Rainbow for Aqila
Syok

"Papa's selfish"

"Why selfish?"

"Papa didn't want Aqila to leave, was it because just papa's remorse for Aqila was so deep? because papa failed to be the hero his daughter was proud of?"

"Is that the reason you have?" aqila asked looking at the ceiling of her room

"No!" papa Arya quickly shook her head, responding to all her daughter's questions

"Papa like this because of papa's affection for Aqila, papa loved Aqila from a long time ago, but papa admitted the way papa was wrong to Aqila"

"Papa gave more attention to Reyna because papa felt he had almost lost her until papa always used to spoil her, papa always saw Aqila as an independent girl, kind and strong, he said, therefore papa always put Reyna first, even told Aqila to give up, but papa did not know if it turns out that papa's daughter bears a big burden"

"So, for all, my affection, my remorse, and my duty as a parent to educate my daughter, papa wants to be selfish this time saying that Aqila must be healed and must not say the word 'go' again" Papa Arya's voice was almost inaudible because it held tightness in his chest

"But you don't know?, if Aqila is too tired now, tired for everything" said Aqila with red eyes, her tears like hard to come out. It was not difficult because he did not feel moved, but it was difficult because he had cried too often, as if this pain was not comparable to the physical and heart injuries all this time

"Papa's shoulders are still strong to help Aqila bear the fatigue, let's tell the same story" even though with great tears Papa Arya did not let go of the hand of his daughter

"Aqila is confused how to tell kayak how, can Aqila ask for a hug papa aja?" aqila's simple request was instantly fulfilled by Papa Arya, even Papa Arya felt that this was the first time Aqila wanted something, huh no! This was not the first time Aqila wanted something, but it was like the first time she had directly fulfilled her daughter's request without saying the promises tomorrow but had not been fulfilled

"Aqila is not only tired of being treated, Aqila is also tired of pain when chemotherapy continues, Aqila is tired of headaches that suddenly come, Aqila is also tired, it turns out that it is natural that many people who choose injection die because they cannot stand it, Aqila is tired of seeing blood nosebleeds continue, Aqila is tired for everything"

"Aqila wanted to escape from all the pain, so papa don't be selfish about not letting Aqila go, because maybe it's best for Aqila"

"Aqila believed that God must always give the best to his servant"

"If Aqila turns out to be gone, it means that Allah loves Aqila because it knows that Aqila is also tired of being sick constantly" Papa Arya was no longer able to speak, because in his heart he also justified the words of his daughter, who was a child, he is selfish if he continues to force his daughter to stay, if he can change positions, he wants to replace all the pain

"Aqila was accidentally horrified from the doctor's room, if Aqila would be operated on" he said, making Papa Arya a little surprised

"The comparison of the cure is quite a bit, but if it's the only way, how else, right?" continue again

"If Aqila has tried and tried to heal, the next business let God will" said Papa Arya responded

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Today went on like the day before, there was no difference at all to Aqila, no excessive fear of having to undergo surgery, everything felt just like that, she said, he does not give up with all the pain, but this includes his efforts, must remain calm. But what made him quite surprised was that everyone was crying when they saw him

"Does Kiran not cry, Brother Egan also why follow crying?" her tanya was confused to see the expression of the two people who had been somehow since when it was suddenly close, when Aqila asked Kirana only to answer maybe it was a soul mate, indeed, though Aqila already more than know how the two humans used to be like water and oil heated, always noisier

"Kiran you don't want to get married first? Before I actually go"

"Don't say that again, can you? Very cool you call it go like that" said Kirana who had been as much as he pleased

"Aqila, anyway you have to heal first, there is a secret that must be told by Brother Egan"

"No way!, you need to get well first"

"Not very funny, play secretive kayak gini" upset Aqila, his intention to treat longing and change the mood even make his mood worse

"What is Aqila rasain now?" This time the laptop has changed hands, pointing the camera towards the face of Davin and Om Radit

"Of course, only sometimes if the pain can be passed out"

"It's natural according to Aqila that many who can't stand and choose injection die, even Aqila also thought to do so"

"NO!!!" The loud sound from across there made Aqila instantly remove the earphones attached, her ears were really buzzing violently

"Just the promise must be healed" said the umpteenth time and Aqila also gave the same answer to the same question from different people but kept repeating

"No promise but effort"

Papa Arya peeked at her daughter's activities from behind the wall, she did not expect that if Aqila had heard the news about the operation, she did intend to tell you, but waited for the condition of her daughter to be better, he knew Aqila must still be shocked by yesterday's events that made her almost hit

He had already notified Aqila of the operation issue with her brother, Radit. But have not told his wife and children, because for that he needs more mental. Last night he couldn't hold back tears when he talked to his brother

Papa Arya closed the room door, not wanting Aqila to eavesdrop for fear of her daughter thinking things again, until she intended to end her life like yesterday

Papa Arya pressed the number on the phone, when the first ringing still no answer until the third ringing then the sound of greetings from across there

"Assalamu'alaikum, has Papa left yet?" ask Mama Intan directly after saying hello

"Wa'alaikumussam, where are you going?"

"Departing to the airport, said Devano yesterday Aqila state began to improve and God willing can come tomorrow at Rian's graduation" unknowingly a drop of tears Papa Arya fell to hear it

"Six more days..."

"Yes, Rian's graduation is six days away" cut Mama Intan directly

"Six more days..." Papa Arya is like having trouble organizing his voice, even though he has prepared mentally from yesterday to tell his wife about this

"Yes Papa, six more days..."

"Aqila operation" said Papa Arya directly with a single breath, sounding silent from across there it seems Mama Intan was also equally surprised

"What do you mean, papa? Try to repeat, maybe mama misheard" said Mama Intan across there after a moment of silence

"The chemotherapy is failing, and Aqila will be operated on for six more days for fear of cancer cells getting more malignant, but doctors say it is likely to succeed in only 50 percent of the 100"

"What did you say?" This time it was not Mama Intan's voice but Rian who was holding the phone, I don't know what happened to Mama Intan across there