The Father Boy
ALA75'S CHAT. Chandra's Change
"You can lie." Chandra immediately bit off Izza's chest.
Izza laughed loosely, then held Chandra's head. He was shocked by the sudden attack from Chandra, it was too soon according to Izza. He thought, Chandra will do it slowly.
A battle ensues, with Chandra attempting to die half-dead. He daydreamed, having finished giving Izza an inner living.
He felt, it felt just like that. He felt s**s were not what he expected. It is like heaven in the world according to him, but it feels like there is less and there is nothing that is not right according to him. There is a wedge, which Chandra himself does not understand.
He touched his own heart. Izza is still there, dear and her love is still there for the name. However, he felt like he was tired of having a relationship that he did not understand this. He understood, they were a new couple. But, Chandra felt that the facade was different. Her partner remains the same, with Izza's character keeping her even more confused.
He ignores Izza's attitude when they are dating, but he fears Izza is sick and his father scolds him constantly to please Izza. If, he let Izza off with his own vexation. Chandra felt wrong, even though he was tired of working all day to increase his income. But when at home, his wife wants to be heard and understood without understanding him.
He understood that the new household was prone to division. But if he relented continuously, he even completely lost his interest in his wife. Chandra doesn't understand what the connection is, but it's as if it's continuous. He had heard about men certainly can relate to any woman in bed, even though the woman hated him. But he felt that he was not that kind of man.
He was confused about where to look for advice, because his father seemed to put women first. But he felt tired, because he had to always understand without being understood.
He does not want to be adored like a king. He needs friends to relax his mood and mind after a long day of work under pressure. But when he met his wife, complaints and complaints he always got. Even a few days ago, Izza returned the money for the reason that there was not enough for tomorrow's shopping.
Not because he had no money, but the cash in his wallet was only worth it. While the rainy day, makes Chandra lazy to go out of the house again because he came home with rain.
It may be trivial, but it makes Chandra keep remembering his wife's rejection. He assumed that his wife would not receive a low-value living. In fact, the fraction is not so small nominal according to Chandra. Fifty thousand rupiah, he remembered clearly returned by his wife.
Chandra thought to his wife to hold it first. When the rain subsides, Chandra will take the money again. However, an early rejection occurred before Chandra said his intention.
He did not understand either, his loss of interest related to what. But many things that he himself, in order to keep the condition of Izza healthy. Because if Izza is sick, he does not like the pressure from his father who only cornered him.
Chandra tries to keep those things.
"Why, Bang?" Izza pulled the body of her husband, to hug him back.
"Nothing." Chandra smiled and complied with his wife to get her hug back.
Chandra understands enough now, with everything his wife wants. But he felt a wedge, he felt like he was lacking in sincerity to act.
He understood the character of Izza long ago. Only, he was too sorry for the girl who always got the scholarship.
He chose to silence Izza, if he was angry, or heard Izza's babble. Not because he felt he had to win, but he was worried that his mouth was breaking their relationship.
Will who pity Izza, if not him. Not everyone wants to care, especially about material things. Not that he felt the excess of property, he was willing to collect his rupiah for the sake of Izza. He felt much more fortunate, than Izza who was difficult since long ago. It is what continues to encourage him, to still care for his neighbor and the people closest to him.
He understood the economics of Izza's parents long ago. But a little bit of Izza's attitude that returned the money, scratched Chandra's soft heart that always loved her. Izza obviously didn't know, because Chandra was just silent. The silence of Chandra, to keep Izza from suddenly getting sick.
"I love you more than my brother." Izza rubbed her husband's cheek.
"Oh yeah? Because what?" Chandra smiled faintly at his wife.
"Because Brother now knows me better. Why didn't you know I wanted to go here?" Izza was so admiring the figure he had been adoring all this time.
"Because it was me." Quite ambiguous answer Chandra. But he did not intend to clarify it.
"Who is now? Is it twin brother? Exchanging people is that?" Izza laughed amusedly.
Chandra just pulled her lip line. He had no intention at all to explain it.
The vacation package that Chandra booking, just in vain. Because of three days of vacation, Izza just wanted to be with her in the blanket. In fact, Chandra just silently tried to take Izza's sense of understanding when her stomach rang.
Eating, Izza prefers food delivered to their room. Their activities are only in the room, although not only do bed relations.
According to Chandra it was not a holiday, but it was a way to curb him. His mood changed drastically, he often smiled fake until their wedding month came.
Chandra increasingly feels lost in his identity, as well as his freedom to socialize. The joking laugh in bed, is the pleasure Izza and Chandra have to fulfill. Meanwhile, he prefers to joke outside the room with his brother's crowd. Not only does he want to be with his family, but he wants Izza to dissolve in the happiness and warmth of his family as well.
"What's the matter, why do you often call Abang from outside the gini room?" Izza again protested at her husband, as her husband hastily left their room.
"Dad needs his son, Za." Chandra only glanced at a glance, then walked out of his room. Every time someone called him, it was like an opportunity for Chandra to get out of the room.
His sleep is always disturbed, because Izza always invites him to talk and discuss what he likes. His world was so if, because now his life is like Izza who governs.
"Where, Dad?" Chandra opened the door to her room, then she put on her shirt.
"Uncle you didn't tell me I had to prepare like this. That's right, the pick-up letter came immediately as well as the police officer." Givan panicked, he found it difficult to describe his current state.
"Huh?" Chandra widened her sleepy eyes.
"Dad confused himself, it's the police waiting on the porch." Givan pulled his son out of the house.
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