Cracks of Love
Unplanned Pregnancy

I saw the door open, and my husband came home today. I tried to smile when I looked at him but he replied to me with a flat look. I just took a breath, I don't know what was on his mind. Maybe he was bored with me. Or he gets comfort from the actor. But don't all couples complement each other? cover up the shortcomings of the advantages he had? Why is he looking for my flaws.

Today I intend to tell you that I am pregnant with her fourth child. I kept serving my husband, I made warm tea for him, I prepared water for him to take a bath after that I prepared food for my husband. He drank my warm tea, then cleaned his body and then he ate my cooking. 

After I finished eating I approached her, I said bismillah in my heart.

"Dad.." I called him and I picked up a long flat object with a 2-striped mark. He glanced at my face and picked up the 2nd line flat object I gave him.

"Can I get pregnant? Why get pregnant!" My husband screamed and looked at me with anger.

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Like being struck by this lightning in my heart, she spoke of why I could get pregnant. 

“What did you say? why get pregnant? You touched me, you made me pregnant but you asked me why I got pregnant?” my voice began to rise looking at him with a sharp look.

“ Anyway I don't want to know the same child in loe content. Don't ask me to keep loe while pregnant, don't look for me when you get dizzy or vomit. I don't want to know the boy, I'm in bodo if you get pregnant again.” He spoke as if this child was not his.

“What? You don't want to know about this kid? This is our son, God gave us this child. You are my husband, the father of the child I bear. Why are you acting like that. That old woman brainwashed you, huh? how outrageous are you, throwing away the family we built from scratch, throwing away our children, for the sake of that woman?" I screamed with anger and emotion.

“Do not bring others. The kid's adding to my spending, you're the one who took care of the kid. If you do not want to take care of it, it is easy to fall. Beres 'kan!” It was cruel that he said that.

"Yes he is indeed someone else who destroyed our household and brainwashed you. You're crazy to tell me to drop this, this is your son! you want to kill this kid huh!" my chest started to rumble.

"Bodo very, I don't want to be dizzy. Loe aja who takes care of the child in the stomach loe. Go home instead of comfortable, even horrified the babbling loe again." My new husband got home, he left the house in his black car. He slammed the door when he closed it.

Imagine, I'm pregnant with her child, but she doesn't care about this child. It's his flesh blood. My eyes were reddened with anger and my chest was hot. He's really been brainwashed. 

I hold out for my children, if anyone else knows about my current condition, that person will say, 'fool you want to stay, it's been hurt like this. You deserve to be happier than you are divorced.'

Imagine I have 3 children and now I am pregnant with a fourth child. How's my next life going? talk easy but run hard. I can't stand this situation either, my household is getting more and more destroyed. I'm looking for my faults. Am I not beautiful? standing in front of the mirror, I asked myself. But my face is good enough to look at, I am still young. Married 23 years old, I'm 31 years old now. I am much younger than the actor, the age of the actor 41 years is far beyond 10 years. If someone else divorced because of the problem of not having children, I gave birth to 3 children for my husband with a normal process. How painful it is during childbirth, my spine is like being pulled, my waist is burning.

When my son was born, my husband held my hand in the process of giving birth. Now that I'm pregnant with my fourth child, who will hold my hand? O Lord, what sins have I committed in my past. I am sorry, rabb.

My son Caca and Adam peeked inside the room, they were scared out of the room because of the sound from my husband. Caca's eyes have dewy, ah this heartache seeing my children seeing our quarrel. I slowly moved my legs towards their room, I slowly opened the door handle, I smiled at them. They ran towards me and hugged me very tightly. Caca, 5, was forced to understand the condition of her parents.

“Mamah..” said Caca with tears in my arms. Adam hugged me, a 3-year-old boy with clear eyes piercing my heart. They're innocent, they're kids, why they're all experiencing this.

“Caca, Adam, the beautiful and handsome son of Mamah. Don't cry well.” I wiped their tears.

“Devil father Mamah, father always angry with Mamah, evil father!” Caca was crying.

“It's okay, Mom is fine. Don't cry dong later Mamah follow nangis.” I tried to calm Caca down, she didn't stop crying. I carried Adam, Caca was still crying hugging my feet.

“Caca darling, don't cry well. This is your brother Adam so ask for a sling. Later your sister who is in the stomach of Mamah so heavy because of the sling brother Adam,” Caca immediately wipe his tears.

“Adam, down. Kasian Mamah, in the belly of Mamah there is a baby dede," Caca persuaded his sister Adam.

“Nda want, want to be carried by Mamah,” reject Adam with his slurred babble.

“Kakak has candy, would you like not? If you want to go down first, then Brother kasih.”

I smiled, missing a moment of my troubles. Seeing these smiles of my children makes my heart peaceful. Ah innocent of their faces, funny of their behavior. May God take care of my children until they grow up.

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It has been 4 months of my pregnancy, although my husband still comes home and sleeps with me but every time in his bed his body turns back on me. He did not want to see me, any more when he saw my growing belly. I always look at his back when he's asleep, why are you changing so drastically.

If I had known you were like this, I wouldn't have accepted your proposal. I don't know why I fell in love with you, love at first sight, my first love. I was wrong to fall in love.

I woke up when I heard the sound of the azan. Then I immediately took ablution water, I had intended to wake my husband but I paused. I better pray dawn first after that I wake my husband up for dawn prayers.

“Dad...Dad..wake up, it's dawn. Salad Dad,” I wiggled her body to get her up.

“What the hell, still sleepy. No need to wake up I make prayers,” he said.

“Mandatory tools Dad, I will never stay in prayer,” I said slowly.

“Whispering hell loe, it's up to me. Praying cake, not cake. That's my business in the afterlife. If you can't keep quiet I chopped loe.”'s mouth He even cursed me.

My husband, who was diligent in prayer, has now left the prayer. I do not believe this, since college he was very diligent in prayer and even always congregated. Since the same actor my husband has dared to leave the prayer. What demons entered my husband's body to the extent that the prayers were abandoned.

I left my husband in the room, he continued his sleep. I don't want to wake up or argue with him anymore. I'm afraid my kids are hearing my debate. I opened my children's room, Cia was awake and I told her to pray at dawn and I also woke Caca up.

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