"Abi Abi's Assalamualaikum Rashid!" rasyid said while knocking on the door.
"Girlwindsalam! Come in, Rashid, it's unlocked!" after getting permission from his father-in-law Rashid then went into a room that was so fragrant.
"Zahra said Abi wanted to talk to me?" Rashid sat down in front of his father-in-law in a solemn manner
"Excuse Abi, who has been insensitive to your feelings all this time!" Kyai Hamid started their conversation.
"What does Abi mean?" asked Rashid nervously. Rashid's feelings began to unsettle.
"Zahra said to Abi, he said you have aspirations to have your own cottage, is that true?" got her in-laws while staring in the shade into Rashid's eyes which now lowered her face.
"I'm sorry Rashid Abi, if these ideals become a burden to Aby!" rasyid said with a trembling voice.
"I'm sorry Rashid Abi, that Rashid has made Aby sad." Rashid's voice began to tremble because it held a rumble in his chest that also felt the same sadness as his father-in-law.
"His brother Zahra said he would return from Egypt, but Abi was not convinced. Whether he wants to continue this cottage or not. Because he said he was determined to live there with his wife and children. They even changed their citizenship there!" zahra's father's voice is now stuck in his throat.
"You wait for his brother Zahra to return from Egypt. If you really want to leave this cottage. Abi will ask whether he can replace Abi, if Abi is no longer in this world!" kiai Hamid said sadly.
"Right now you are the only one in Abi's mind, to continue the leadership milestones in this hut, continuing the milestones of struggle in broadcasting the religion of God on this earth!" kyai Hamid said as he broke into tears.
Rashid's heart was currently completely heartbroken not knowing what else to do. "But Abi I feel unhappy, when people tell me that I only live hitchhiking in the Abi family, as if I were a prankster in this family!" Rashid with a trembling voice restrained the sadness in his heart.
"Listen to aby, son! As long as Abi was your father-in-law, Aby never felt that you were hitching a ride to us. All this time, you've been working and feeding your family with your own energy. Abi and Umi never helped you. How can you say you guys hitchhiked to us? We are the ones who should thank you, in between your time, you still take your time to look after and manage this cottage!" kiai Hamid's voice grew quieter, sadness in his heart.
"Don't listen to what they're saying, what matters is that we know! In fighting in the way of God, we will indeed encounter many obstacles and obstacles! We must endure it all!" said Kiai Hamid, trying to advise his daughter-in-law.
"Trust Abi and Umi, we have never considered you a benefactor in our family. We love you as much as our own children and do not consider you as anyone else!" kiai Hamid patted Rashid on the shoulder who was now crying in sadness.
"Force Rashid, Abi, if the ideals of the Rayid, have darkened the eyes of Rashid, so that it becomes selfish and does not think about the problem thoroughly!" rasyid said.
"If you really want to have your own cottage, it's okay. Aby will help and help you. Incidentally, in Banten there is a private Aby land, maybe you can start to build the construction of your cottage there!" Rashid cried for a moment and hugged his father-in-law.
"No Abi, I don't want any of that. God willing I can fight with my own energy to build the dream boarding house I want." Rashid was silent for a moment.
"It just so happened that the land of my parents was never touched and also abandoned in Banten. I plan to build my cottage there, Aby!" rashid explained his life plan to Kyai Hamid.
Kiai Hamid looks mangosteen, proud of his son-in-law who always wants to fight and does not want to trouble anyone.
"We are waiting for the arrival of his brother Zahra from Egypt and we will see. What will we decide later!" Kiai Hamud then allowed Rashid to return to his private residence.
Once home, Rashid hugged his wife and cried there.
" Abi loves me so much as her own son. But somehow, I wanted to leave him for my own personal dream. I'm so selfish!" rasyid said as she sobbed in her tears.
"You're not selfish. It is very natural for someone to have their own dreams and it is also very natural that Mas is trying to realize it. Don't blame yourself. Zahra was sure, Abi also understood Mas's current feelings!" said Zahra trying to give encouragement to her husband who is currently weak heart and mind, because it feels sad has not succeeded in realizing his dream so far.