I Made You Fall in Love with Me
Episode 20's

My body shook violently, when I saw my baby who was only 2 weeks old had heart failure. Ms. Rumi, a midwife who has helped us a lot, drove us to the hospital in the city to get intensive care there.

after the examination for almost 1 hour.

then the doctor called me and Miss Rumi.

the doctor explained that there was a very severe heart leak in my son's heart, along with his head that was getting bigger and bigger.

Oh my God, my body feels weak, even though I listened to Ms. Rumi's explanation yesterday when I finished giving birth, but the explanation of this heart specialist is more devastating to my heart and my entire body.

Bu Rumi's hand clasped my hand tightly, as if she were saying I should be strong, I should be stronger, I looked at Bu Rumi's face with a hint of my sincere smile that I somewhat forced

" In this hospitalization, it takes intensive room so as not to be contaminated with dust - dust or others, so as not to get worse.

Yes, although he will not last long with this condition, at least we have tried" said the doctor explained the condition of my son further

really, the more vibrating this body feels, the more I want to scream

So my son has no hope left to live

the more tears, the more,

I realized that when I was first pregnant, I had never taken proper care of my womb, all the bitter events one by one, from the non-recognition of my womb by Edward Lee, then followed by the pain of his mother with the end of his death, I invited him while in the womb to work hard in Ladan, while working hard in the fields I did not feel tired, I did not feel tired, sick or whatever so yes I think my content is good - fine until I never checked my content even once.

" Sawar, now you must organize your heart, so that it will be strong to accept the most bitter reality about your son Bimo" said Bu Rumi as she hugged me. I know it's some kind of reinforcing word for me from Miss Rumi

deliberately I gave my son's name BIMO, so that later he will be strong like a BIMA puppet character, I want him to be tergar & strong even though he does not have a father.

I can't believe that the name isn't as strong as I imagined it to be, Bimo has to endure pain at just 2 weeks old.

he fought against the pain he was born with,

almost a few days I can't close my eyes in the least, I want to feel like I'm with my son in pain, so that he doesn't feel it alone.

I do not glorify myself, eat it feels like I am no longer tasteful, every night I add my schedule for tahajud prayers, Istikharah prayers and hajat prayers

I want to always approach myself to the Khalig

I want to ask for the fruitfulness of my son, so that God may give him an additional Age of Blessing Baroque longer with all health for him to live on

I want the three of us to live happily.

But it turns out that God willed another, even 3 Weeks Bimo age, he had to return to His Presence, God loves Bimo more than me and my brother.

this is the third time I have seen the death of my father, my mother and now my three children.