SAVANNA
CHAPTER 23

We finally got home. Mother who had finished talking for a while with the driver who drove us finally followed me into the house.

I opened the door, but the key could not be turned. I press the doorknob, then the door opens.

Loh?.

"Welcome". The male voice coming from inside the house surprised me.

The mother who had now arrived and stood behind me was just as shocked when we found a very irresponsible figure sitting on the living room sofa welcoming our arrival.

"Why are you still here?". Asked the cold mother aware of the figure.

He walked ahead of me and approached the bastard.

"Don't be like this Saphira, pity our Savannah". Said the man who was none other than father.

"Don't divert. Why are you still showing up?! Huh?!. Didn't you tell your lawyer to tell me not to disturb your new home?. Then why are you still coming here?!". Said the mother at length with a face full of emotion staring at the father.

"Mom... Mother should not be excessive emotions, later the mother's pain relapses again". I said worriedly while rubbing my mother's arm so that her feelings could be better even if it was impossible.

"Dad. I'd better leave, not the father who left us first, then why do you still bother mom by acting like this". I continued to look at my father and try not to explode to see my parents who continued to argue with each other.

"Look at. A kid like Savana is wiser than an adult like you". Satirize the father with a cynical expression on the mother.

I who witnessed it became fed up with his attitude.

The two also returned to mouth. Every word they spoke was like a hard blow to my mental and mental state.

Huhh?. Why doesn't this end, too. Hasn't solved the other problem, now it's even increasing again. It feels so tired. Inner me tired.

Mom also began to regulate her breathing, she chose to sit on the sofa opposite her father. I who choose to stand in the middle of them can only remind mom to control her emotions.

"Don't talk much. Now what do you want?". Said the mother in a slower tone but looked at the father sharply.

"Not many. You clearly know who this house belongs to". Say with confidence.

Since their last fight, Dad's changed a lot. Now he looks like a real bastard.

"What do you mean?!". Ask the mother who is starting to look emotional again.

"Mom... ". I tried to remember his high blood.

"Silent Savana, you better go out and play with your friends". Mother's words are full of emphasis.

I can't believe my mom ended up treating me like this. Makes me feel like I can't do anything, and always hide their problems. I'm fed up. I'm tired of this situation!.

"Mom! Vana is not a child anymore, after all this is not Vana's fault. Why do you keep fighting!". I finally couldn't hold back my emotions anymore.

Mom and Dad looked at me in turn. I who feel angry and sorry finally chose to get out of this house. Mom and dad called me but still, the feeling I kept feeling was finally exploding as well. Coupled with previous problems that arise one by one. I think I want to be alone now. I need some calm. I thought coming home could calm a little bit of my hurt feelings, but it turned out to be the same. It even adds more to the wound in my heart.

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I walked down the hallway next to my house. Along the way I cursed myself in my heart. Not that I promised my mother not to leave her under any circumstances, but look at me now, walking without direction and away from the mother who was in trouble.

Even so, to be honest, deep down in my heart, I miss you too. I don't want them to get divorced. It's too painful but I have to accept the facts. Even though I really want to hug my mom and dad at the same time. But wouldn't I be selfish if I asked them to come back for my own sake?. It means that I only think about my own pleasure. Huh... I'm really unstable and worried.

Not to mention my problems with James. It should have been from the beginning, since her parents did not agree with our relationship, I did not need to reciprocate with her again. Just because of the frills of pity and feeling 'hurt' seeing him pleading with me at that time, I became a fool. It was all because of my greed. It was because my ego wanted to be with him too much. See now, how this relationship was destroyed as destroyed.

It's better, me and James don't have to be together anymore.

Along I went through this path, which somehow led me to which side of the road, along with my thoughts and my heartbreak on the problem I was facing.

Slowly I began to realize all the deeds and how I made that decision before. Is correct. No more defending, I judge everything from a realistic point of view. I try to be honest and honest with myself. It's very difficult indeed. But maybe, if from the beginning my thinking was like this, the problem would not be as big as it is now. Might as well.

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I saw an empty street bench located right in front of a shoe store. The store called 'Deichmann' was seen quite crowded by visitors and buyers.

I also decided to sit on the street bench in front of the store while relieving fatigue in my legs and mind. I don't know, how many meters or maybe it has been up to a matter of kilometers I walk, until finally I was in a shopping place where pedestrians were quite crowded.

Huh...

Exhausted. My inner.

I watched them pass by with various expressions on their faces. Some walk alone, some are both, even crowded. But I still feel lonely. I don't know why in this situation I think about Jacob. Is this the effect of the kiss?. Hahh, if it's true then I've made a big mistake. I should have stayed away from any connection to that family. Huhh...

I closed my eyes for a moment to breathe the air that was at dusk today. The cloudy weather made the street lights turn on early because the situation was quite dark. I don't know exactly what time it is. Because of my own carelessness, my phone is no longer working. I'm grateful for it, at least no more deafening phone calls. I think I've been traumatized by my own phone ringing ever since Ashela called. I don't want to think about that anymore. It's not her fault either. For now I decided not to use that little thing just yet.

Huhh...

I exhaled heavily after a long time of being busy with my own thoughts. It feels so much better now than an hour ago.

Long enough I looked up at the sky, until the splash of water hit my face. Will it rain?. But my body and soul are reluctant to leave this place. The chair I was sitting in right now was like tying me to not go anywhere.

The longer, the spark turned into a stub that increased every second.

Tics.

Tics.

Tics. Tics. Tics.

The footsteps of the people running around looking for shelter were clearly heard in my ears. In this crowd, I'm the only one who doesn't move to find shelter. I decided to stay and enjoy this rain while closing my eyes. I feel comfortable in this situation.

Until the next minute, the stub turned into a heavy rain that flushed the small town where we lived. Along with that, my tears again dripped. But not to be sad and regret all these problems. I also don't understand why these tears are dripping. I don't know since when, but now I feel very calm under this rain. It felt like every tired I was dripping along with every grain of rain that came upon me. Unknowingly, by reflex my lips carved out a smile. I don't know for sure. Right now I just feel like everything's gonna be okay. I just need to accept everything that's happened.

Maybe the people who look at me right now assume that I'm a stressed person and have lost their minds.

I don't care, they don't even know the story I've been through.

I really don't care about those who look at me with weird looks.

I don't give a shit...

I just want to cry and smile in the rain. That'sthat's all.

- April Cn

NB:

Sorry everyone, this is going to be a tough time. But I will try my best to update on time even though the episode may not match your expectations. Forgive mea~~😢