Rainbow for Aqila
Wobbly

The breeze blew, flying the veil strands of three girls who were walking back to the reception, it was impolite to come but the wobble was unclear

"Are you, huh?" Aqila asked Renata next to her, not knowing how long she had been asleep

"Udah"

"How many minutes of sleep did Ren sleep?"

"About thirty minutes"

"For a long time, my parents won't?"

"No, they were just in the front seat, the seat we were sitting in was already occupied by people" Aqila nodded in understanding, it was only natural that others were occupied, this was also because they were leaving just like that

"Diva doesn't take photos?" Aqila asked as some families began to climb up the leash to take photos with the bride and groom

"No"

"Why did you manage to move on, right?" Ask Aqila

"That's not Aqila's problem, but there's no way you can break through so many people in front just to take a photo" said Diva pointed to the human crowd that so many plus the santri who certainly became their opportunity to eat good food, when else?, when else?, Aqila immediately thought about how much food was cooked for this event?

"Aqila there yuk" pointed Renata at the buffet table at the end

"Lo ate, right?"

"Udah, but the pudding I haven't had time to taste, it looks really good"

"Kayak people crave aja lo" even though he said like, Aqila still follow Renata's footsteps

"Lo not hungry Qil?, eat gih, I'm afraid you faint" said Renata attentively take rice and side dishes for his best friend

"A lot of santriya" said Aqila saw santri passing by

"Here there are MTs with MA, so many, there are also those who choose to go to school but do not participate in formal learning like a sister first" explained Diva while pulling a chair for her to sit down, said, buffet men with women are separated so as not to come into contact with the non-makhram

"Liat deh, above the guarantee, Fadila's ustadzah same Ustadz Naufal took the photo, they looked very harmonious yes" said one of the students behind them who entered Aqila's hearing

"But what you heard is that Ustadz Naufal has already beaten a woman, he said his junior was on campus" answered one of them

"But..."

"If you eat it not while ghibah ukhti, not full and increase sin" Sontak just heard the voice of Ustadzah Diva, the santriwati bowed down not expecting one of the teachers here, he said, they think all teachers are sitting in the front seat

"Afwan ustadzah"

While Aqila, tightening the grip on the spoon she was holding, she who was indeed not tasteful was more and more heartless to hear their words

"Don't listen to them, if we hear people we won't be able to move forward"

Aqila nodded and smiled

"Thank you brother"

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"Aren't you jealous?" Suddenly on the way home, Papa Arya asked Aqila who had been silent

"Jealous why?" Aqila asked Papa Arya

"Liat Naufal's photos are the same"

"What do you think?"

"Why are you back, Papa? Papa nanya you loh? Is jealousy not that?"

"Aqila's been jealous of your little look with Reyna, so it's normal"

Both of his parents were immediately silent which made Aqila feel guilty, but his intention convinced them that he was not jealous but it seemed that the delivery sentence was wrong, fortunately Renata who was sitting next to him was sleeping, maybe because of fatigue so you don't hear anything

"Sorry Ma, Pa, Aqila didn't mean to say that"

"Why apologize, son? We're the ones who were wrong here as parents, we're the ones who should be sorry"

"We who should have realized from the beginning, if the way to educate us is wrong, we feel that we failed to be good parents for you, son, sorry" Aqila fell silent, forgetting the past is not easy, he had to try harder, but he promised himself not to keep it as a grudge that would become a dangerous liver disease

"Aqila also apologizes, which has passed, which is important that life is now better, Aqila hopes that in the future she can live happily even though childhood memories can not come back again"

"Our time with you is getting limited now, son, let alone you will get married soon, we hope you often visit home" said Papa Arya, sounding sad from her voice

"Surely" Aqila replied confidently

"If Aqila's age is still up to that day" he continued to make his parents look at him with a look of dislike

"Don't say that Aqila, mommy doesn't like her horror"

"Sorry, Aqila just talked about seeing the current condition, let alone Papa as Mama horrified what the doctor said yesterday? Brain cancer that if it is already spread will be difficult to treat, drugs only prevent cancer cells getting smaller, and in fact the cancer is no one who fully recovered" replied Aqila sad

"Doctors are not gods who determine a person's life, as long as we have the will to heal, nothing is impossible"

"Either why now Aqila like resigned Ma, Pa, Aqila feel useless, just a burden, just repot others. Aqila thinks that Aqila is healing for whom?"

"Don't talk like that Aqila!, you ask who is healed for? Think of your family, your brother, Naufal who will be your life companion, your best friend Renata and other friends who love you" Papa Arya obviously did not like to hear Aqila's words like that

While, Aqila only sighed, her family and her other siblings, were indeed as important as what Aqila was to them?, Naufal suddenly encompassed the indecision of her heart, and Aqila glanced at Renata who was leaning on her shoulder, friends who are always with him from High School, Renata also has a lot of friends, for some reason Aqila feels now like useless to anyone

"Aqila's just confused about how to live?" Aqila suddenly cried covering her face with both of her palms, the illness completely regulating her emotions. Aqila was really lost but she had no idea what she was missing

Maybe true said people, when heading to marriage there must be problems that come, such as Aqila who felt suddenly Naufal was inappropriate for himself and so, his head was filled with heavy thoughts aka overthingking

"Pacify yourself, son, do not feel alone here, remember that your life is not only for yourself but also useful for others" explained Mama Intan, who is the best person in the world, he wanted to move to the back and channel a hug to his daughter

"If the dream you want to achieve is impossible, pursue another dream not just because one dream makes you fail"

Suddenly Naufal's sentence the other day fell on Aqila's ear, how could he think like this now when it had gone so far, even a dream that seemed impossible that he could achieve when his family began to care. But why was his heart wobbly now about all those dreams?