Risa Wedding's Story
EIGHT

EZRA

"I've seen plain and clean white daisies, before they wither and blacken."

***

It's been a week Risa at her father's house, many reasons I made to be able to see her soon. I asked everything related to the growth of our son to Mother Maya, she said Risa was very healthy and her appetite returned.

Maybe this is the best decision, and we both need a gap to think about this problem.

I certainly wouldn't blame Risa for keeping me away from my son, she's his mother and we want the best.

Just like when I thought about that woman, evil indeed but I admit I will never be able to get rid of Elsha in my life.

If she has to leave, then I just want to make sure Elsha gets her mother's love back. From the first time I met her again, I felt I had an obligation to look after her.

Maybe others won't understand, but my love for Elsha now is like my love for a little sister I never had, it's not equivalent when compared to the figure of a wife. But he means it in a way that sometimes not everyone understands.

We had a love affair, I loved her. He is precious in my life to the present, but that does not mean defeating my love for Risa and my son. They are not only precious, they are my life. My world.

Therefore I feel an obligation to clean things up calmly, so as not to hurt everyone. I will not leave Elsha just like that, and I will never leave Risa until anytime.

Be patient Risa, be patient like all this time. Like the woman I've known, you're my place to go home. I just don't want to leave the rest of the past unfinished, I want it all to be clear to all of us.

***

A few years ago..

The rain at the end of the year is always something that many people miss, sometimes a lot of people keep their memories in every drop.

Some people were wearing umbrellas together with their pairs, I smiled. A few more were shaded in the nearest place, and just like them I was shaded. Already arrived at the post Security office, it is impossible to turn around again.

But I really enjoyed this rainy atmosphere, it calmed my mind.

It feels too poetic indeed, my friends would certainly say I'm a sissy because of this.

But this rain is enough to help get rid of all fatigue today.

A week from now I will officially take over my father's duties at the office. Kakaku Dimas chose to live in a house in Bandung rather than in Jakarta. I have been living in Jakarta since High School. My brother chose to become a state servant, finally I am obliged to continue our father's business.

I coughed as the smoke from that nicotine stick got into my nose, “I hate active smokers, just as hate when it comes to passive smoking!”

It felt like I wanted to rebuke, but when I saw the source that caused the air around me to be polluted I was convinced.

A tiny black-haired girl glistened, she looked indifferent as I shook off the cigarette smoke that was in front of me.

There was something familiar about him, when I approached then a glimmer of memory appeared. That girl was my best friend in High School.

I looked at him in disbelief, we didn't meet for just four years and he was already very different from the girl I knew at Middle School.

I pat her shoulder slowly, “Elsha?”

The girl turned her head then her eyes widened as our eyes met.

It clucked,”Who is it?”

Whether you really don't recognize me or you're just pretending, I'm sure there's a bit of a surprised look that's a sign that he actually recognizes me.

“You don't know who I am?” my question is more like a statement.

“Sorry I don't know lo!” he turned away, apparently leaving this post.

But before her tiny body ran towards the rain I held her arm.

“Why did you lie!”

Our gazes were puzzled, we stared at each other before she touched my grip and then ran across the street to catch a bus that stopped.

“Elsha,” I shouted her name in the rain, she turned her head briefly at me, “I left my card on Security!”  I screamed at him with a smile.

I don't know what the girl thinks of me, because she just passed by with the bus she was riding. My driver has arrived.

Today I did not expect to see her again, the girl I once knew was so innocent and loner. The girl seemed to be still a loner, but it had changed greatly. I don't know what the girl went through, I wonder what she looks like now.

***

I've officially become the CEO of my father, starting from a week ago. I have to bear the burden my father used to bear. And it's huge. It also takes a lot of struggle I won't waste this.

I stared at the clock on my desk, it was midnight. I have so much to do, even to the point of bringing my work home to the way it is now.

It's been a week since my meeting with my old friend, I think he might not recognize me. He hasn't called yet. But I'm pretty sure that that girl Elsha, we were in a class in XII high school. Maybe he forgot me.

I used to bother him a lot, every time he sat alone with his book. The girl I used to be a jahili.

For some reason that day my mind was filled with Elsha, I kept imagining her shiny black hair was striking.

She is a cute little girl, her face is very cute. The kind of cute school girl who became the fantasy of many boys, but no one dared to approach her because it was too cold and loner.

One phone call in the middle of the night surprised me, I heard a stammering sound from a phone call.

The girl circling in my head finally contacted me. But his tone of voice explained the unfortunate situation.

“Please me!” lirih.

I grabbed my jeans that night, before picking up the car keys and speeding through the streets of the capital in the middle of the night.

Her face was flying, I approached her when I arrived at the police station.

He netted a drug rajia, I didn't want to believe it. Maybe he was framed or something. But that thought was instantly broken upon seeing her miserable condition.

She was drowning in my chest, I hugged her tightly. The girl groaned in pain, she was sad.

From there our relationship grew, Elsha was released on my bail. He must undergo rehabilitation.

Sometimes there are times when I think she's the Elsha I used to know as a teenager, innocent and loner. Always be quiet if I'm jahili. One day he told me everything, which made him get entangled in that illicit stuff.

***

When Elsha was just a 2nd semester student there to the glass began to hit her life, I still remember her tears when she told me.

We were in my apartment, that night she was leaning against my chest we were staring at the moon that looks so big in the sky of Jakarta.

Elsha's mother and father decided to divorce at that time, Elsha met a friend who was not right. Which makes him fall into a dark world, and as the man moves away from Elsha's life he begins to struggle to overcome his candlestick.

No more supplies to treat Elsha's addiction, she was abandoned by her friends and family.

