Risa Wedding's Story
ONE

“The heart is like rivers flowing quietly. Even though we know the end of the mouth is the sea, but we will never know what has been passed through it to be able to boil down at a time.”-Risa

Ezra just touched the breakfast that Risa made a little.

“I leave,” he said flat.

“Wait, Za,” Risa overtake Ezra, small run.

Risa tidied Ezra's tie in seriousness, patting the tangle to tidy up her husband's shirt.

“Enough.”

Ezra then simply passed from before Risa, leaving Risa at their doorstep. Without further ado, he entered his car and passed.

Risa looked at the nanar of the car Ezra was driving away, once again her heart felt squeezed. She is only a shame in the life of the man, Ezra has managed to make her cry without tears, Risa thinks love will grow out of habit, Risa thinks this matchmaking will work, Risa thinks this matchmaking will work, and it turns out that all of Risa's thoughts are wrong. The man's heart had frozen for him. Everything Risa did was free, even though Risa did not want to stop at all.

***

Risa always remembered a saying that her mother said when she was alive. In difficult times, at the beginning of their marriage, which she always tried to remember when Risa felt anxious about her husband's behavior, she said,

“Risa if you are tired, look at the airplane. Fly high and successfully bring together the longing, bring together children and parents, bring together a wife with her husband, and many more. But remember! Do not pay attention to how it flies, see what the plane goes through, to be able to fly as far as the birds. So many procedures and processes are long.”

As her mother had said, Risa knew there was a possible risk of failing to marry Ezra. But Risa refused to give up, because Risa did not want to lose, the struggle is not how, or not how much, what Risa went through is nothing. The absence of reciprocal love in this household makes Risa fragile, but never negates her love for Ezra. Secret love.

How else would Risa have to describe Ezra, how would she have to explain how much the man had and still captivated her heart. But unfortunately, then and now, Risa never managed to make her love together, every day they only produce a distance that is increasingly proud. Formed from the silence they passed quietly, as if it was heaven for Ezra but a sea of pain for Risa.

The clanging sound of the clock pendulum never bothered Risa, even though the short needle was about to pass midnight. Risa was still waiting on the living room sofa, waiting for Ezra's return patiently. The guy always comes home late at night, but tonight's not like last night. Risa's worry had already come out from hiding, her mind did not feel calm. Afraid of something unwanted happening to Ezra, the man drives his own car.

An hour later the sound of the car entering the parking lot, tonight Ezra came home later than usual, Risa peeked out of the window. It wasn't her husband's car, but Ezra got out of it. Then the car left just like that, leaving Ezra who was walking towards the house with a stagger. Risa swiftly opened the door.

Ezra looked very messy, the suit he was wearing was dated to nowhere, the tie he was wearing was removed, the two buttons on Ezra's white shirt were already exposed, and his clothes were tangled. Then Risa's attention alighted in Ezra's sharp eyes. The eyes were faint and reddened, Risa caught the body of the man when it suddenly seemed like it was about to fall. Ezra's warm breath hit her cold nape, Risa held a body that was bigger than her body. She moved Ezra's lunglai hand over her shoulder and swept her husband into the room.

After locking the door, Risa returned to the room, Ezra did not change her position at all, still lying on her back. The two shoes were still attached, Risa swiftly opened them one by one. Opening one by one shirt buttons that have been attached by sweat, will not be comfortable sleeping with wearing a shirt like this. Risa squeezed out the wet towel she had already dipped into the warm water, wiping her husband's upper body. Trouble Risa put a T-shirt on the big body of her husband, Ezra just muttered indistinctly. After that Risa took off the cloth trousers Ezra, leaving the men's shorts and raised the blanket under the bed.

Suddenly both of Ezra's sharp eyes opened and looking at him, he was still lying down. While Risa was still bowing before Ezra, whether with awareness or not then the sturdy hand crept onto Risa's back, pushing her and bringing Risa closer, even closer, suddenly Ezra kissed Risa with an alcoholic mouth, Risa was surprised but could not let go of the grip that brought her down, Risa wanted to protest, but it did not. Moments later the kiss stopped, Risa heard Ezra's breath descending regularly. Her husband had fallen asleep again, and Risa's mind started to drift.

***

One Year Ago..

Risa looked at the man in front of her, her appearance was incredibly alluring in a simple way. His body was tall, wearing a blue shirt whose arms were already rolled up, along with long black pants and pantofel shoes.

Risa was sure that the man in front of her had just come home from her job, but somehow Risa felt familiar with the way the brown eyeball looked sharply at her.

