It's Not My fault for Being an Actor
Season 2, Dad

Rara sat down beside Joy, with her eyes looking the other way.

"Ra, can I ask you something?" ask Joy to Rara.

"Ask something huh? there seems to be nothing to ask about Rara and nothing really matters."

"But there's something that makes me curious and my curiosity won't go away until I ask you directly."

"What you want to ask, if I can answer, I'll answer and if I don't, I'm sorry I won't." saut Rara and Joy immediately asked him something that was on his mind.

"I just want to know, where's your dad? why did you and your mother have to bone down to survive, this should be your father's responsibility as the head of the family." asked Joy who was trying to find out the truth about Mama Karin and also her sister Rara. But Joy's question made Rara speechless and chose to stand up and go into the house, but Rara's hand reached Joy until Rara could only move a few steps before stopping.

"Take me off sir, I want to get inside the house." Rara tried to pull her hand that was still in Joy's hands and tried to let go.

"I'm sorry Ra, if my question is wrong, but I really don't mean to make you angry. If you don't want to answer no problem but don't be mad at me.

"Father's only been here two days, and you've been digging about my family." Joy releases Rara's hand and lets Rara into the house.

Joy sat down on the stairs again, with a sad look on her face. There was no intention of her to make her sister angry, but her curiosity made her unable to resist asking Rara directly.

"Sorry brother Ra, it's not your intention to make you sad. I just want to know what's really going on, so I can figure out the best way to get you to papa. There's no way I'm asking Karin's mom directly, I'm afraid that this question will make your health worse." Joy murmured in silence. Rara who was still standing at the door noticed Joy who was still sitting alone on the stairs. Makes Rara feel guilty for her overly rude remarks.

"I'm sorry sir, if I was too rude." Rara approached Joy and sat down next to Joy.

"No, I'm wrong."

Rara took a deep breath and he exhaled violently. "Dad, I don't know and I never know what my father's face is. Since birth I have lived with my mother alone. Every time I ask you about dad, mom just says you're gone. And asked me to forget about dad. Many times I ask but the answer is always the same, until I was humiliated by my friends they told me I was an illegitimate child until I felt ashamed and decided to quit school because of their treatment of me which embarrassed me." Rara continued to tell her life with her mother to Joy to shed tears.

Joy spontaneously wiped away the tears that had soaked Rara's cheeks." Do you hate your father?" Rara shook her head, "I never hated dad, mom always told me not to hate him, mom also said, it's all my fault for making dad leave. Until now in every prayer I always pray that I can be in a meeting with my father even if only in a dream, it has made me feel happy. I'm gonna tell Dad that I'm okay with mom here even without you."

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Ken, sitting alone on the balcony where Ken and Karin often spend time relaxing together.

The shadow of Karin is still there every time Ken misses her. His laughter, attention and also his anger that always makes Ken can not forget the figure of his wife who had been beside him.

"For years, you left me. But why does it feel like you're still around me. Maybe this heart has not been able to let go of you. Honey forgive me for failing to protect you as a husband. I hope you're at peace in your new place and wait for me to come see you." Ken spoke alone.

Arthur orders his subordinates to prepare everything that Joy asked Arthur.How surprised Arthur when reading all the items in Joy's message there is one of the strange items. In the message Joy asked to send a blue kebaya.

"It's not wrong that Joy asked for this. Who is this for?" Arthur also tried to contact Joy and ask for one of the items she asked for to confirm the truth, but unfortunately many times in contact but could not.

"Sir Joy is there working or looking for a future wife? or maybe even brother Joy wants to marry a village girl. Arthur begins to guess about Joy.

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That night Joy could not sleep, she was always buzzing with Rara's words that made her keep thinking hard about what happened. And what reality he does not know. Because at the time of the shooting Joy and Arthur had gone first so they did not know clearly what really happened.

"What I have to do, I don't know what's really going on and why you don't want to go back to see papa, mama should be trying to find a way out to be back with papa instead of staying away from papa. Or something happened after mom was dumped in this village. It's unfortunate your fate ma, even though I'm not your biological child but I love and already consider you more than my own real mother." Not yet had Joy's eyes closed, she heard Karin kept coughing in the kitchen and it seemed to be very torturing for her. Joy rushed to Karin in the kitchen and was sitting in front of a wood stove and trying to start a fire to cook.

"Mom... What do you do in the early hours like this? I should have rested you'd still be sick." call Joy and walk over to Karin.

"Son Jo, what are you doing here. Rest day is still dark. I want to cook rice for breakfast." said Karin as she continued trying to start the fire."

"I can't sleep, can I help you turn on the fire, I'd better do something else pity you if you inhale too much smoke, your cough will get worse." Joy takes over from Karin, although Joy has never done the job herself. Karin only smiles as Joy tries hard to turn on the fire because the wood is slightly wet to a lot of charcoal that sticks to Joy's face.