Sharing Love: Between Us
Chapter.184 Surrender
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"Then, why can't he share his pain with me? Why can't he give me a chance to accompany him in the hard times? Why?!" asked Keenan again, he raised his head, holding back the water that had been pressing in the eye.
"Because he loves you so much, Keen. He doesn't want you to grieve in and make it heavy when the moment of his departure arrives. She prefers to be hated by you, even if it hurts her self" Alana replied with a sobbing that accompanied her every word.
Keenan smiled wryly, he dropped his gaze, with an indeterminate feeling. His hand pinched the base of his nose, eliminating the dizzy that began to attack.
"Son, I don't trust you! This must be just your story, to cover up your mistakes. Aye, right?" Keenan, stand up and try to get away from Alana.
"Wait, Keen. Everything I'm talking about is true, wait a minute .. I'll have people bring Luna's belongings as long as you're apart" Alana said, holding Keenan's hand.
"I beg you, Keen," said Alana again.
Keenan exhaled a coarse breath, he finally nodded and sat back down.
"I give you one chance to prove it" Keenan said in a cold, flat tone. All that he did to disguise the pain that now dominates his heart.
Alana, seen taking her bag and contacting someone, to get something at her house.
Almost an hour waiting, it was intermittent with the arrival of doctors and children who began to roar. Now in the room there are four adults.
Three of them were sitting on the sofa, while one was sitting next to the children's gurney talking to them.
"Keen, this is Aryo, my husband" said Alana, introducing a man who was sitting next to her.
"Hello, I'm Aryo. It's nice to finally meet you, even with an unpleasant incident like this," she said, extending a hand.
Keenan was silent, he looked at the hand that was in front of him. Shortly afterwards he smelled the hand.
"Keenan" he said, introducing himself.
"Today Lana always looked for your existence, even though it always got a dead end. I even helped, it's just that I couldn't do anything either" the man named Aryo told.
Keenan did not answer Aryo's words anymore, he fell silent when he saw a book that Alana kept in front of him.
"You know what this book is, right?" alana asked, after putting the magenta-colored book on the table.
"I–it, Luna's book?" the answer also came from Keenan's lips.
"Yes, this is Luna's book that you bought as her seventeenth birthday present. Do you remember?" ask Alana.
"Yes, I still remember .... very much remember," Keenan replied. His trembling hand stretched out to take the book.
"Open up, he poured out all his feelings in the book" Alana said.
Keenan looked Doubtful, he looked at the two people who were in front of him in turn, looking for confidence for himself.
Alana and Aryo nodded together while smiling, as support for someone who was being struck by the dilemma.
Slowly Keenan's hands began to open the book's cover, the first sheet showing a photograph of him in a white-gray uniform with a girl in his arms.
Her hand gently rubbed the photo, she still remembered when the photo was taken, it was the day they officially dated. It was a school break, in Luna's backyard giving an answer to Keenan's love statement after hanging him for three days.
Below the photo is a beautiful inscription that reads
Keenan faintly read the writing, he then opened up sheet by sheet next, reading every line of words written so beautifully on each page.
Keenan stalled on the page, just from the date it was written, it was the day that the two of them had just finished working on the national examination.
...I know, my body's condition is getting worse and worse. I could feel it, even though my parents always said I was okay....
...Here, I am the one who is sick, I feel it, how day by day my body gets weaker, my chest hurts more and more....
...They can't keep lying to me, I'm no longer a child, I understand what I'm going through....
...Keen, it seems like I have to start my desk away from you, I don't want to be a burden to you, nor do I want to be hard to let go of my life because you are....
...Forgive me, who must give pain to you, I must, I do not want to see sorrow on your face, when I must release me, and let me go to the realm of peace....
Keenan was stunned, reading every word of it, there it was clear that Luna was complaining about her illness, she also planned to leave even a few days before graduation.
Keenan re-opened the book sheet by sheet which now feels more sad and complains a lot about his life, very different at the beginning of the page that continues to tell a variety of happiness.
Keenan again stalled on one page where his name was mentioned repeatedly.
...Keen, I miss you .... I miss your laughter, your laughter, and your affection as well all about you....
...I want to get out of here and run to you, if time can give me just a little hope of survival, or hope for recovery, I want to come back, be with you, Ken....
...However, then I realized ..this is all just a dream and a dream that will not be able to come true for me....
...I must not be selfish, is not the word that people hate it will be easier to forget, then now that is what I choose for you, Keen....
I want you to hate me so you won't remember me.
...Keen, your life is still long, the future is waiting for you to come soon, welcoming another happiness even if it's not with me....
...Keen, now that I realize .. we are both different, I feel unworthy of you, with all the weaknesses and the time that feels short. You still have a long time and a lot of opportunities. It's not like I'm just struggling with this pain....
...I give up, Keen .... I'mtired. Now that I have resigned, it feels that being called to leave will be more pleasant than living with all this infinite torment....
...I don't want to continue being a burden on my parents, Keen. I don't want to keep seeing them cry, lamenting my never-ending pain. Money, materials, time and affection have been sacrificed a lot. I don't want to be a burden....
...Keen, this time I just want to thank you, because you have become the encouragement of my life, you have also given color in the shortness of my life....
...I always felt gray before I met you, my life that felt always on the verge of death, turned more lively and pleasant when you were present, bringing all sorts of colors into my life....
...Hate me as much as you can, curse me and expose all wrongs only to me. I was selfish, I chose to be selfish, choosing to be more concerned with myself and my feelings, compared to the people around me. I admit that, and I'm sorry that I've brought you into that pain....
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How's nih? Will Keenan be touched again, after the fact that it was uncovered? Or will he rise again to live his new life with Riska? Komen👍❤
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