Risa is shocked to death, when she realizes that the person in front of her is Ezra Prawira. Her upperclassman at High School, is the person who is now in front of Risa. As well as her future husband from this business matchmaking, there was not the slightest indentation on the lips with that powerful jaw. His lips were straight in stripes, without a smile and flat.

***

Sunlight broke through the gaps of the curtains, awakening Risa from her deep sleep. The sturdy arm was between his waist, cradling him tightly to get closer. Risa looked at the peaceful face of Ezra who was still asleep, leave it like this. Risa just wanted to enjoy a few moments of their closeness, without having to feel afraid of making this man angry.

Risa always likes to see Ezra's eyebrows straight, his nose pointed and his lips. Also on that cheek, Risa knew Ezra had dimples, although she had not been seen since they were married. But Ezra's smile at High School is always his sun, the dimples make Ezra look friendly. Of course it wasn't Ezra now, even though Risa knew her Ezra wasn't Ezra who used to be full of smiles and friendly. Ezra who is now an ice-cold, frozen-hearted man.

When he felt that there was movement from the arm, Risa made him pretend to go back to sleep. Ezra felt movement, as he woke up and realized his surroundings, he realized he was home, now Ezra realized that Risa was in his arms, and Ezra knew that Risa was awake.

But he did not pay attention to it, even tightening his hug on the woman. This weekend let them enjoy the morning longer, Ezra closed his eyes again.

Risa's heart skipped a beat, Risa was even worried that Ezra could hear her. Risa gave thanks in her heart, feeling that Ezra was not moving anymore. It turns out that her husband has not woken up, with great care Risa put away Ezra's arm, she has to start her job as a housewife, Risa comes down from the bed.

In his morning work, he began by picking up Ezra's dirty clothes, then putting them in the laundry basket. Clean the dust in the room, then after completion he moved to another room.

After finishing cleaning the house Risa headed towards the kitchen to cook, breakfast this morning is enough vegetable omelet only. It was Ezra's favorite breakfast usually, when he started chopping vegetables the sound of footsteps leading to the kitchen, Risa knew it was Ezra was up. Without further ado, the man sat down on the dining table chair. Risa was already very familiar with Ezra's behavior, so that when the man woke up swiftly he poured coffee from the coffee maker into a cup, then handed it to Ezra.

“Coffee.”

“Em..”

“So early this morning there was a car, the key I put in the drawer of the room.”

Ezra just muttered while receiving the cup of coffee that Risa thrust out and took a sip. In her heart Risa smiled, seeing that the clothes she had worn to Ezra had not been replaced. Still a white T-shirt and boxser cartoon, Risa so feel funny herself.

Risa put a plate of omelets in front of Ezra, who without saying much directly her husband greedily. Risa joined the table, she ate slowly. Remember, actually from earlier wanted to ask this.

“Where were you from last night?” ask Risa.

Ezra swallowed his breakfast first before looking at Risa.

“Not your business,” replied Ezra flat.

“I wait for you all night.”

Ezra stopped chewing on the omelet, Risa regretted asking now.

“I've told you, don't wait for me to come home,”

“Keep if I don't wait, when you come home again with such circumstances. Who will help you?”

“Already, I don't want to fight!” ezra said firmly, which then made Risa silenced.

They ended up finishing breakfast with a rather gripping silence.

“Yesterday Mami my phone, she said there would be seven monthly Mbak Meta at home,”

Risa listens well, Mami is Ezra's biological mother and Mbak Meta is Ezra's sister-in-law, more precisely the wife of Ezra's older brother Dimas.

“So we're going there?” ask Risa.

“I'm actually lazy, but Mami told us both to go home. He'll be mad if we don't come,”

“Tomorrow, we stay one day there. This afternoon we leave for Bandung.”

“Then I pack the goods,”

One thing Risa knew from a long time ago, that how unpleasant Ezra's treatment was towards her. But Ezra is a male figure who loves his mother very much, Ezra never refused his mother's request. Just like her match with Risa, she never refused. Not because she loved Risa, but she loved her mother very much.

And Mami, is a very dear figure Risa, Mami is very good to Risa. From the beginning of their marriage, about six months ago, even since the match was held. Their families arranged their children's match is not just a business affair, no, Risa is not sold at all. Their families have a better relationship than that. Risa's father, Tiyo Asjad is an old friend of Ezra's father, they are reunited after a long time Risa and her family moved to neighboring Malaysia. After a few years later Risa and her family settled in Jakarta again. Risa's father meets Ezra's father again.

Long story short, finally the two friends had the idea to match their single children, namely Risa and Ezra. In order to strengthen their family ties, as well as the business cooperation they were in, Risa initially refused, but when she found out that person was Ezra, she changed her mind. Ezra never wanted to disappoint his family, especially his mother.

