The Effects of Early Marriage
20 Selfish
🎶 🎶 🎶 Kularut decays in the silence of your heart
Falling with the tears
You've buried your grieving face
Doubt the pain in your soul
And never thought of me
To leave you like this
I can't imagine if I went
How broken and how important your life is
Actually 'I don't want to be here
In a distant place that separates us
I hope everything will be different
It is impossible to grow that soul again
And never thought of me
To leave you like this
I can't imagine if I went
How broken and how important your life is
I don't get it
What could possibly happen?
Wholeheartedly
I don't understand 🎶 🎶 🎶
Freya is currently in her rented house. He thought about all the events since he came home from vacation to Bali with his friends first. Who would have thought, since coming home from there, his life began to change.
🎼 🎼 🎼 Here I'm still alone
Wade through lonely days
I'm without you still without you
When tomorrow comes again
I'm trying to deal with all this
Even without you, without you
When I get a glowing star
A quiet mentor is here with me
I can laugh crying
In this place I survive
The voice listen to me
How is my heart
I'm here waiting for him
Still hope in his heart
The voice listen to me
Am I slalu in his heart
I'm here waiting for him
Still hope in his heart
If I still stay here
I've been through everything that's happened
I waited for you oh I waited
The voice listen to me
How is my heart
I'm here waiting for him
Still hope in his heart
The voice listen to me
I am in his heart
I'm here waiting for him
Still hope in his heart
The voice listen to me
How is my heart
I'm here waiting for him
Still hope in his heart oh
Sound listen to me 🎼 🎼 🎼
Elsewhere, Arby was not much different, thinking about the recent series of events. The man then took his sketchbook, began to wave a beautiful face that always accompanied his dreams.
🌿🌿🌿🌿
Freya walked over to one of the slightly open doors. The room was next to Arby's. He wanted to know if it was a bedroom or not. When he wanted to enter, someone blocked his hand.
"Don't come in!"
Arby tightened his grip on Freya's arm.
"I told you not to, yes not!"
The more forbidden it was, the more Freya wanted to see it.
"Indeed in what, anyway?"
Not wanting Freya to know what was inside, Arby immediately carried Freya like a sack of rice.
"Aaaa .. loose!"
Freya tried to kick Arby's stomach with her knees, but Arby had already held her back.
"Once upon a time what the husband said!"
Freya then uses her hands to grab Arby's hair.
"Aaaa .. pain!"
"You must have kept a lot of nude posters, right?"
"Brew!"
"Or do you keep pictures of the girls you like?"
Arby's body stiffened, and Freya could see that. He smiled cynically.
"If you really like it so much and can't forget it, we better end this pseudo-marriage. We deserve to be happy with our choices. The happiness of the child should also be the happiness of the parents."
Freya patted Arby on the shoulder, then left him without any urate fights like they used to do.
Arby sighed, then held his chest.
If I could just let it go, I really loved her. I want to always be able to see his smile, hear his voice even .. I really want to have it. Let me be selfish. Let people blaspheme me, I won't care. All I think about is my heart, not someone else.
🌸🌸🌸
Freya's relationship with her friends is still strained. Even though they were at the same table in the cafeteria, no one spoke to each other.
Since Freya married Arby, she has indeed changed little by little. His eyes often look dim, even empty. I rarely talk if it's not important.
Sometimes Nania sees Freya reading a book, but only a cover, because her eyes do not move following the writing in the book.
It wasn't just Nania who saw the strange gurgle on Freya, but Ikmal as well. Although he and Freya only met at certain moments, but he felt that there was something different from the girl.
In the distance, Mico looked at Freya who was just staring at her food. The man then took his phone and typed in a message.
Freya
[Eat, don't look at food!]
Freya picks up her phone, then reads a message from Mico.
Mico
[Snoo, yuk!]
Finally, order them.
From Mico
[Exemplary disciples want to skip?]
From Freya
[Bawel, will you?]
From Mico
[No.]
From Freya
[Ah, no fun.]
Mico laughs amusedly in his place, can-can students excel and discipline and cute as Freya invites him to skip.
He thought, That girl must have had some serious problems in her life. Once again he looked towards Freya, who was looking at him in annoyance. He blinked his eyes at the girl who was reciprocated with pursed lips and puffy lips, making Mico become anxious.
It cannot be separated from the supervision of the people around them.
"Ngetawaiin what the hell, Mic?" ask Adam, his friend.
"It's nothing."
"But, you slap."
Across there, Freya let out a heavy sigh, as if she had no life expectancy. Lately he has no spirit. He never felt this bad. Even the book that used to be his escape was no longer attractive in his eyes.
"Ma?"
"Hm?"
"Stupid, yuk!"
They're coughing.
"What?"
"Stupid, yuk!"
Nania holds Freya's forehead.
"What the hell, Na?"
Freya brushed off Nania's hand. Feeling that her invitation would also be rejected by Nania, she immediately left without saying anything, especially to Aruna and Arby. Only Nania was still he scolded, because Nania was the first to know Freya when they were still in Elementary School.
Nania soon overtakes Freya and embraces the girl's shoulder towards the UKS. Nania does feel Freya's condition is not okay, her body is a little warm and cold sweat.
In the UKS room, Freya immediately laid her body, and soon fell asleep. Nania sighed, gently rubbing the head of her best friend. The door of the UKS open, showing the faces of Arby and the others. They saw a grain of sweat on Freya's forehead.
"Aren't you taken to the doctor, huh?"
Arby immediately holds Freya, the girl looks weak in Arby's arms. Her pale face still looked beautiful despite the dark circles around her eyes.
Nania catches up with Arby, not wanting to let Freya alone with the man. He was only worried that if Freya woke up later, they would come back to fight even for a small matter.