Heaven on lara
Chapters 30. The painful truth

Zoya takes Khadijah and Zaky to the front. After a long conversation, the child and mother chose to leave. After Zaky's car is no longer visible, Zoya enters her home. 

The time has shown twelve o'clock over fifteen minutes, a sign that it is Zuhr time. Zoya hastened to carry out her duty to the Almighty. 

After a long time in prayer, Zoya again felt bored and sat on the edge of the window, looking at the outside scenery that still shows the specks of rain and thin fog. 

Zoya sighed harshly. For some reason, Zoya's mind is still on Zada. 'Was Zada thinking about me too? Ah, what do you expect, Zoya. Never mind, wake up your new life, Zoya's inner self begins to fight. 

Yes, Zoya has to open a new sheet and refill it with new ink. Zoya doesn't want to fall again. Before that, Zoya also wanted to correct herself so that she was in her current position. 

'Do I have a lot of mistakes? Until Zada turned away? I still seem to lack a lot. I'll try to fix that,'

Zoya's mind goes on fighting thinking about what causes Zada to turn away. Zoya certainly can't take everything for granted. There must be a flaw that Zoya doesn't know about. Zada should have rebuked him, not even looking for a new person who suits his wishes. 

Zoya rubbed her rough face and exhaled her tired breath. Sunday for Zoya was boring. Finally, Zoya chooses to go to the nearest park even though the weather is still drizzling.

On foot, Zoya steps onto the sidewalk to a nearby park. Not to forget, Zoya carries her umbrella. Not long after, Zoya has arrived at the park. Not many people visit because the weather is not favorable. 

Due to her hungry stomach, Zoya chooses meatballs as her lunch menu, matching the weather today. "Bang, the meatballs are one warm tea, huh?" zoya told meatball sellers.

"Good, Neng. Hold on, I make it first," replied the friendly meatball brother. Zoya nodded and sat herself in one of the empty seats. 

Not for long, the meatballs are order. Zoya immediately ate after reciting the prayer. Just as one mouthful of meatballs entered his mouth, there was a voice so familiar it interrupted. "Don't you, order the meatballs two packs, huh?" 

Zoya turned her head and sure enough, Zada was already standing in the doorway while playing her phone. There is a longing slipping in her heart but, when Zoya remembers the wound that Zada has inflicted, Zoya immediately casts a glance. 

His love is too precious to waste. 

Zoya's appetite is suddenly lost somewhere when she remembers Zada ordering two servings of meatballs. 'Who else would it be if it wasn't for Ghaida?' put Zoya in the heart. 

Zoya drinks her warm tea, trying not to be distracted by Zada's presence around her. Zoya also doesn't expect Zada to see her. Better it doesn't happen because Zoya will find it harder to forget Zada. 

"Zoya?"

Zoya immediately closed her eyes when she heard Zada's voice calling her name, so Zoya shouldn't have to think about it. 

"Bang, so how much?" zoya ignores Zada's call. Zoya wants to assume Zada never existed forever. Better that way. 

After the meatballs mentioned the nominal, Zoya rushed out and passed Zada. Unexpectedly, Zada blocks Zoya's wrist. "Let go." - Zoya, with great emphasis. 

Zada ignores Zoya's words and rushes to pay for the meatballs he has ordered. "Zoya .. Follow me for a moment" said Zada slowly. Having no choice, and everyone was looking at her, Zoya nodded her head in resignation and followed Zada's steps. 

Zada takes Zoya into the car. Zoya wants to refuse however, all are already lost quickly with the movement of Zada who locks the car from the inside. Zoya stared intently at Zada who had acted at will. 

Zada rubbed his face in frustration. "Are we no other way but to separate?" ask Zada without burden. Zoya stared at Zada. "You think I'm an item that you can just drag carelessly? I also want to be happy, not only do you need to be happy and easily turn away. Less what try, I've been this long!" zoya asked in a high voice. 

Zada began to be provoked by emotions and stared intently at Zoya. "Want to know where your mistake is? It was your fault that there was never time for me. You're always busy with your flower shop. In fact, I can meet all your needs! You can't cook, and lastly, you don't have kids!" 

Zoya was glued to the spot, Zada's words were indeed not wrong. But, can Zoya be disappointed and hurt? Because that's what Zoya is feeling. Zoya swallowed her own saliva, like a large stone was blocking her throat. 

It hurts so much if someone Zoya loves blatantly reproaches her. Zoya's chest felt tight until it was difficult to breathe. Without feeling, a clear circle flowed from both corners of his eyes. Lately, Zoya has been crying a lot and looks weak. 

Zada grabbed his hair in frustration when he realized he had mispronounced. "Mrs …." Zada wants to touch Zoya's shoulder but immediately Zoya brushes. With the rest of her strength, Zoya finally made a sound. "Mas ... Why are you saying it now? Why didn't you say it before? Why did you just say that you objected because I didn't get pregnant? Why don't you say it …." Zoya began to cry with tears. 

"Mrs …."

"If you had said it a long time ago, maybe I wouldn't have been your barrier to getting married again. I'll voluntarily let you go, Mas. As long as you are happy and achieved all your wishes, Mas," said Zoya after more calm. 

Zoya tried to carve out her smile. "I'm sorry when I'm with you, there are so many mistakes I make. I am not perfect therefore, I need to be supported and advised,"

"Zoya ..." call Zada to try to calm Zoya down. 

"Blessed, Mum. We'll settle our business in court later. I hope, everything is finished quickly so that you are also happy quickly. Sorry if all this time, I was just a burden on your life," Zoya wiped the rest of her tears and rushed out but, Zoya realized that the car door was still locked. 

"Open the key, Mom. I also want to be happy, "said Zoya who managed to make Zada comply and let Zoya go. Zoya runs towards her house regardless of the rain that starts to fall again from the sky.

Zoya can cry to the fullest without having to be known by those who see her because her tears are disguised by rain.

The universe seems to be sad and accompany Zoya to cry.

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yes it is ...

forgetting the former is not as easy as it is in the mind. hopefully Zoya quickly recovered yes, please pray🙃

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