Elsha Semaki falls deeper into the world of the hutam, she starts working at a nightclub for the cost of buying drugs.

His college was a mess, and that's when he was finally caught by the police in the air. Like the first time I knew he was an addict.

The business card saved him, the card I left. It's possible we wouldn't have a story if it hadn't happened.

***

“You are skinny gini,”I thought he was sad, he even laughed crisply.

“By eating me a lot,” I know he's not kidding.

“You still make El?”ask me that night.

He closed his thin body to me, I greeted him by wrapping my hands around his plate.

The girl sobbed slowly, “I want to stop Za, but I can't. I can't stand pain!”

I don't know what it's like, but every time I find the girl sweating with her wild gaze. When his own body hit a wall or something nearby, there I knew getting off the opium wasn't easy.

For me Elsha is a good girl, it's just that sometimes people don't want to try to understand. That getting off the opium wasn't as easy as they thought. And that I saw for myself when I saw Elsha.

I hugged her even tighter, “You should heal El, I bet you can!” I kissed her hair many times.

“I don't want to be rehab again Za,” he shakes his head in my arms.

“Let me nolong you El,”

His eyes were soft when he looked at me, there was a deep exhaustion in those eyes.

“I don't want to be rehabbed with people I don't know Za, I'm embarrassed when they see me sakau!”

“I'll find a way to solve this problem El, I'll find a private rehab!”

That night I finally deployed my connection to find a comfortable and special rehab, finally I got it.

Elsha had succeeded in rehab. I used to help her at the police station, but secretly she was wearing that illegal stuff again.

And this time I will accompany him rehab, every time I go home from work I see him.

***

One day in Elsha's hardest time.

I chased after him and managed to catch his little body, he thrashed and cursed me.

He stopped when I threw him in cold water, and he finally stopped struggling. Elsha was crying in my arms.

They change Elsha's clothes, the girl will run away thankfully I stopped.

Sometimes there were hard times when I saw her down in the sakau, she looked at me from the crack of her bedroom door that was deliberately left open to peek at her.

“Sick! Please Za, love me this time!” he whimpers in pain.

Before finally screaming hysterically, because he did not get what he wanted. The pain of punching my heart saw it that way. I'm sorry Elsha if I give up, all attempts will fail.

Very often I went through that moment, seeing it in pain. But I couldn't help him, he had to heal it was my determination.

***

Elsha finally made it through those difficult times, we made it. He was declared clean, this time he lived in my apartment. But don't get me wrong, it's all I've done to protect her.

We slept in separate rooms, I reviewed Elsha every day. Healthy food, exercise to his friends. I'm not trying to curb my lover's release, I just want to protect her.

And he doesn't seem to mind and is fine, we are living it happily. We even started to build a lot of things for our future.

Elsha and her mother's relationship begins to improve, although Elsha still lives with me.

I felt like there was never a happy day that day, I wanted to keep covering her up at all times.

***

At that time, I thought I had saved my girlfriend, maybe I was blind. I think she's happy, Elsha always looks like that with me.

It turns out that I couldn't prevent it, Elsha secretly wore that unclean item again. For the umpteenth time, the opium gnawed at my girl.

I accidentally found him laughing in the bathroom of the apartment.

His nanapas were stingy when I found him, I leaned him towards the bathtub. And pouring it with cold water from the shower, she nodded and grabbed my shoulder firmly.

I just took her to the room when I saw her lips curl up, I had absolutely no ill intention of her when I opened her outerwear and replaced it with dry clothes.

Putting him in bed that night, I condemned my stupidity. Why can't I prevent it, why can't I protect it.

He fell asleep in my arms, I rubbed his black hair, along with tears that slowly fell down on my girl's hair.

***

“Until one day, I can't help Elsha anymore. Elsha's pregnant, I don't know who the baby's father is. I'm sorry, Miss Ratih, leaving your daughter in such a state. But I feel Elsha no longer cares about anyone, I have been as strong as possible to help her. I used to love him so much, and this is the path that Elsha.” takes

Relieved that when I told her my relationship with Elsha was actually with Ms. Ratih, the middle-aged woman had already lost her determination. He was crying and crying.

“Never seem to get angry at Elsha in the slightest, I just want her to live her life well. When he was in an accident, I felt guilty, and felt I was taking part in the case, I shouldn't have left Elsha.”.

“Excuse Mom nak Ezra, sorry!”

“I'm sorry too, for not being able to take care of my daughter anymore. Now I have a wife, and soon a child. I love them so much, they're half my life now Mom. I always wish Elsha the best, but I can't keep her forever.”

Never was my mind as light as it is now, when for the most part I left Elsha's hospital room. This time it was different, I switched the Aster flower to his sport before leaving, with a lighter weight without any burden.

Elsha fight.

I'm sorry, now I want to pick up my bidadar. Risa and my son, I love them so much with all my heart.

One day you should wake up, and see them Elsha.

My angels.

My liv.

***

I miss her so much, my wife. A beautiful afternoon with dusk, he was picking some vegetables in my in-laws' small garden. Sometimes I wonder he doesn't look at all difficult, with his stomach growing.

I approached him, took over the basket he was carrying. Risa was suffocated when she saw me, a little surprised by my sudden appearance.

I smiled at him, not caring about that sharp look. He's still mad at me, but I guarantee it'll be over soon.

I pressed our faces together, he didn't refuse when I kissed his lips gently.

“I miss you Sa,” I said hoarsely.

Despite wanting to look angry at me, I knew Risa was happy. He could not stop the red spout on his cheek.

What a beauty, with a twilight spray. With her in front of me, my woman, looks beautiful with her distended stomach. With our silhouette.

“I love you so much Risa Asjad.”