Don't Love Me Again
No matter

" dad, you're conscious? why can it be like this father what makes dad to have trouble breathing"

" it's okay to win, maybe because the age of the father is no longer young"

I don't feel these tears well but I don't let these tears fall in front of my dad I don't want you to be sad because I see me crying.

" where is revelation win?"

" he was picking up my important phone, he said from the office"

" he's always been busy with the company since your father gave him the responsibility, I don't want to boast of the revelation win. But I just hope someday you'll find a man like revelation"

I just smiled at my father's words because in fact I remembered about a piece of paper from the religious court.

" he must be dad, I will continue to ask the authorities to find a man who really loves windi"

My father smiled at my words

" windi gasolates? Adzan maghrib loh"

" windi again comes father's month, can windi's father not?"

" what's win?"

" why do people who windi love even ninggalin windi yes well, why don't windi aja replace them or why windi gautikt they aja yah"

" win dengerin dad.."

Though my nose is still clearly using an oxygen hose, but he still tries to answer questions that are not too important for my father

" if you say that again, I'm sorry!

My father's gaze was so sincere to me but I made my father sad even more

" yes, father, windi apologizes and gabakal windi repeat again"

Dad who still looks need a break finally I told him to sleep alone and I who still want to be in the room dad decided to sleep on the long sofa in this room

The moment these eyes closed, a hand shocked me

" win wake up!"

" what's wrong yu?"

" you'd better move into your room"

" no yu I want to keep dad here, I'll stay with you"

" no need to win, there's me and the nurse here"

" well, I'm gonna move into my room"

I am still filled with excessive drowsiness looking for objects time hints turned out the clock has shown at 08.00 pm without me realizing I was sleeping long enough

I walked this leg into the room and down the stairs as faintly as seen by the eyes perhaps because of the dizzy effect of my low blood pool

And right this left leg is wrong to tread the stairs but a hand catches my back body that is able to hold this body to fall or even can be rolled down

" thank you for helping me in time"

Revelation did not answer my thank you but instead lifted up this body by embracing both of my thighs right in his right arm

" yu what are you doing?"

" to make sure that you'll be okay win"

There was no more conversation after that I felt awkward as I looked at her face very closely, no matter what was on my mind at the moment.

" you want to go in your own room or need me to take you to bed "

" aaa aaaa eee I'm down here"

I was ready to answer the question of revelation

The revelation that had heard my decision he lowered this body right in front of the door of the room that was already wide open just before the revelation lowered my body

" yu thank you"

Again the revelation did not answer my thanks, and instead passed away leaving me without a word

" aghh shit why he didn't answer anything, actually wanted him to do well earlier aja sok soan attention but his attitude even ignore me exhausted"

I lay down this whole body and say a sentence to end this night of obstacles

" dad goodbye, good-bye inspiration and also Irfan who had the heart to make the two people I love leave me and without empathy also sent a divorce letter on the same day, I will always remember today July 11, 2018"

The exhausting day I had ended with great difficulty even though many tears poured down the face that no longer blushed

" good evening a world full of wounds, may there still be happiness that awaits among the rest of life that is no longer bright like the full moon"

Slowly these two eyes can no longer capture the picture of the room, I can be silent at night with the embrace of the shadow of the loved ones who are still alive in the memories

* morning of arrival*

The singing of birds flying in the blue sky seemed melodious, the morning breeze that not only cools the body but also the heart began to hum in the backyard and the sunlight that seemed not reluctant to perch on my face always bothers me even though he knows I still want to sleep.

" astaghfiruallah! It turned out that the sun had started to rise, I woke up and quickly rose from sleep but something made me more aware. I'm no longer in the same place and I don't even have to do my homework anymore"

I uncovers the blanket that is still attached to cover this body, I hug both knees with a sitting position and the head that begins to turn above the knees.

" i miss my old life, except being the babu of my future ex-husband"

The divorce process is still ongoing and as long as it's not over I won't go out, I'll stay here to look after dad.

" win wake up win! Win's up"

" yes, what's wrong? I woke up!"

I answered while wiping away the remaining tears

" may I come in?"

" just enter the gadikunci kok yu"

I pulled out the blanket and put it back on this curled up body

" let's get down we go downstairs, we'll eat together"

" i'm not hungry yu!"

My answer confirms the invitation of revelation

" but father called you to come down"

" dad to eat together too?"

" yaiyalah win time ya iyadong anyway!"

" is he healed?"

" alhamdulillah quite win, let's go down quickly"

" ntar ah to take a shower first"

" it's at least the same toothbrush wash hands, it's enough"

My forehead began to frown on how I could eat without taking a bath first, but if I take a bath I would be slow to eat because of me, I better follow the advice of the revelation alone

" well I'll wash my face first and you can come down first, I'll catch up with you soon"

After the revelation closed the door to leave myself, I rushed straight to the bathroom and quickly finished what I was doing and headed straight for the dining room that must have been waiting for me.

" my daughter has finally arrived"

I replied to my father with a perfect smile,

" is he healed?"

" it's certain that you'll recover if your son takes care of him"

I feel more comfortable in this family

" dad want some bribe?"

" no win don't you better finish your food. I can eat by myself"

A few minutes passed by eating food but between enjoying the food dad again talking about something

" are you ready to be her secretary of revelation?"

" mm is actually windi.."