Don't Love Me Again
Kayra's cousin

I poured all the money I have right now on mas irfan with a very heavy heart

" it's 5 grand! Make diapers if the kitchen problems stay waiting tomorrow afternoon I payday, so I bother win win"

Ejek mas irfan to me as if I complicate everything

" yes mas but tomorrow morning mas irfan time gamau breakfast first, the stock in the kitchen uda exhausted all tablets mas. Can I have 5 grand? Make tofu buy the same mini-packaged soy sauce?"

Ask irfan to bargain

" duh this I just bring 30 thousand out hanging out together temen I don't quite win already I'm tomorrow rabasapan...."

" yes, it's your decision so I won't prolong this matter!"

" wait.. Waitaminute! That's instant noodles there's one, so tomorrow morning I'll have breakfast that's okay. I'm going to hang out with my friends at the cafe to sleep first I'm sure to go home late at night"

"Yes yes instant noodles actually in my mind if tomorrow morning only irfan mas left then what will I eat? And how to feed inspiration if I can't pump my asi, I'm so confused"

I really want to say that long sentence to mas irfan but what is the power of a windi who is already under the emotion of mas irfan

" yes, please go "

I thrust my right palm at Irfan who was still standing upright in the same place

" win gausa! You just haven't washed your hands must smell the same rich kitchen your body is getting fatter every day!"

" dmkk"

My heart is like the sharpest sword the world has ever seen. Again irfan blamed my imperfect physique

I who just silently stared did not answer a single word about the bitter statement given left behind irfan mas who had disappeared from behind the main door of house 1

" yaudah if mas irfan wants to be eaten outside I can what? Who am I to him? I used to be like a queen but my mind says that right now I deserve to be a marriage contract "

It was my evil thoughts that hurt all my physical and mental health.

" i'll eat the food I've cooked..."

My eyes started to look glassy because they blocked the tears from coming down

" rice, vegetable bayem and tempeh"

The stomach that scratches the crisps is filled with many worms protesting, to treat it of course I have to immediately fill human power gasoline. After I finished I immediately washed the dirty dishes so as not to accumulate tomorrow, before returning to the inspiration room I took stock of milk first

The room with the lights still brightly lit makes these eyes a little disturbed, just turn it off and replace the illumination of the inspiration room with a sleeping lamp that will make me and the inspiration to sleep soundly

The inspiration that had sucked milk from the bottle began to feel the drowsiness that became so, with eyes that began to close and open now no longer open which indicates inspiration has begun to enter the world of dreamland

" well sleep, son, wake up in the morning... Mama wants enough rest tonight, mama's head often feels dizzy. Good night and good night, my beloved son, sweet dreams.."

Seeing the inspiration to fall asleep made me feel very anxious to see the priesthood he had, I wanted to bite the round cheek he had, but of course I was afraid of getting out of control and even hurting his body

I lay down a body full of fatigue, besides the body of inspiration that has fallen asleep very soundly, curate the face of inspiration very gently until finally I began to enter the world of dreams

" win I want to divorce you I already have a much more perfect replacement for you, of course she's prettier, sexier, better at taking care of me and also she can make money unlike you"

" mas please don't divorce me, I still love you so much, so I'm asking you to give me one more chance to fix everything you're lacking I beg you.."

I keep trying to plead when the Irfan who has made the decision my body has gathered before himself by holding the left calf mas irfan

" well if indeed you still want to remain with me, then allow me to get married a second time and you will become my wife hence you must yield to the young wife. because I'll only see you once in a while if you still want to be with me that's all if you don't want a better one tomorrow we go to the religious court alone!"

Reply mas irfan who still continues to head with a decision that makes me feel even more devastated

" i need time for that..."

"Well take 12 hours tomorrow morning you have to come up with the answer to all that"

Mas irfan who has given me a chance of time very quickly then he passed away leaving me alone in the living room was silent.it was just that still heard the sound of a hiccup my cries were still thrashing want to be heard

I can't think of all the decisions that made my heart so sick, I think my body is no longer needed in this world I feel very desperate and want to leave the world that has hurt me lately.

I who was already feeling very desperate finally went into the room of inspiration and took her body to carry her and take her away from this place

Kususuri the road that was already pitch black was only the street lights left and some vehicles were still passing by in the dark of night.

Something made me feel more chaotic I stared longer at the bridge crossing which of course underneath is a place where the vehicle is very crowded, one by one the stairs felt like a very heavy climb because not only grew the inspiration I carried but also the burden of life that I had believed that someday would be fine, he said, in fact, all just be a mere hope that is spoiled without a little rest.

I reached the last stairway where pedestrians could cross I stared down at the lamenting vehicle that was still too slow would I have to end my life this time so that everything could be resolved I was tired god I've asked you to give me easy problems but in fact there are many trials that arise in my life and I can't live it better now I and my baby come back to you and I will tell you why did I choose to retreat from the earth.

Without anyone on the bridge I began to jump over the bridge barrier and would immediately jump by releasing both hands that were still attached to the bridge barrier, goodbye world I'm gone I can't be on earth that always hurts.