***

They arrived in Bandung in the afternoon, Risa did not see the clock when they departed from Jakarta. But clearly Risa was bored from earlier, Ezra who got down first from the car, when they arrived and began to lower the items they brought. There are also some items that thankfully they had bought before leaving, some furniture for baby Ma'am Meta.

Mami welcomes Risa who first enters warmly, kissing the forehead and left right of her cheek. Mami loves her daughters-in-law very much, which makes Risa miss her home in-laws very much, said Mami Erza. Mami Ezra always reminds her of the figure of the mother who has long gone, that is why when she met her husband's mother, Risa immediately agreed to be part of this family member.

Risa kisses Mami Ezra's hand.

“How are you doing this daughter-in-law of Mami, healthy are you Sa”

“Risa healthy Mi, how about Mami?” ask Risa.

“Some healthy Mommy, Mami Just lonely Mami children not memin Mami,”

“Sorry yes Mi, Risa same Ezra rarely here,” said Risa felt guilty.

“Not what Sa, Mami understood. Ezra was so hard to get back to this house. Good thing your Ma'am from a few months ago lives here, so Mami isn't too lonely.”

“Mbak Meta move here?”

“Free until delivery, because Dimas again duty out of town. It's like your mom nobody's guarding in.”

Risa nodded.

“Eh Mami just realized Sa, you are kok kurusan!”

Said mami researching her daughter-in-law's body, Risa shook her head feeling it's okay. Then Ezra went in with some of the things they had brought, clothes and some gifts.

“Za you take care of your wife who really dong, Risa kurusan loh!”

Ezra turned to hear her mother's hardship, then examined Risa's body. Makes Risa shy.

“Maybe she's on a diet,” she says flat.

“Loh, that's tuh, surely he diet let you feel at home, you if so husband attention little why Za, do not be the same as first anything cuek!”

“Risa will already be here, Mami must have given him a lot of food. Ntar also he gedean again,” said Ezra indifferently.

***

The seven-monthly event has just finished, Risa helps to change the wet clothes Meta. Staring in amazement at the pregnant woman's protruding stomach, what it was like to take the baby everywhere, must be bothered to think Risa.

“You Sa, look in my stomach as far as it is,” Meta said, Risa chuckled.

“Iya Mbak curious how it feels?”

“Yes so quickly ask to Ezra, you are already married six months, the time has not filled as well. Unless you're KB Sa?”

Risa smiled, confirming in her heart. When they do it is always using safety, how Risa can get pregnant.

“Yes already Ma'am, let's get out. Mami said she was cooking for dinner.”

“Mami you tuh Sa, the habit if there are guests like cooking-cook crazy, I'm two months here aja to rise ten kilos, can stretch me out of the lava,”

“Haha, Mbak Meta, kayak who does not know Mami aja.”

They laughed together, their in-laws were indeed magical and affectionate.

“Seneng yes, soon Mami same Papi will have a grandson from Dimas,” said mami Ezra, slightly satirizing his one child. Ezra paid no heed.

They were eating dinner, opposite the table were Mami and Papi Ezra. On the side of the mami there is Meta himself, while Risa sits on the side of Papi Ezra, with Ezra next to Risa.

“If you are giving a grandson to Papi, Za?” ask Papi Ezra. Risa was just listening.

“Not yet given,” Ezra alibi.

“Do not you weak Za,”canda papi.

Risa held back an amused giggle as Ezra choked on hearing what her papi said, then swiftly thrust a glass of water at Ezra. Mami and Mbak Meta also giggled amusedly across the table.

“Enak aja papa, just ask Risa,” she replied sewot.

Risa felt her cheeks hot when she was stared at by everyone there, shook her head slowly, everyone laughed except for Ezra who was increasingly upset.

After their meal Ezra led Risa to the room they occupied in the house, in front of everyone, while Risa complied with her blushing face, Papi Ezra just shook his head amusedly at the behavior of his son.

Ezra was like that before, not to lose. And did not want to be considered weak, that was what Risa realized from the first. Ezra closed the door.

***

Two Weeks Before..

Ezra sipped the daisies in her hand, her favorite flower, today was bright enough to visit. He walked down the hospital corridors, then stopped in front of a room.

Ezra opened the door of the room slowly, there was a weakly lying girl with various hoses to support her life. Ezra throws away the water in the old vase, then replaces it with new water and flowers. Then kissing the girl's forehead, there was no reaction, because indeed the girl was still dreaming in her long sleep, Ezra smiled bitterly. Ezra was supposed to come home, but the girl's situation had held him back, so Ezra accompanied the girl tonight.