The Traces of Destiny
Fairy Tales And Reality

Regarding Saras' wedding plans, his mother was very happy to hear the news, but his father did not say much, although he wished for him to be happy. Maybe he suspects something, maybe he's lived long enough to know that fairy tales rarely come true.

Whatever it was, he did not express his objections at the time, and to be honest, Saras did not take the time to question his father's doubts, except when Ardi asked him to sign a pre-marital agreement.

Ardi explains that his family is adamant about it, but even though he tries to blame his parents, part of him feels suspicious that if they are not around, he will insist on it himself. In the end, however, he signed the agreement. That night, Ardi's parents throw a lavish engagement party to officially announce the upcoming wedding.

Seven months later, Saras and Ardi get married. They honeymooned in Greece and Turkey, after returning to Cijengkol, they moved to a house less than two blocks from where Ardi's parents lived. Although she doesn't have to work, Saras chooses to teach first class at an elementary school in the city. Surprisingly, Ardi fully supported his decision, but it was a picture of their relationship back then.

In the first two years of their marriage, everything seems perfect: She and Ardi spend hours in bed on weekends, talking and making love, and he recounted his dream to get involved in politics one day.

They have many friends, especially people who have known Ardi all his life, and there are always parties to attend or weekend trips out of town. They spend their free time in the capital, off the island, exploring museums, attending theatrical performances, and having a romantic dinner at Le Bridge, footpaths along the pier are often referred to as “Dock Love” . There, while standing inside the Love Pier, Ardi tells Saras that he is ready to start a family. He hugged her as soon as he said those words, knowing that there was nothing he could say to make her happier.

After a few months since his happy day at Le Bridge, Saras still has not been successfully impregnated by Ardi. Their doctors advise not to worry because it often takes a while after taking the contraceptive pill before pregnancy occurs. However, when they undergo tests, they see a doctor to get the results and there seems to be a problem.

In a meeting with the doctor, Saras gets a shocking and painful news: his ovaries are unable to produce eggs. This result is a huge blow to the couple, and they must face the fact that they probably won't be able to have a biological child.

Tensions in their relationship begin to surface, and their first big fight ensues. Saras and Ardi spoke to each other with hurtful words, pouring out their disappointment and dissatisfaction. Ardi looks distant, becomes more reserved, and their relationship gets worse over time. Saras tries to confront this reality by seeking alternatives such as adoption, but Ardi refuses on the grounds that his parents will not accept him.

One night, Saras finds Ardi sitting in the dining room, drunk with alcohol. She decides to confront him and expresses her desire for a divorce because she feels their relationship no longer has a happy future. Ardi seemed to agree, and their marriage ended quickly.

Saras was twenty-seven years old at the time, devastated by the sudden separation. Although she strives to see the future positively, she must face the fact that the dreams of the family she aspires to have to change and accept that her life will now go in a different direction.

In the next twelve months, Saras felt lost and confused. Everyone around him wanted to know what was wrong, but he chose to keep it to himself, simply saying, "his soul mate just got there" whenever asked. To him, this difficulty felt too personal to share.

However, in an attempt to seek help, Saras begins to consult with a counselor named Khorik Istiana. The counselor recommended a support group, which Saras follows to gain support from people in similar situations.

During one of the darkest times of his life, suicidal thoughts even slipped into Saras's mind. However, he realizes that he must move forward and find a new place to start again without the burden of painful memories. This is when he decides to leave Cijengkol and move to Gajakarta, a place that is unfamiliar to him, but in the hope that it will help him recuperate.

Currently, Saras is trying to continue his life in Gajakarta. Although it was still difficult at times, he felt better than before. His family, each in their own way, tried to provide support. His father remained silent about his problem, while his mother sought medical information that might help. However, his brother, Kim Kadarasin, became his main supporter and provided tremendous support in difficult moments.

Although there are still challenges and sorrows to face, Saras seeks hope and strength in this twisting journey of his life. With the support of her family and her desire to start over, she seeks a path to happiness and peace in the future.

As time went on, their brotherly relationship grew stronger. Although Saras is sometimes as aloof as women in general, she always has Kim as a true friend who listens empathically. Whenever she needs someone to talk to, Kim is always there for her, being a attentive listener. Sometimes they play orange box games together and laugh at their favorite online chat group, INI GC in Manga Toon.

As his older sister Kim, Saras has been present at every step of the young man's life since the beginning of his life, helping to change diapers and feed when his mother allows him. When she goes to school, Saras always supports her by helping with her homework. During her interactions with Kim, Saras begins to realize how much she is interested in working with children and feels like she wants to become a teacher.

Being a teacher was a decision he never regretted. Saras really loves teaching and working with children. Every time he entered a new classroom and saw expectant little faces, he felt he had chosen the right career path.

However, like most young teachers, he also realized that his initial idealism needed to deal with reality. Not all children will respond well to it, regardless of the effort he gives.

Some of them may shut down and not accept his help, and that's the hardest part of his job.

However, Saras never gives up and keeps trying to give his best to his students, even if it means facing challenges and failures along the way. Her belief in being a teacher remains strong, and she is ready to face any obstacle to help children grow and develop.

Saras wiped the sweat off his forehead, feeling relieved as the air finally began to cool. The sun slowly sank in the sky, creating shadows that extended around it. As he crossed the fire station, several firefighters sitting in front of the park chair gestured at him with friendly nods. A smile was engraved on his face.

For him, there is no such thing as a night or early morning fire in this city. Every day for the past four months, he saw the officers sitting in the same place, at the same time, with no signs of fire danger.